Angry?

Awhile ago my friend asked if I get angry easily. Umm, I know I always look happy but I do get angry (not easily though, I think?). I am a human after all. If I dislike someone then I get angry easily, at them only. When I'm angry I try not to show it and get that anger out by telling friends, typing it out or just talk myself out of it (calm down). If I said something wrong when I'm angry, I like to think back and hate myself for it. To me, I think when I'm angry, it's scary (that's why I don't want to show it). Have you ever heard that the scariest thing is when nice people get angry or turn evil? I guess because it's super different compared to their normal self? I think I'm the type of person that shows every emotion on my face. (A friend said that's good and it means I'm real...?) People seem to know when I'm not happy and kind of stay away or talk nicely to me. I'm not sure if that is good or bad but that's me. =)

Sometimes I tell myself why get angry? No-one will feel bad except for yourself. Just let it go and be happy. "When you are unhappy or happy, you still have to live on. Why not live happily?", it's easy to say but sometimes it's hard to do. I want to be happy too but then when someone I dislike keeps doing things I hate, it just makes me mad! Do you understand?

Do I swear? Of course I swear. Like I said before I am a human. I normally don't swear unless if I'm super mad. For example, when I rant to friends about customers at my part-time job (I'm sure you know what customers are like). I usually don't swear in public or when I talk. I swear more in my mind and though messages to friends about things. Sometimes I don't understand how people can add a swear word in every sentence they say... mostly guys.

I realize people try not to swear infront of me. One time, my manager wanted to swear but she changed the word haha. I honestly don't care if people swear, as long as you are not swearing at me. Stop thinking of me as a super goodie goodie type of girl. That is one side of me but there is another side that is not that good. =)

Do I look like I can't joke around with or something? People always ask if I'm mad after they make a joke. Maybe they are afraid I'll get hurt from their jokes? Yes, I'm a serious person but it doesn't mean I can't take jokes. I mean I joke around myself too (that's how I make people happy). As long as those are not hurtful jokes then I won't get mad. I don't think I've ever gotten mad at a joke, just hurt...once I think. 

I'm just a normal person after all. (I think I typed this in March or April?)

Random moment, I like Niki and this song.
周麗淇 (Niki Chow ) - 迎接失戀
"願望是為你苦　願望是為你哭　但是又受傷不重
很可惜　彷彿愛未濃　
心要碎　全沒躲避　
是太愛你　還是不夠愛你　令我息間　心已死

迎接失戀　但傷得不夠絕
其實我較飲泣還疲倦 無故失戀　但竟心慌意亂
戀愛盡頭　一切便事完 　曾經你是這樣熱戀
未悼念便看開　或事實未放開　昨日為甚麼相愛
這一刻　一想到未來　還要更活得精彩"