I've Decided

So over the weekend I suddenly decided it's time to stop whatever I'm doing that is making myself unhappy. It's been months since what happened but I feel like I'm just "stepping around inside the circle", it's time to take a step outside of that circle. I don't want to but then what good do I get from it if I'm like this forever? Was the reaction and expression from "that person" not enough to prove that it's time to let it all go? 

I guess that "bye" that I said last time was the end to everything? I never wanted to say that word, not even when it ended. That's because I didn't want it to end. It's time to face reality Cin! 

If anything does happen later on, I'll let it be. I guess everything in life is set, if it happens, let it happen. If I do see that person again, I will still greet and smile. He is being mean doesn't mean I have to be mean back. Maybe I did do something that he dislike and he didn't tell me the truth about it? Only he will know, I'll never know. Life is always a mystery.

I know I said it numerous times (actually I don't think I have ever said I'll stop?) but I just can't forget someone just be a snap of my fingers. I wish it was that simple so I don't have to go through this pain. It will be a long and hard process but I will try my best. I'm sure you people have been through it and understand what I'm going through. I'll still talk about that person but just won't do what I have been doing that makes myself crazy. I want to thanks my friends that have been supporting me, giving me love, and making sure that I'm ok. Without you all I think I would have been 10000000000x more miserable. I love you all! <3

Random moment, I remember watching this Japanese drama call "1 Litre of Tears" N years ago. It's a sad drama about a girl that got sick and stuff. If I remember correctly, her friends and the guy that likes her left her when she got ill (horrible people!). Good thing this other guy stayed by her side (so sweet). Cantonese version of the Japanese song, Jason look so young lol!
陳柏宇 Jason Chan - 固執
"懷念有多壞 自己不想了解

以後我 太掛念你 彷如負債

可揀過 都想再遇見你

無窮盡苦楚

捱過痛過太多

擔心我 的好友 別勸我

盲目有多壞 後果不想去猜

我恨我 惦記著你 反而愉快

可惜你 總不會 認領我"