Should I?

There is something I really want to find the reason to but then at the same time does it really matter now? So what if I find out the answer? The answer may make me go even more crazy. But if I don't find out, I'll go crazy too! I'm so lost, I don't know what I should do. I'm always thinking about it and I'm not focusing as well as I should be, which is not good.

My friend said I should find out but I don't know how. I know it's better to find out an answer instead of all the why's and what's.

I'm sure my manager would help me but I don't know how to ask her... I was like should I ask or should I not all day long. I don't know why I can never open up myself and talk about non work related stuff unless if she asks about it. I'm 100% sure my manager doesn't care if I talk about it with her but I don't know. I'll see if I can do it, if not then just...don't find out. I actually don't even know if anyone knows the answer to it but if I don't try I won't know. 

This is annoying! Why did you have to do this to me? Is this what you want? See me sad and go crazy? =( If so, it worked. 

Random moment, I liked the drama and this song.
最美麗的第七天 - Kevin Cheng
"在這天這一分鐘遇你
下一秒 未準備
越過空間差一些運氣 
下意識的心想碰到你 
離別終捉到珍惜道理
心中一生的美是曾遇你
花一生的福氣為重遇你"