Last week, we had installers come in to do some change out for us and my manger had to go out for a bit. She said "there are enough guys in there, pick a cute one, I'll be back." LOL, gotta love her. I did check some of the guys out but I don't like any and most of them smoke so no thanks. I'm just not in the mood yet to find someone.
Few days ago, I wanted to tell my manager how I felt when I didn't see "that person" come last week but I can never say it. Then suddenly she asked, "how is it with that person?" She always seems to know what I want to talk about when I have something on my mind (usually about that person). Maybe it shows on my face? I told her about my feelings and she told me about something. Something that no-one knows the answer to, except that person. Even manager said there got to be a reason why that person asked to come the other day. But show up and don't talk is just strange (I agree).
She told me the students that get to come help out is like a "privilege", I was like??? Seriously? I don't find it a privilege... Maybe a privilege to meet me, joking! I guess a privilege to learn more than what they learn in school? She said the chef normally ask students to come, the good ones, always in class and doing good. I'm not too sure... oh well, "let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be".
I just had a question in mind right now, was that person not afraid of me telling people at work about what happened between us and they would think he is a jerk? (that's because some of them know he likes me) Well, I guess that person knows I'm not that type of person that would spread and say bad things? (Look at my next post when it's up, I do say bad things about people but no-one will know who they are, that's all) I thought he was brave to show up again, must be very awkward for that person... thumbs up to you Mr. but thumb down for not saying a word. BOOooo!
On Wednesday, I was still hoping to see but that person didn't show up. I wasn't as disappointed as last week, I guess because I never expected that person to show up anymore. If that person does show up, we aren't gonna talk anyways... I don't think that person is ready to talk and I respect that, I won't talk until that person is ready. I guess I finally woke up and realize this is reality? I have stopped what I have been doing for 5 days now, it's not as hard as I thought. It's like I'm taking drugs and trying to stop myself (I do not do drugs, just describing), or stopping a bad habit. I actually told myself just think of it as if that person has a girlfriend now, you are not on that person's mind anymore, doesn't care about you, forget about it!
Anyways, I'm finally catching up with my game, need to farm money to buy more Tsum Tsum. It takes so long! I've also been exercising for my run in May, my muscles are so sore, especially my bum. >< For charity, it's all worth it. I just hope I'll be ok during the run. Please be sunny that day with some wind!
I decided to stop posting on Instagram everyday after my 100th post yesterday. I think people are probably getting annoyed of me, time to disappear for awhile. I'm actually kind of tired of all these social media. I hardly use Facebook now, all I see are people getting engaged, married and happy life, I don't give a "sheet". I only post on Twitter when I want to express my current feelings without anyone knowing. I installed Snapchat and thought there is nothing to do on there so I uninstalled it. I will continue blogging because it helps me get everything outta my mind (sorry for all the sad posts). As long as I have ideas I will continue. Went from everyday to weekdays only, now I have so many drafts and I have no clue when to post them. When I run outta ideas then I'll post every other day.
Don't you realize people only post happy stuff on social media (most)? I guess people only want others to know how good their life is but not the bad stuff? Plus if you post bad stuff, people won't like it. People are just looking for "likes". Am I correct? I think every social media that I'm on, I have some kind of sad thing on there.
Been watching "The No No Girl" drama, yes, lines.
"If I marry just any man, I would have married long ago" (*claps* I know right, don't just pick anyone, pick the right one.)
"When you torture someone, you are torturing yourself at the same time. Love is self sacrifice, not looking for anything in return. When you love someone, you truly hope they are happy. During this process you enjoy it, willing to give, forgive, and accept. It's happiness from the heart." (True, I didn't say anything to hang on because I wanted that person to be happy. People say if you like someone you don't have to be with them, just let them go.)
Aw, epi 4, when she talked about her story. "my heart still has someone, if he is always in my heart then I won't learn to love someone. How can I forget this person? I must forget this person. That's not the saddest thing, saddest thing is he forgot me." =(
Random moment, I was gonna put "Let it be" but I changed my mind. I like this song and the drama. They were in my favourite love drama and I thought they looked good together, too bad. I like Jack the dog, so cute!
"談情時 太美妙 但是已經告別了痛愛每天困擾 是沒法可預料
愛上你 太奧妙 為甚要開這玩笑
曾快樂 曾相戀
如今一一記起
如果心 仍不死 容許我 掛念你
如果心 仍不死 容許我 掛念你
而可惜 沒法擺脫別離
說再見 那暗示
但是我想你知 事實我很在意"
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