Bee Bee Blu

Another outta the blue time, just too much thoughts on my mind. I hope I'm not making you people bored but this is "my boring stories". I was gonna post something else but I'll save it for tomorrow.

I'm so happy that they fixed the audio at work, now I can hear the music at my desk, like finally! I always have to turn it up so high because there weren't any music playing by my desk. I couldn't hear the songs I like. Now I can. =) I can dance too, joking. =D Kinda awkward at work.

Read another post and sounds like what happened to me, Read This If You’re Tired Of Waiting For Love . True, expect when you least expect it.
"He won’t be what or who you expect and he won’t come when you expect him to."
"And then someone fell in love with me when I wasn’t even looking. I was just being me."
"He came out of nowhere and I wasn’t looking for him at all."
"I stopped searching and I let the magic happen." - I never search, that's why I thought it was magic last time.
"Real love isn’t fancy dates and expensive gifts" - I never thought it was, that's how simple I am. =)

Anyways, I don't think I'll ever be able to find out the answer. It's just not meant for me to know I guess? The timing is never right... It was awhile ago already, don't think he remembers. I guess I will have to give up this time. If there is a chance and I remember then I'll ask, otherwise screw it *throw that question out the window*. Plus, there is really no point of finding out the answer anymore (right?). I'll just give myself an answer. If I do regret later, then let it be, there are always regrets in life anyways, right?

I guess my friend was right on why it's so hard for me to forget. That person is so mean! Obviously, no matter where you go you won't have any memories popping up but you know how much memories there are at my work place! Everything happened there. I have to be there 5 days a week! I don't think about it at work anymore (only when I came back from my vacation) but do you know how I feel!? And you know I'm not gonna change my job just because of that. You are so cruel!!! =( If that person ever finds this blog, I just want you to know why I didn't tell you what you wanted to know and made you wait till we see again after my vacation. I wanted to tell you the reason in person and see your expression. There were many things I wanted to tell/ask you in person... Didn't know this would happen... However, I guess waiting was good, at least I know what kind of person you really are... </3 I guess that's the reason why "tin" made me meet you but why?

I was so unhappy close to end of work, I decided to go shop. Uh, spent an ok amount on stuff...(don't really need that stuff...) Thanks for accompanying me and you know who you are. Stop being so nice to me! I feel bad. =( I honestly do! Did you see those tears falling down my face yesterday? Those were happy outta the blue eye sting tears lol. (One reason why I can't put eye make up on, it will melt pretty bad) Thanks for saying I'm truly a "c lai", because I am. =) My goal is to be someone's "c lai" someday, if there is such a day. I want to thank you for everything that you have done for me. <3 If there were more people like you in this world, this world would be a great place. The song name below is for you. =)

It's weird when I'm not cold but I sneeze outta the blue. Is it true that someone is talking/thinking about me? It always happens, or am I just "cold" inside? I'm always cold and put layers and layers on already. I always have like 3 layers of blankies on me when I sleep (not in the summer though). Yes, that's how cold I am...

By the way, it's the first time seeing my neighbour's son or someone when I left for work yesterday morning, he looks ok LOL! Too bad, don't know him and won't talk to him. From that one look, he reminds me of 陸浩明(6號)tall, skinny with glasses hehe. I hope we see again. =D

Parents bought egg tarts and mommy have been heating one up for me to eat as dinner for past 2 nights (I don't eat rice so I eat other food to replace it)! Egg tarts = memory...=( I'll eat them happily because I love eating.

Didn't exercise for 3 days due to personal reason, feels like something is missing and I'm getting fat. I have been coming home late for past few days so that's my excuse...I guess it's ok. I'll start again maybe next week.

I'm so excited! Gonna help a friend with photography this weekend. =) Please don't rain and I hope there are pretty trees around! It's gonna be a busy weekend, good thing I booked work off, seriously thinking if I should quit part-time. I need more time for myself, I'm tired of everything. Daddy always ask, "why work so much?", um...I don't know, nothing better to do yet? 


Random moment, to you my friend "心領", not the lyrics though haha.
鍾嘉欣 Linda Chung & 林峯 Raymond Lam - 心領
"或許戀愛都只有煙火那刻的摧燦 如此簡單 快樂不多於一晚
然後發現情或許轉淡 
越討好你 就換來傷心痛哭多一晚
怕熱愛已退減 誰願稀罕這愛情
其實清楚這過程
什麼戀愛的感覺始終有它的限期
受種種責備逼我放肆敷衍你 其實已盡全力喜歡你
多得你 從今天起 我亦不稀罕等你
Never meant to be cruel, Never meant to hurt you...
我知 無謂去纏住我 無謂再去打聽
無謂發現情或許轉淡"