To That Person

A bit long again, you can read it on the weekend. =)

After what happened, I focus a lot on lyrics and lines for some reason. Before, I didn't care much about lyrics, I like a song based on how it sounds, kinda. Now I will listen to a song many times until I understand every lyric (Chinese only because I don't know what some mean, learning Chinese at the same time). I never pay so much attention to lines from dramas and movies either, it's weird... Also started reading articles/posts too. Maybe I just have too much time on my hands now? Not like I want to.

Just had a talk with a friend and I asked her did she think that person was a bad person when I first told her about him. She said no, not until what he did to me. However, in the beginning she knew if I ended up with him, it will be a difficult road. Honestly, I knew it would but I was willing to go through the hard times and be there for him but doesn't matter now. His loss. Maybe this is better for both of us?

The same friend sent me a post awhile ago on "Thought Catalog" (I've read a few before she sent it to me) and I started reading other posts on there too. Some of them are pretty good, they aren't long so it's a nice read. I thought this post was written just for me to that person, "To The Guy Who Let A Good One Go".

Uh, yes I did say "thank you" to that person when he shattered my heart. That thank you was from the heart, it didn't mean anything. I truly wanted to thank him for all the happy times. Some people might think I'm stupid for saying that but you don't always have to end things so horribly right? Can't be together doesn't mean you have to be enemies right? Or am I too nice?

"She’s one of the most loyal girls out there, with the biggest heart and you really lost a good opportunity to experience what true, unconditional love is like." Not sure if I have the biggest heart but yes, that person's loss, not mine. Saving it all for the next person that will stay forever. =)

"You leaving her also taught her what to look out for when she’s ready to get back out there again. Right now she doesn’t want to think about seeing someone else but eventually she will heal and that smile will start lighting up rooms again." Yes, I know what I need to look for next time and I'll be ready soon...

"she isn’t alone. She has friends that will go to the end of the line for her, who will bring her ice cream, movies, liquor or all of the above to make her feel happy again." Yes, thank you friends! You know I love you all for being there for me! <3

"The girl you let go is one of the greatest girls you are ever going to meet." I don't know if I am the greatest, let him find out himself.

"you could never get bored because she could go from girly girl, calm cool and collected to tailgating...and yell louder than half the guys in attendance." Um, ya I can be like that, maybe at home though lol. Trust me, I can be very different when I'm at home and in public. You just don't know me well enough to know that side of me, tehehehe.

"She should be cursing your name...She doesn’t hate you, in fact she still sticks up for you when we tell her she deserves better." Yes, I don't hate. And yes, when friends say bad things about that person I still say no, I don't think he is that kind of a person...

"She chooses to see the best in people even if they’ve hurt her, even someone like you who took the trust she so hesitantly gave to you and you tore it to shreds." Depends who, him, yes.

"However if you cared about her at all...I hope you miss her; I hope you see her out looking fantastic and it stings a little in your chest." Ya...I hope.

"I think you may be a little heartless...Except you continue to let her feel like she was the problem when clearly that is not the fact." I don't know, the way he acts afterwards make me feel like I did something wrong but I have no clue what I did wrong. He makes me feel bad. ><

"you gave her every excuse in the book and walked away. You know how she feels about you and you didn’t even take that into consideration because you sir are selfish. So know that the tears caused by you, the sad posts and sad songs she’s listening to are because her heart is in pieces and she’s trying to make sense of everything." Not every excuse, just one... One is enough to hurt deeply. Yes, selfish...yes, sad posts and songs.

"what they say is one man’s loss is another man’s treasure and that is exactly what she will be." I guess? I hope.

That's all, if you have time, you can read the rest on the link above. =)

More articles that I like.
You Have To Love An Introvert Differently, most of it are true. 

If You’re On The Fence About How You Feel About Her, Read This
Don’t Give Up On The Girl Who Would Never Give Up On You 
Admitting To Your Heartbreak Is The First Step To Stitching Your Heart Back Together

Random moment, I was taking the skytrain 2 Sundays ago and listening to a bunch of old songs on my phone. I kept repeating this for some reason.
我等你－謝天華、徐子珊
"聲音氣味 容我在身邊找到你
兩對手 牽着線 最艱難時辰共勉 便愛多一點
其實與你分離 完全為等再遇你 
挨過分開滋味 我們才懂珍惜再可一起
緣分縱有分離 回來吧 我等你
千種細膩 
萬分的好奇 
感覺像奇跡 這樣 美"