Change

You know how after something happens you just want to change things up? Yes, had that feeling for awhile already.

I honestly hate changes. The changes I'm referring to are something that I'm so used to and all of a sudden I have to change everything. I don't really like adapting to something new. I know I will get used to it after awhile but still, it's not the same anymore.

There are certain type of changes that I like, good changes, changes that make me a better person. I want to change my personality up a bit. Not too sure what I want to change up yet.

I do want to change this... I don't know how to please people, make them feel good. I'm not the type of person that would say something to make people happy. For example, you are dressed all nice and I like it but I would praise you inside my mind, I won't say it to you. Yea, it's just that hard for me to open my mouth and say that... If you know me, I'm not good at talking. Sometimes I feel like I'm saying the wrong things or people don't like my response. That's maybe why I don't speak much and seems like I'm socially awkward. I just want to be different. I know I'm not perfect and not trying to be.

Also, I've always wanted to be super mean and evil but I can't. Sometimes I hate being so nice, especially to people that does not deserve it!


Maybe I should stop caring so much about how others would feel, if they don't like what I say or do then that's their problem right?


I want to make more changes, chopping my hair was not enough of a change. I actually want to try curling my hair. I've always had straight hair and people envy me. I don't have to take care of it, I pretty much just wake up, comb it and leave the house. I always find curly hair a bit more mature though. "mature" style doesn't really suit me because I'm on the "cute" route. I may change up my clothing style, don't know though, maybe something even cuter lol. I want to make a big change so no-one will recognize me anymore, joking. =D I like the way I am, not gonna change too much. Like me or hate me.

I typed this in March or April, forgot.

Random moment, always hear this song at work.
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are
"When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah.
Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok"

720 Sweets Review Again

So I decided to go to 720 Sweets again with my besties that went with me last time. We didn't order their ice cream again because we wanted to try their drinks. If we picked the ice cream, it'll taste the same as last time but with nitrogen this time. Might as well try something else right? By the way, I received a gift card so I didn't pay for any of the drinks. I will still be honest with my opinion.

So we ordered the Westcoast Fog and Purple Rain X 2, all were $6.20 each. I should have ordered something else so I have more to comment on but if you know me I love purple. I thought the presentation of the drinks were very pretty. The Westcoast Fog was an earl grey tea (had milk in it). It had some kind of black colour on the bottom and some brown syrup, some cream on top with a little herb (not sure if it's mint or something else). You have to stir before you drink it. It was a bit hard to stir, specially with such a short straw. I took a sip, I thought it was on the bitter side. My friend said it taste better when you drink with the bottom stuff, the syrup was down there. It was ok, it was better than the Purple Rain.

The Purple Rain was a yakult drink with butterfly pea flower. I've always wanted to try the butterfly pea drinks because it makes this cool 2 layer of colours. The top layer was purple and the bottom was white, looked very pretty. You also have to stir it before you drink it. Honestly, I thought the drink had no taste. My friends thought of the same thing as well. I don't know if it had too much ice in it so it water down the flavour or just not sweet enough? I like how you get to keep the glass. Not sure what I'm gonna use it for but it's a nice decoration.

 

My friend said it sounds like those temple bells...

Overall, I love the presentation of the drinks but the taste was just soso. 720 Sweets, please purchase longer straws, it was very hard to stir. But if you guys did try longer straws before and thought this length is the best then please ignore my suggestion. I still think the store was a great place to chat with friends, we stayed longer than an hour just laughing like crazy. Will I come again? Um, I don't know, depends if they have something new that attracts me. =) My friend wanted to try their taiyaki. They finally have the taiyaki, they didn't have it the first time when we were there.

Thank you for the gift card. =) I'm just trying to give suggestions, not trying to say bad things.

Bee Bee Bee Blu

I just realized I will see the guys I used to like at least once again in my lifetime after not seeing them for awhile. Like every single one of them (high school till now)! Like actually seeing each other face to face, some would talk, most I would just walk pass them and ignore. One of them, I tried to look but he doesn't seem to care anymore (that person), I stop caring too. I just find it strange, why does "天" make me see them again? So I know how good they are doing, how "scared" they are when they see me or how much they don't want to see me? I have no clue...

Anyways, I think I'm ready for someone new in my life, just waiting for that new person to fall from the sky. =) For some reason, now I don't like that person, I feel like I hate him... I don't want that...>< (typed this and above maybe 2 weeks ago?)

You know, there isn't a day where I don't think of "that person". It's not easy to forget someone, especially someone that I truly liked. Although nothing really happened, it meant a lot to me already. And things just bring up memories and make me think of him. I hope he thinks that same way too. However, the feeling that I get when I think of him is different from before. It's not the whole I miss him, I want to see him feeling anymore.

Sometimes I get so carried away from blogging, I don't even know what time it is... It's time to go home! My manager was like you still here?

Sitting at the outlet this time. Gaming and blogging away as usual, waiting for a friend, as usual lol. No-one gets off at the same time as me... I like sitting here on a cloudy day, not hot but a little cool. I see a lot of people running around here, not running around playing but actually exercise running. There is one sitting beside me lol. He has sun glasses on so I don't know what he looks like hehe. I see a lot of people sitting around. Probably waiting for people to finish their shopping. Or like me, just chilling.

Reading posts - work wasn't too busy so read a lot of posts. A bit too much maybe...
You Are Strong Enough To Get Over Him
"You are strong enough to see that you deserve better. You deserve someone...who keeps his promises. You are strong enough to wait for someone better to come along. Someone who treats you right. You are strong enough to survive this heartache."

I’m Glad You Came Into My Life, But I’m Happier Now That You’re Gone
! Sounds familiar..."The “I’m tired tonight" texts became an everyday occurrence...I told myself it was fine, because you were busy"
"You made me feel important, important because for once in my life someone was noticing me for me." (Was I really your priority?)

This Is The Ugly Truth About Watching Someone Fall Out Of Love With You
I like most of her posts.
"And slowly, just like how he fell out of love with you, you will start to believe in love again. You will wake up one day and want to see the sun. You will want to believe again. And you will want to love again, because now you finally understand that he wasn’t the one who was supposed to save you. He wasn’t the hero in your story."

He’s Not Busy, He Just Doesn’t Give A Damn About You
"You knew guys like him could get any girl they wanted. You knew that you could potentially get hurt. But you liked him anyways. It’s not your fault he said things that made you melt. You’re sitting around wondering what you did wrong, when in reality it’s not about you at all."

Maybe This Is Silly, But I Believe In Us
"We’re too far apart. It’s too much, too soon...I knew when I started to measure my days by how long we’d talked...I knew when I wanted to tell you things I hadn’t told anyone...You made me feel alive, yet secure...I was letting my heart speak first, not my head...Before I knew what was happening, I was letting you into my life without fear...How could I be so foolish to trust someone so quickly? How could I know you were worthy my attention, my heart, my everything? How could I be so sure you wouldn’t hurt me?...But isn’t that the risk we willingly take in love? I was never afraid to take it with you...There is just believing, just trusting, just closing my eyes and stepping forward, no matter every doubt...I want to believe that we could make it. I want to believe that what we have is real and can challenge time and distance. I want to believe that the words we share...no matter what life throws our way."

7 Reasons Why Your Long Distance Relationship Is Doomed
True but I think it also depends on the person too. If you 2 really like each other, you will hang on no matter what...

They Will Only Remember Your Presence When They Feel Your Absence
"they think everyone will try so hard to win their heart and their love but they will be disappointed once they learn that not everyone will try as hard because nowadays people give up" (that's what I thought too...people these days...)
"they’re in and realize that maybe they messed up by letting you go, that maybe people like you don’t come around very often, that maybe you were their once in a lifetime" (I hope "that person" thinks that way too! Meany!)
"They’ll remember you when they see you and your eyes don’t twitch and it will hit them that they no longer move you, they no longer have any effect on you, you’re no longer theirs"

This Is Why You Should Love A Sensitive Person
"They don’t care about superficial things like what you wear, how you look or how much money you make. They care about your heart, the life it has experienced, and the stories it has to tell. "
"They understand how fragile the human heart can be...They won’t let you down and will never give up on you, because they believe in integrity and loyalty."
"They will be patient and tolerant listeners, because they don’t jump to conclusions and judge people."

This Is Why The Ones Who Let Go Are The Strongest
I actually had teary eyes reading this... 

You Pull Her In Close Just To Push Her Away

Random moment, I had another song but I picked this just because the MV seemed to match the very first thing of this post. Seeing your old love again. Good thing I don't have mutual friends with any of them so we won't see at weddings or gatherings. =) We just see out of the blue somewhere else...
JW 王灝兒 / 吳業坤 - 原來只因深愛著
"得一天也愛一天 不講一生的遠見
愛是這麼片面 矛盾都只不過為了進展
煙花散雲下繼續有煙
開心可以過一天
容顏變 心不變 但眼淺
能見到未來 這是我的底線
有些愛太天真 無法生活卻想接吻
奉獻得天真 救了我感情癮
無謂再追問 問我的良心
天色灰暗 全怪我 戀愛路認錯人
有些痛叫開心 何妨直認我這樣笨
被擄劫的心 
可能 我堅持 全被困
種植過也偷笑一天
泥土都未見
靈魂遠 身份近 亦算甜
別糾纏 
怎麼過 下半生
有種愛要犧牲 才配得到對方答允
大愛的犧牲 最怕博得憐憫
捐出心肝當做糞
接受錯愛不幸
有種愛叫抽身
別再說一生
誰人沒傷痕
無謂因這堆愛情犧牲品 灰心/軟禁"

Do We Have to Play Games?

A few friends have been going on dates with different people and I was just thinking about what they have been saying... they shouldn't reply a guy so fast. Take at least a good couple of hours to give a reply. If they ask you to an event after a date, reject them so it makes them wanting more. If you guys fight, don't message first. All these game playing strategies that I don't think I'll ever understand.

To me, I've always thought if I like that person and that person likes me then I wouldn't have to play such a game (maybe that's why it didn't work out?). Cousin said I was too easy (didn't play hard to get) for "that person", but that's me, I'm just that simple. I mean everyone is different (guys and girls), some guys might love it when the girls play these games. They may think oh she wants the chase, this is interesting. Some guys might think the girls are just immature or maybe they think the girls aren't interested? I mean I don't see everyone that plays those game to have a lasting relationship so do we really need to use such strategy? Do guys really like that or do they actually find it too much?

I would only take hours to reply a guy if I'm not that interested (trying to tell him I'm not interested but he didn't get it...). I reply ok fast if I'm into someone, it also depends how fast the guy replies. Replying fast doesn't mean I was around my phone waiting for that person's message. I always reply to people asap, doesn't matter who it is, it's like a type of manner to me? I will take longer to reply if I'm busy with something.

I honestly think life is too short for games, at least for me it is, I don't know what will happen to me next second. So in the future if there is another guy that I like and he likes me, I'll just be myself. If I have to play games to keep his interest then I guess it's not meant to be and he isn't worth it. He should like who I am, the "simple" me. =)

Random moment, good old song, I was watching "Unfair Lady" and Saving was saying these lyrics out. Song title is so true (if I'm interpreting it right), at least I find it hard to find someone with mutual feelings. I'm just that unlucky. A line from drama, "in order to prevent history to repeat itself, the best way is for them to make changes and reflect." (true but after change and reflect, will it be happily ever after?)
張學友 Jacky Cheung feat. 梅艷芳 Anita Mui -「相愛很難」
"最好　有生一日都愛下去
但誰人　能將戀愛當做終生興趣
生活　其實旨在找到個伴侶
面對現實　熱戀很快變長流細水
不過　兩隻手拉得太緊
愛到過了界那對愛人　同時亦最易變成一對敵人
也許相愛很難
要單戀都難
也許不愛不難
愛不愛都難 未快樂先有責任給予對方面露歡顏
得到浪漫　又要有空間
得到定局　卻怕去到終站 
然後付出多得到少不介意豁達　又擔心　有人看不過眼
無論熱戀中失戀中　都永遠記住第一戒　別要張開雙眼"

Sanpoutei Ramen Review

Finally get to come to this place after talking about it for half a year. Besties and I can never find time for each other lol. We are all too busy. Anyways, I don't know what a good ramen should be like. I guess it depends on the texture of the noodle, the soup, topping and everything? I'll just say whatever I thought.

My friends ordered the tori+spicy miso ramen ($13) and the tori ramen ($12). I got the tori and miso ramen ($12.50). I forgot the price but those are the prices I found online but I believe it was more than that. I paid $44 including tax and tips for all 3.

The ramen came in an ok size bowl, not big and not small. The soup had this layer on top (wrinkly looking layer?). The soup wasn't thick but it had this stickiness to it (like when you pull a slice of pizza and the cheese is pull very long, but not as long and thick. obviously). The soup was ok flavoured but I thought the noodle had no taste, a bit of taste near the end. I guess the noodle didn't soak enough of the soup? My friend said her ramen was salty. Another friend said her ramen was spicy but not overly spicy, just right. The noodle itself, I thought it was just right, not super soft or chewy. The toppings were pretty normal, same as other ramen places.

I thought the restaurant was very Japanese style. they have those clothes at the entrance (I have one for my room too LOL! Not the same pattern though, mine is cuter =D). They have the square thingy in the middle but I didn't really look at it so can't really say anything about it. I actually didn't really look around because I was back facing the whole restaurant. It was ok busy there.

The service, I thought the waitress was very nice and tried her best to answer our questions. However, the cashier lady was no comment. When she brought over the bill, all she said was cash or debit only (Yea, that was one thing I thought was stupid about them, seriously? No credit?). Normally when people bring the bill over, aren't they supposed to say thank you or smile or both? Didn't get any. Then when she came to take the cash away, I said no change, she didn't even say thank you. Not sure what kind of service that is. And no I'm not going back there again.

Boiling Point Review

This is my third time going to boiling point, I haven't been there for I don't know how long. The inside looks a  bit different compared to before but still all black. I was surprised how many people were eating there because I remembered there weren't that much people before. I guess because lunch time you get a free drink? They changed the menu so I think you get a drink for dinner as well?

If you don't know, they sell individual hot pot so you don;t have to share one hot pot with your friends, unless if you want to. I picked the house special and my friend had the spicy beef or something ($12.99). It's hotpot so it should taste good, especially with the sauces. If there isn't much flavour to the hot pot, you can dip it in 4 different sauces. I liked the garlic bean paste (I think that was the name? The dark brown one). I don't eat intestines and pork blood but I ate it all, it tasted ok I guess. I like stinky tofu but their stinky tofu is nothing close to what I had in Taiwan. I miss Taiwan stinky tofu! So good!

Their drink, I got green tea, it tasted like those bottled green tea and I feel like it is because they said they can't adjust the sweetness (everywhere can adjust sweetness nowadays). Technically, you can, just water it down. =D You can add $1 for a bigger size. They put it in those take out cups, which I like because I can never finish my drink, takes me several hours or a day.

I think they changed the way how we pay. Before they would bring the bill to us if I remember correctly but now my friend said we have to go up and pay. I wanted to pay by card but then she said their card machine is slow and if I can pay in cash... The purpose of me paying with card is because I don't want to pay in cash and I hardly have cash with me (I don't go to the bank). Anyways, that's fine. I will only come back if my friends ask me to go.

Blu Blu Blu Bee

I may stop blogging for a bit after few weeks because I'm running outta ideas. I may just post something from time to time. Not sure yet, will let you all know. Maybe I need to go out more and explore this world? I've typed all my "stories" down already and the feeling is gone (20 drafts sitting there), I have nothing I want to say anymore (I think?). Nothing new is happening in my life. =( My life feels boring, it's like I'm missing something. I didn't feel like this before. All because of "that person's" fault! But if it's not because of him I wouldn't be blogging, thanks...

I feel like I'm in probability class, trying to find all possible ways to put my "Blu" and "Bee" as a post title. =)

It's interesting how every time I book a doctor appointment or something they always give me a Monday one and it always happens to be on a demo night as well. Last time I actually changed my appointment thinking maybe I get to see "that person" again (I didn't). This time I'm not gonna be silly and change my appointment because I know he won't come anymore (why would he anyways?). We can't even be friends and talk anymore. (he choose not to)

 Aww, "Unfair Lady" drama, the opening song of the first half of the drama, Molly was all sad and lonely. The second half of the drama, after she got back with Gordon, it showed her with a happy face and a hand on her hands. It made me =). Yay, she is not alone.

I think it will be a hot summer this year. =( I think I'm gonna make some changes this summer, maybe.

Oh, this man always tries to make me laugh when he drops by our work place. He was the man that said he feels like a load of crap or something when I asked how he is. Him and crap... I almost forgot how this knock knock joke goes, I haven't had one of these since elementary I think? Thank you for bringing my childhood memory back. =) I think he wore one of the Scottish skirt to our open house, forgot if it was 2016? Funny man.
Him: Knock knock
Me: Who's there?
Him: Europe
Me: Europe who?
Him: No, "you're a poo"

Sat at a Starbucks blogging and gaming away while waiting for friends. Saw so much interesting people, just like how interesting life is, sometimes. I saw this girl wearing black slippers with brown fur on it (It was a sunny day too...). LOL! Fashion, something I'll never understand. This dude keeps looking at me (I had sunglasses on so no-one knows what I'm looking at) and a lady was sitting infront of him. Put your attention on her and stop looking around! Lol, checking these guys out... I think they play badminton. But they are like super young looking. Nothing to do for 2 hour, this is what I do haha!

Watched a few movies, watched "Logan", it's alright but thought some parts were boring, ending was sad. Just finished "Guardian of the Galaxy", not bad, love the last part when baby Groot was dancing. =) Gonna watch second one tomorrow. Decided to watch "Ghost in the Shell" because it was ranked pretty high, it was interesting but I didn't really get the ending. The one I watched had Korean subtitles so I have no clue what the Japanese guy said at all. Were they trying to make it seem like they were in Japan because all the buildings and streets looked like HK to me. I think this line was from the movie, "what we do is what defines us".

Watched "Gifted" just because, it was a bit sad near the end. Just let the girl pick herself. Aww, I had teary eyes when she said "you promised, you wouldn't leave me". Other lines, "what if they don't like me? Then they are idiots" "don't be afraid to believe in things" "I think therefore I am"

Watched Deadpool, it's funny but some parts are too >< for me. That's why I'm not really an action movie person. "You hold onto love tight and never let go." "You don't need to be a superhero to get the girl. The right girl will bring out the hero in you".

I like watching all these movies, I feel like I have something to talk about with certain people now. I mainly watch HK shows and most of the people I meet are pretty white so it's super hard to talk when it comes to watching entertainment. Sometimes I just have no idea what they are talking about.

Reading news
This Is What Happens To Lost Luggage That Never Gets Claimed
I thought both of my luggage were missing too when I came back from HK. I waited and waited, everyone from my flight got their luggage and left already and the luggage from next flight was starting to fall out. I was thinking WTF!? So much bad things happening to me. How I wanted to message "that person" about it but realized it was over already and I can't message him anymore (messaged my brother instead...). Was that whole thing not bad enough, you have to give me more horrible news? Just when I was about to line up to ask about my luggage, I saw both of them falling outta the hole. I was so happy because I just wanted to go home and see my family after a long flight, where I pretty much teared the whole flight. The most horrible flight of my life!

Photographer realises his huge mistake with couple's marriage proposal pictures after six-hour shoot
LOL!

Gordon Ramsay Reveals The One Thing You Should Never Order At A Restaurant
Seriously? Soup of the month? They keep soup for that long? ><

Reading posts
12 Reasons Why Old Souls Have Such A Hard Time Finding Love
Uh, so am I an old soul? "Old soul" doesn't sound nice to me... I guess my "inner" is old because I'm somewhat traditional?

Sometimes Forgiving Someone Is The Most Powerful Thing You Can Do
Yes, feels better too. =)

This Is Why People Will Never Forget You, Based On Your Zodiac Sign
Yes, I want to know the truth. Yes, I'm honest, and somewhat brave.

Random moment, kept repeating this in the car, don't know why, just caught my attention (catchy). So she was a player in the MV...? Yup, push the person away when they fall for you... =( Hate those people! She looks familiar but not sure where I have seen her before.
關楚耀 Kelvin Kwan - 死亡之吻
"我沒法 沒法預計這一個下場 (I didn't either...)
傻到為你 為你奉獻一切才異常
期望你留神欣賞 我妄想 (yup, 我妄想)
可怕是你 用你用慣的騙人伎倆
迷惑我思想
貪一刻溫暖 差點毀了我一生
動了該死的凡心
從此不必走近
殘忍只需一棍
用藉口 爛藉口
我上世欠你太多 今天一次過找清楚不必再拖" (maybe?)

Angry?

Awhile ago my friend asked if I get angry easily. Umm, I know I always look happy but I do get angry (not easily though, I think?). I am a human after all. If I dislike someone then I get angry easily, at them only. When I'm angry I try not to show it and get that anger out by telling friends, typing it out or just talk myself out of it (calm down). If I said something wrong when I'm angry, I like to think back and hate myself for it. To me, I think when I'm angry, it's scary (that's why I don't want to show it). Have you ever heard that the scariest thing is when nice people get angry or turn evil? I guess because it's super different compared to their normal self? I think I'm the type of person that shows every emotion on my face. (A friend said that's good and it means I'm real...?) People seem to know when I'm not happy and kind of stay away or talk nicely to me. I'm not sure if that is good or bad but that's me. =)

Sometimes I tell myself why get angry? No-one will feel bad except for yourself. Just let it go and be happy. "When you are unhappy or happy, you still have to live on. Why not live happily?", it's easy to say but sometimes it's hard to do. I want to be happy too but then when someone I dislike keeps doing things I hate, it just makes me mad! Do you understand?

Do I swear? Of course I swear. Like I said before I am a human. I normally don't swear unless if I'm super mad. For example, when I rant to friends about customers at my part-time job (I'm sure you know what customers are like). I usually don't swear in public or when I talk. I swear more in my mind and though messages to friends about things. Sometimes I don't understand how people can add a swear word in every sentence they say... mostly guys.

I realize people try not to swear infront of me. One time, my manager wanted to swear but she changed the word haha. I honestly don't care if people swear, as long as you are not swearing at me. Stop thinking of me as a super goodie goodie type of girl. That is one side of me but there is another side that is not that good. =)

Do I look like I can't joke around with or something? People always ask if I'm mad after they make a joke. Maybe they are afraid I'll get hurt from their jokes? Yes, I'm a serious person but it doesn't mean I can't take jokes. I mean I joke around myself too (that's how I make people happy). As long as those are not hurtful jokes then I won't get mad. I don't think I've ever gotten mad at a joke, just hurt...once I think. 

I'm just a normal person after all. (I think I typed this in March or April?)

Random moment, I like Niki and this song.
周麗淇 (Niki Chow ) - 迎接失戀
"願望是為你苦　願望是為你哭　但是又受傷不重
很可惜　彷彿愛未濃　
心要碎　全沒躲避　
是太愛你　還是不夠愛你　令我息間　心已死

迎接失戀　但傷得不夠絕
其實我較飲泣還疲倦 無故失戀　但竟心慌意亂
戀愛盡頭　一切便事完 　曾經你是這樣熱戀
未悼念便看開　或事實未放開　昨日為甚麼相愛
這一刻　一想到未來　還要更活得精彩"

Pokerrito Review

I'm not sure why but these "poke" are getting popular all of a sudden. I see a lot of new restaurants selling them. It's a Hawaiian thing. Since I'm not going to Hawaii anymore, might as well give it a try here and compare it to Hawaii when I do go. I decided to try Pokerrito because I thought the wrap version (burrito) was kind of cool instead of the regular bowl style. The place isn't very big, most of the people just take out. They put the poke in take away bowls or put the wrap in those containers. Looking at their menu was a bit confusing because there were so much items on there to choose from. You could make your own (Subway style) or pick their signature (the easier way).

I decided to make my own, can't remember everything but I had the burrito style with spicy tuna, scallops, cucumber, sweet chili sauce, crab meat, seaweed salad, masago, tamago, corn, fish flakes, and grape tomatoes all wrapped in seaweed and rice, like sushi. I thought it was good, it reminds me of a California roll and I love cali rolls. I thought the paper that they wrapped it with was really hard to rip (maybe I'm not violent enough?) because it had this shiny non stick side or something.

My friend thought the pokerrito was good but it was hard to eat. if it's taken out of the wrapper, everything falls apart. I thought so too, it's like, I don't know how to eat this. I guess that's why people get it in the bowl version, easier to eat.

Oh, I hope they can add spicy salmon on their menu. I thought it was weird how they have spicy tuna but not salmon. They have salmon but not spicy salmon...

I didn't look at the price until I was paying, I think I paid $12 something with tax and tips. I paid tips even though I didn't eat there because I couldn't see a "no tip" option on the card machine (maybe I'm just blind?), oh well.

I'm not sure if I would come back again, honestly, it wasn't that special, just toppings on top of rice. I mean it tasted good, I'm not saying it's bad but it was more of a try it once and I'm done kind of thing. Plus, I hardly go Downtown and there are so much other food to try in that area.

Air Wick V.I.Poo Spray and Pure Air Freshener Review

Just to clarify I got these for free to try and I do not get paid for this. This time I got Air Wick V.I.Poo Pre Poo Toilet Spray (Lavender Superstar, 55mL) and Air Wick Pure Air Freshener (Ocean Breeze, 156g) to try. I looked online to see if these were full size products, and they are. I couldn't find the Pre Poo spray in store but I found the freshener and it cost around $6. Saw both products on YouTube ads.

The V.I.Poo Pre Poo Toilet Spray, as you can tell from the name, you use it before you do your business. It claims to trap odours before they escape, keep odour in the bowl, and leave the bathroom smelling great. There are 3 different scents, lavender, lemon, and rosy. I received lavender, I love purple so I like the packaging. I like how it's small, travel size like. I think this is great to bring on vacations because hotels don't provide fresheners (at least the ones I went to). It's like a must bring item if you are going on vacation with friends, unless if you want to kill your friends with the stinky smell. You can also bring this with you when you use public washrooms or at work. The smell, at first I was worried because I don't really like the smell of lavender. Good thing it doesn't smell like the actual plant, it smells more floral and sweet. 

So, for my first try, I didn't turn on the washroom ventilation for better result. I did not read the instructions and just sprayed the toilet once, I didn't smell anything stinky, and there is this light floral smell only. It says on the bottle to shake well and spray 3-5 times. I didn't shake it and thought 3-5 times seems a lot. I don't really like strong fragrance smell, makes it hard to breath. The second try, I did shake it and sprayed 2 times. It had a stronger scent but I honestly think 1 spray is enough. The other times, I just sprayed once. Overall, I think it's a great product but then sometimes I forget to spray it before using the washroom. It's like an extra thing I have to do. If people have to go really badly, I don't think they will spend their time spraying the toilet, they will just go.

The Pure Air Freshener, it claims that it contains 9x more fragrance and less water, eliminates odours and diffuses a fresh and wonderful fragrance. There are 4 different scents, tropical flowers, ocean breeze, purple lavender, and sunset cotton. I received the ocean breeze one, I thought the packaging was kind of cute. The normal freshener bottles are tall and slim, this one looked like those miniature water spray bottles. I thought the scent was pleasant, not overpowering. The smell does last awhile, which is good, keeps my room smelling nice.

I like the pre poo spray more than the freshener. The spray was something new to me but freshener was a normal thing.

On Yogurt Review

I always wanted to try those taiyaki ice cream thing but didn't find it in HK or Korea. I noticed On Yogurt has them so I went to try before class. The place isn't big but it's a relaxing place. They have games there that you can play with your friends while you wait for your yogurt or when you are enjoying your dessert. I really like the pictures on the wall, very cute.

I ordered the strawberry taiyaki (almost $10), and my friend ordered the green tea one. The thing itself is very pretty, it had rolled yogurt, waffle sticks, candied orange, a piece of waffle and a strawberry. I like my strawberry yogurt, I think it had little strawberry bits in it. The taiyaki itself is just ok. I guess taiyaki aren't suppose to be crispy because this wasn't. After I finish the yogurt and stuff, there is this part of the taiyaki that is very thick in batter and I didn't like it at all. It was like eating a not fully cooked batter. Then after that part, there are custard, which I like. My friend said the green tea one is alright but she doesn't like how green tea is always with red beans, instead of custard they put red beans. She thought the taiyaki wasn't that good too.

I will not get the taiyaki again because it seems to be pricy but I would get their rolled ice cream/yogurt (around $5). Before I ordered the taiyaki I didn't know how much it was, I was surprised when she told me the amount. If I remembered correctly, they also sell bubble tea.

The service is pretty good. We ordered our taiyaki but we were rushing to get to class and we couldn't wait anymore. So my friend asked if they can keep it in the fridge and we will come back after class to pick it up. They said it's ok. When we came back, they gave my friend a new one because they said that one melted? I think they just sold it to someone else LOL!

Blu Blu Bee Bee

Feels good when people tell me their problems and they say they feel so much better every time. I'm glad I helped in a way. I'm a good listener and good at keeping secrets. =) Tell me everything LOL!

Manager said I'm looking all trendy haha! I always do...but my own trend, not the current fashion trend. I don't follow that, I like my own style. Oh, so Cindy (make it a brand name) and created by SYW. =) I should make my own brand, I have always been thinking but not sure. I've never made my own piece of clothing before though, I know how to sew. Maybe it's time to start since I have so much time now. =) Just saying, don't think I will do it. Let it be another dream.

The chef forgot about the class date and asked my manager if he messed it up. My manager said I'm pretty sure we gave you the papers. Cindy never make mistakes (my eyeballs look left right left LOL!). I said to myself, uh, I'm not perfect, I do make mistakes...but thanks! It's good to hear that my manager thinks I'm perfect lol! I wish everyone would think that way about me too, joking. =D However, I'm pretty sure I gave the chef all the dates. If he knew about the previous class dates, he should know about the ones he forgot because I put everything on the same paper. I don't give one date on one piece of paper. I'm pretty eco friendly.

I told ya, when I want to ask about it, timing was always wrong. Now, I don't want to know anymore, it's the right timing to ask. Whatever, not important anymore. I totally get the message, not meant to know.

My kiosk auntie asked why I'm not working again. I think she just wants me to say yes, I'm dating. Sorry, I'm not... she said if you are getting marry, tell me, I need to save up. Well auntie, you can keep saving, not anytime soon... =(
One thing I like about my PT job, the people that works at the mall. I know most of them and most are very nice to me. They always say long time no see, did you go on vacation? (no, just didn't want to work hehe, I think she will tell my boss, whatever)

Aww, I'm glad friends liked my "What a FRIEND!" post. I liked it too, all my anger in that post. One friend said that was a hilarious post, couldn't stop laughing and you are really funny when you are mad. That's me. =) Although it didn't rain, hail, thunder or lightning for her wedding but there was rain and hail after a few days...thanks...?

A friend asked why I name my posts with "Bee" and Blu". It's because these are outta the blu(e) stories and I find those 2 words cute. The very first one was Blu Blu Blu Blu, trying to make it sound like blowing bubbles in the water. I forgot which one but I think I had Bee Blu Bee Blu, kinda close but not quite to a siren sound hehe. I honestly can't think of a title for each of these random posts because it's about anything.

Just had a sudden thought of changing jobs, well like a different environment (FT job). I love my job, don't get me wrong but I want a change. It's not because there are memories at work but I feel like I can't meet anyone there. For my "industry", it's mainly older people, I want to find a place with more younger people, around my age and tiny bit older. At least I can communicate better, I honestly don't know what to say to the people at work. Before when that lady who worked for my position was training me, I felt so comfortable talking to her, she was older but not that much older I think. Oh well, you know I'm not gonna change jobs. I don't like the whole process of looking for another job and the whole interview thing. I'm happy with what I have now. I may be working there for the next 10 years?

Wow, no manners! At my PT job this customer's husband just bends over this rack to see why the card machine on my side of the counter is taking so long. Uh, this is not your place, you have no right to do that. I felt so uncomfortable because he also had his hand on the card machine. I didn't even wanna go close. I got a really creeped out feeling from him...

So my boss rode his motorcycle to work. I couldn't recognize him because he covered his face up with a bandana type of thing, and Harley type helmet. I knew it was him since he is the only one that rides a motorcycle (and the chef). Hm... would my parents kill me if I tell them I want to learn motorcycle? Anyone want to learn with me? But I need to do my motorcycle learners at ICBC first. =( But I don't want to get a motorcycle license, I just want to learn it. I guess I'll let it be another dream forever...

People always park at our parking lot (FT job) and walk off to somewhere else. These 2 people parked their car and walked to the right side of our building and back infront of their car then walk off to the next building. LOL! I guess they didn't know I was watching them from inside, one good thing about tinted windows. Good thing they weren't coming in because it was my lunch time. =)

Trying another tea, "coco chai rooibos, smells nice. I love rooibos tea, it's my favourite tea. I've never tried any chai tea before, it's alright but I'm not really a cinnamon person, people call me cinnabun though lol!

Reading news
Elderly couple married for 62 years die together while holding hands
Aww... =(

This Woman Wore Her Engagement Ring For A Year Without Even Knowing It
Aww, how sweet, such a great idea. =)
“We are hoping to buy a house with land so we can have the wedding at home with our friends and family, in a very relaxed fashion that we think matches us ― rather than having a gigantic, glamorous wedding, which isn’t like us at all,” Terry said. (I would want something simply too)

Stephen Hawking Just Offered A Depressing Prediction Of How Long We Have Left On Earth
It's ok, I'll be dead by then...

Here's why you should stop Instagramming your food
I kind of disagree with this. I love taking pictures of my food because I want to keep it as memory and I do reviews. I would not take pictures and post them right away on Insta so I won't leave my food cold. I just take the pictures and start enjoying my food. I normally take pictures with my camera with no wifi built-in so I can't even post the pictures until I get home anyways. I'm never bored of the food before eating it, unless if it's poorly presented and I lost my appetite from it, which never happened before I think. I hardly use filters because I like my picture "original", I only use that if it makes the colour of the picture better, brighter look to it or something. Sometimes without these pictures on Insta, people wouldn't even know about some of those restaurants and wouldn't want to try (that's how one of my friend finds restaurants hehe). I do agree that some people play with their phone (not just Insta) more than eating nowadays. I see them everywhere in restaurants.

Random moment, not a bad drama "My Unfair Lady". I want to know what happened between Molly and Gordon, slowly finding out. I hope I won't become like Molly in the future... Not sure if I know how to 撒嬌 myself. I've always thought guys would be annoyed by it, if girls do that too much. Some of the girls in the drama has such a whiny voice. >< Molly and Gordon actually got back together, aww, only in drama. 
何雁詩 Stephanie - 我不會撒嬌
"殘酷世代 才學會自強忍耐 (totally)
能做個淑女我偏懶去撒嬌
誰讓我值回等待
從沒替代 難道經得起感慨
能共你永不分開
還用愛讓我記得怎去撒嬌
明知 誠意畢竟那麼少 而幸福憧憬多飄渺
真心需要 時間揭曉
殘酷世代 良善也倖存心內
情像意外 緣份可一不可再 (yea...)
這份情 我偏不想放開"

I Have Abnormal Heart Rhythms?

On Fridays I try to post something with my deep feeling, just because it will stay on the first page until Monday. =D It's a bit LONG. Here we go...

May 1st You know when your doctor says your heart beat isn't like normal heart beat but tells you "it's ok, usually nothing bad". She said it's fluting (maybe I heard wrong? I think fluttering). At first I'm like is that a Chinese word (she speaks to me in Cantonese), I don't know any medical terms. Um...what does usually mean? (I was shocked so I didn't ask her anything, plus I'm not a think fast person) Does it mean something may be wrong with me? Please don't tell me I have another sickness problem that I will have to face again! Did I do something bad? Why always torture me? "天" you are so unfair! You keep taking my happiness away from me! Is it enough yet? Should I still be thankful?

I'm not too worried but I am tearing (at least I didn't break down tearing at the mall like 3 years ago). Almost half a year of crying already because of these challenges in life, how I wish my tears can turn into pearls like that K drama, at least I can save them up and give them to my family if I'm not around someday. I just don't understand! If you want me gone, just get rid of me once and for all, don't torture me! T.T

Doctor didn't tell me to do any tests or anything so I guess it's not bad? I just have to take better care of myself? Mommy said no more junk food for me after I'm done the ones at home. =( (I'm still buying a bit when I grocery shop, SHHHHH! Don't tell my mom, I'm sure she can see them in the cabinets though) I hope nothing bad will ever happen, PLEASE! If so, let it happen when I'm 88 years old. I think by then I'll finish everything that I want to do in life? I just like the number 88, but take my life when I'm done everything, please!

So I looked it up, abnormal heart rhythms (arrhythmias), read some stuff, didn't want to read everything, didn't want to scare myself. I don't even take any of those substances that are listed! I don't do drugs, smoke, etc. Hardly drink, maybe once in a blue moon. I've never had heart surgery. I don't have most of the symptoms, at least I don't realize them. Doctor asked if I realize my own heart beat, uh, no, why would I if I'm breathing fine. I will notice it more from now on though. I remember I had shortness of breath after my surgery 3 years ago but I think I was fine after awhile. I did tell the other doctor (who did the surgery) but she didn't do anything about it. I'm feeling it right now maybe because I am tearing and my nose is plugged so I can't breath?

This is another reason why I don't really care anymore if I find someone or not because I don't even know what will happen to me next. Hey, if this is what "天" is giving me then I'll take it and face it happily and positively. I mean what else can I do right? Been through the pain once (different illness, nothing to do with the heart), just have to keep smiling.

Hm...was this caused by the recent heart break, joking. =D Well, kind of good to know now after it ended, at least I don't have to share an extra "maybe" bad news with "that person". Just thinking about telling someone I like about my illness is so hard (I thought about it in HK). Like who would want to be with someone that may get sick? In the future, if someone really likes me, I'm sure he would stay and fight together (will there be such a person? I hope) but I wouldn't want him to. I know how it feels watching someone go through pain. I also don't want to be a burden, I don't want to see people unhappy and worry. I rather face and suffer by myself no matter how hard it will be. 

*sigh* Why am I so grey anyways? The doctor didn't even say I'll get sick. I may be healthy until I become an old lady and die? Let it be. I'll keep putting that smile on my face. =) *wipe off tears and blow my nose*

May 2nd I wish the doctor didn't tell me anything because I'm thinking about my breathing. Sometimes I do feel like I have shortness of breath and I'm very tired today. I slept around 11 ish already, maybe because I'm working on numbers at work so I'm sleepy? Or is it this tea that I started drinking yesterday, "Midsummer Night's Dream", caffeine free, does it have ingredients that make people sleepy? I've been munching on candies and chocolates all day to keep myself awake, what is going on? I hope I'm just tired. I'm still going to do the charity run at the end of May, I'll be fine.

So, I told my nurse friend about it and she makes it sound like it's super serious...stop scaring me! She said the doctor should have made me do tests and investigate more. I guess my doctor should have, at least if the test turns out to be fine then that's good. Whatever, not gonna think about it and enjoy my life. When I check up again in 6 months, I'll ask her to do tests on me or something. 

May 3 I feel fine today, just didn't want to get out of bed and work. It started raining again since Monday. "天" are you sad too? I don't think so, if you are you wouldn't make me go through so much pain (challenges)...

May 4 Nurse friend said my heart beat sounds fine. I don't know, maybe it's a thing that happens sometimes? I will keep an eye on myself but it's hard. 3 years ago I didn't notice anything either until it got really serious (they are like silent killers). I don't know what life style I need to change. I don't do anything bad! I know I said I'm a meat eater but I eat tons of veggie when I'm home (just not when I eat out). I guess just eat less junk, sleep earlier and exercise everyday if I can? I honestly don't know...  =(

May 9 Um... I was checking on my beat... It was beat beat beat beeeeat beat beat beeeeeat, repeat (was the beeeeat a pause?). =( I only feel like I have shortness of breath at work, maybe I sit too much? I don't know... One challenge after another... If there are other bad stuff, just give it to me all at once, might as well, bring it on!

May 10 The beating is still same as above. Now that I can wear my sneaker flats to work I guess I'll walk around more and exercise at the same time.

May 11 Cry sky cry! Cry as hard as you can! It's all gloomy and raining quite hard today, not how I feel though. =) So, I was reading other sites on this problem. It said for prevention, reduce stress, uh, that's not something I can control, especially when there are so much problems and challenges in my life... I wish I have no stress at all too, it's impossible. Cut out on tea and chocolate (caffeine related products), I thought tea was good for you? I just drink plain tea, no milk, no sugar and usually drink rooibos which has no caffeine. Well I need to finish all my other tea or it will be a waste. Chocolate??? I love chocolates though! =( I'll eat less of it but I'm not cutting it all out. =) I thought chocolate is good for you too if you don't binge eat it. Or is that only for dark chocolate? I don't like dark chocolate much, so bitter. Life is already bitter, don't need more in my life. Don't get to eat this and that, what's the point of living then, you know I love eating! *sigh*

Some of you are probably thinking why I didn't say a thing about this problem for 2 weeks and I have been talking to you guys everyday. I honestly don't know how to say it, plus it's not confirmed. I'm not good at talking so the best thing is just for me to type it all out. Please don't worry about me, I'm fine. Man, I'm tearing at work again. >< 

This next part is for a friend, I only told nurse about it because she knows about these stuff. Just incase if you are wondering why I told her and not you. For some reason, I feel like you don't want to talk to me or something (If you don't, that's ok, I guess it's because of the reason that you told me before? I can feel that awkwardness during Thursday's dinner, in the beginning only. I'm sure nurse felt it too.), I tried to text but the convo dies every time so I just didn't say anything afterwards. I didn't want to bother you. I hope you understand. Just letting you know I care about our friendship and typing this made me tear. =) 

Something is wrong with me and tearing. Ever since meeting "that person" I tear so easily. I have no clue why. I've never teared so much before within 5 months.

May 12 Hm...seems like the earlier I sleep the more tired I am. Feeling tired today or is it because of the gloomy and rainy day again? Raining hard again... I did ask for sun yesterday, there is sun sometimes, thanks. Feeling shortness of breath again... I guess I can't sit...

Random moment, I was trying to look for another song that I heard from " No No Girl" drama but I found this instead, not bad. Music stops around 3:02. I know I said I'm tired of sad songs but I realized most of the songs are sad and they are so good.
MAROON 5- NOTHING LAST FOREVER
"I love you, but I'm letting go
It may not last, but I don't know
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
Everyday
With every worthless word
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever; but be honest, babe
It hurts, but it may be the only way
Built a wall around my heart
I'll never let it fall apart
But, strangely, I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep"

Craft Beer Market Review

I have always wanted to try Craft because of their beer sampler. If you didn't know, they are known for a good selection of beers. I first heard about it from an ex coworker, she said it was pretty good there but I thought it was far. It's actually not too far from Science World, it was a nice walk there too (especially in the dark, so pretty, picture below). When we got there, there was a line up, we should have reserved but we didn't expect it to be that busy. The front desk lady said it's usually not this busy, just because there is a hockey game and people wanted to stay for overtime and stuff. It was also a sunny Friday night, good day to hang out. The lady told us we have to wait for 40 minutes but we waited for like an hour... That was one long wait, we were starving but we came here just for that so we waited.

When we got a table, we quickly made our orders. My friends ordered the spicy chicken wings ($13.50) and the chipotle cheddar burger ($16.95). I ordered the crispy chicken sandwich ($16) and shared the beer sampler ($12 something). They also ordered wine and beer, not sure which ones they ordered and don't know the price. My friend thought the chicken wings were ok spicy and it gets spicier as you eat more. Other friend thought the chipotle burger was a bit dry. I thought my crispy chicken was not crispy, I guess because the sauce? It tasted good though, everything were falling apart, usual thing with burgers.

The thing that I came for, really, beer sampler, I actually didn't like it. I don't really drink but I do drink beer sometimes at home. These tasted a bit stronger than what I normally have at home. Just not really my thing, if people like beer they probably love this. They always change to different samples. My favourite beer is probably Jerkface 9000 that I had somewhere else, I like those easy to drink ones. The ones that I thought were ok from the sampler were the third, fourth and last (left to right).

Start drinking from right to left if I remember correctly

Oh, I thought the place was pretty cool, get to see all these beer taps. I was so into looking at the guys shaking up drinks, so cool. The music was loud but it's normal. Overall, not bad but don't think I will go again. Not because they aren't good but I don't really drink and it's far from home. If friends want to go I would still go.

People should totally walk around this area at night, so pretty.

What A FRIEND!

This post is not about everyone, just that one person, so don't hate me if I'm offending anyone. It's one LONG post.

So I was hanging out with 2 of my besties and one of them told me about this story, someone I dislike since grade 8. I guess not everyone that believes in God are good people after all. One of my friend and I made a nickname for her since high school so I'll use that in this post. I'm sure some of you will know who it is just by looking at it? I'm so mean, I came up with it. It's... low B (say low in Cantonese).

Anyways, let the story begin. (I'm retelling the story so I'm just saying what I remembered, not the exact words my friend said, may be slightly different) So before meeting up with my friends, one of them told me she has to tell me something about low B. I'm like thinking hm...what would it be? Please tell me she is not getting married anymore (I'm so mean, but I'm only mean to people that are mean to me). But you know mean/bad people always get all the good stuff in life right? While the good people like us never get anything except bad stuff...

My friend's mom bought low B all these gifts without knowing that she had a gift registry. My friend dropped the stuff off at low B's place and afterwards low B kept texting and calling my friend telling her to give her a call back asap. So my friend called and can you believe what low B said to her? Low B said it's nice that you got me all that stuff but I have most of it already. The pillows (huge pillows that were $70?) are too big, you know we are downsizing, we aren't living with our parents anymore. So, can you come and pick it all up? I'll just keep the coin because it's something you and your mother choose for me. (A Canadian Mint coin that say $20 or something with "Married in 2017" on it but it cost $122.xx) Low B thought that coin was only worth $20. She said if it's a close friend, you should at least give $120 for both events (I guess bridal and wedding?), if not so close then maybe $80. Then my friend went to pick the gifts back, gave her a card with a stapled receipt that showed how much the coin cost. Low B wasn't there and her mom is like oh, I'm sorry, I don't know what to say. Sure you don't, you taught that "lovely" daughter yourself, like mother, like daughter. Woman, if you were a good mother, you would have told her to just keep it. Obviously, you aren't.

When I heard the story I'm just like WTF!? What kind of person is she, that is so disrespectful. I thought she was one of your "close" friend. If someone gives you something and you don't like it or don't need it, keep it to yourself. It's yours now, you can do whatever with it (give it to someone else, donate it, throw it, keep it and collect dust) but don't tell that person to take it back! Auntie and my friend didn't just choose that damn coin only, but everything! Gifts are a thought from the heart, that's what they thought you would like or need! I would be more than happy if I got all those gifts (my friend listed so many items, so crazy). As a collector myself (coins, stamps, anything cute and nice), that coin is the best thing ever, I thought it was very meaningful (she thinks it's worth $20...get a life!).

And who the hell tell people how much the guests should give them for their wedding? If so, might as well put that amount on your invitation "don't come if you don't give us $120 plus". She actually put on her invite, to help us along the way, a monetary gift towards our home would really make our day, seriously? Who the BEEP would put that on an invitation card. It makes it sound so cheap, like you have to bring something or don't forget to give us something. Desperate for money? She sounds so materialistic! (Well, I hope you know how the poor feels someday, maybe right after your wedding) Honestly, low B isn't even worth a penny! I would ask for that coin back if I were you, my friend. Maybe b**** slap her in the face while you are at it. But I know my friend won't, we are all too nice. =)

And some people just don't have that much money, you can't just expect people to give you a certain amount based on how close they are with you. It all depends on how financially stable they are. Some people are just better off than others. Like how old are you low B? How do you not understand such a simple common sense? Time to get your brain renew.

Like dude! It's a wedding, don't try to earn money from it or get enough back to pay off everything. If you don't have enough money then don't get married, don't make it so big or so grand. You don't have to show off every moment of your life. (I really want to see the day when something bad happens to her, will she still show it off) People are there to celebrate with you, low B. But I guess it will be the last thing they will celebrate with you. (sorry, I do have an evil side to me but only for mean people)

You are probably wondering if my friend is still going to low B's wedding, uh, yes... I told her not to but she said at least go and eat all the food provided. She did give her a coin, so might as well make good use of it. I said ok, fine, make sense. I told her do not give anymore money or whatever to her that day. Don't congratulate her, don't take pictures with her, just go late, eat, and leave! I hope my friend will stay strong and do all that. Oh! remember to unfriend her or block her. Low B doesn't deserve you as a friend, too good for her! (*sigh*, my friend isn't strong enough, she took pictures with her!!!)

I guess low B is very good in acting her "good" girl role (but she can't fool me) because my friend thought she was one. Seriously, she never gave me that good girl feeling, she is so fake. Not sure why my friend(s) didn't see it all along (and you said I was bias... well now you know). Finally, people see the real her, thank God. I remember low B was trying to be all cool and "sheet" in grade 11 or something and she "abandoned" my friend and her group. What a friend! And when she is not that cool anymore, she went back to them... I guess outsider see things more clearly? Oh well, usually people don't need friends after they get married, as long as they have the guy. Well, "good luck".

Lol, I actually realized my friend is good at acting too. She can act like she likes those people but she actually don't like them... I don't know how my friend can do that. I can never act like nothing happened.

I have no clue what that guy sees in her but then whatever (love is blind), I hope they have a "great" life together. She believes in God so much eh? I'm sure God will teach her a lesson and give her something "good" in the future. God is watching you, low B. Someone that doesn't have a pretty inner doesn't deserve anything like that. And she doesn't have a good outer either, did I say her smile is very weird and fake (I'm not the only one that thinks that way).

I just don't understand how someone like her and other evil people can get married and have a family?  "天" really don't have eyes? I guess something must be wrong with me, maybe I did do something really bad, maybe what I'm doing now? If what I'm saying on this post is considered "bad", then I have nothing to say. Those people that I dislike (at least one of them) have done things way worse than what I'm typing here, they are still living a great life. Shall I be evil as well? I wish I can but I'll never learn. I'm not saying I'm a good person (never did) but I don't think I deserve all the bad stuff that happened/happening in my life (You'll know on my Friday's post). At least I'm honest that I'm not a good person and I don't act like a good girl infront of people. I've never done anything horribly bad in my life either.

I hardly dislike people and if I do, it's usually because I find them not very nice or they said something bad about me first. Good thing is other people also see the real side of them afterwards and dislike them as well. I guess I was right all along. People just have to find out themselves. Low B actually said my eyes were small in grade 8. Yea, my eyes are small (so what?) but at least they are kind looking (A guy said they look like rainbows LOL! They kind of do when I smile) not like your evil/b****y eyes. I still remember how I got a better grade than her on something and she was all upset about it, *cough* jealous. Probably jealous that I have tiny kind eyes as well. =D She used to like these 2 guys and I always make her jealous. =) One of them kept holding my hand when he could have let go during dance class in PE. You know those break where the dance stops and the teacher keeps talking, yup, those times. Another guy had this super long eye contact with me in homeroom. I even asked my friend if he is looking at me, she said yes. I guess I wasn't seeing things after all.

So funny, one friend was like low B should have kept those big pillows. She may need it one day, when he leaves her! So low B has something to hold onto LOL! Sorry, we are so mean. If she didn't say such a thing to my friend, I don't think I would say so much bad stuff about her. My friends say how I'm so good at thinking of all these (evil) ideas (but they like), well, I am a thinker after all hehe. Long time ago, I think one of them said I'm funny when I'm mad. I guess I can get so mad and say the funniest thing ever? And I hardly get that mad.

Oh, we were also joking how she wants people to give at least $120. I said the people that gives $80 or less don't get to eat. The ones that pay $120, ok eat a bit. People that pay $120 plus, eat lots. Man, I didn't know she was that cheap!

I actually told my besties, if I become like low B one day, please slap me in the face and give me a chance to change. If I don't change, please unfriend me, I don't deserve to be your friend. In elementary, I have been a bad friend and friends were bad to me, too young and didn't think, lost some friends but it's ok. I learned and changed in high school. Never too late. =)

This story is the reason why I hope it rains on Saturday (low B's cheap wedding). Just helping a friend, I hope our wish come true. Bring on the storm! Hail, lightning, thunder and everything not nice! Muhahaha! =) I'm so good at saying all the bad stuff but I can never do anything bad. =( And I know non of these bad things will happen to low B... Just a thought... (Just as I thought, nothing bad will happen... it was sunny like hell!)

No song, she doesn't deserve anything!*slap slap*

Clinique Chubby Sticks Review

Wow, I typed this in March and still haven't posted it. I used to do reviews on products on another blog but I stopped for a long time.Here I go again.

I fell in love with these Clinique Chubby Sticks. Started using them after my trip from HK, just wanted a change. They have a lot of colours to choose from. First I got 3 chubby stick mini colours from my friend as a birthday present. Back then I don't use any lipstick because I'm afraid the skin on my lips will start flaking off after awhile. That is because I put lip chap on before bed and when I wash it off in the morning all these dead skin comes off. I thought that would happen too if I had lipstick on for awhile. Good thing it didn't, I'm happy.

One day I decided to put on "mega melon" just for fun. It's actually pretty good. It goes on very smoothly. I'm more of a natural look type of person so I don't like it when my make up is too obvious. I like the make up equals no make up look (Koreans like that). The chubby stick gave my lips a very light brownish red colour which I like, not too obvious and looked natural. Some people may not like that because what's the point of putting lipstick on when it's not obvious. Don't worry, it will be noticeable if you put a lot on (I just choose not to). Clinique also has the chubby stick intense if people like it more obvious. I believe it's moisturizing like it claims? My lips doesn't feel dry but sometimes the inner part of my lips feels a bit dry but it's still smooth. Maybe it's just me? With these, it's better to do a little touch up after eating, the colour does come off. When I'm not eating I think it stays for pretty long without any touchups. As for smell, it does have a bit of that normal lipstick smell to it. Some of them doesn't, I guess it depends how long you have them for?
 

I also like the chubby stick baby tint that my friend gave me out of the three, "budding blossom". At first I thought that colour will look so weird on me, it's light pink... I put it on and it didn't turn out to be light pink. It gave my lips a pinkish red colour which was unexpected but I like it. The baby tint colour lasts for hours. To me, tints usually last for a long time. After eating, the colour kind of comes off but I can still see the colour on my lips. Sometimes I would put more baby tint on after lunch and it gives an even more vibrant pinkish colour. Sometimes I would put a normal chubby stick colour ("mighty mimosa" birthday gift from another friend) on top or just leave it. I find the baby tint not as moisturizing as the normal chubby sticks though. I didn't think the baby tint have any smell to it compared to the normal chubby sticks.

It looks very light on my hand but it's different when it's applied on the lips

I find that the baby tint gives me the Korean biting lip look, especially when the colour is coming off. It's more obvious when I'm in the sun, when I look into my car's rear view mirror. Not sure if that look is well known in North America. It's like the inner part of the lips are darker in colour compared to the outta part of the lips. Please Google it if it's confusing, I'm bad at explaining. I only have that effect on my lower lip. Companies actually make special lipsticks just for that effect. Maybe I have weird lips? Maybe all tints gives that effect? I remember I used Berrisom's lip tint before, it gave me that look as well. Not sure, not an expert in make up. Another thing that I like is it gives a little shine in the beginning but after a bit it just looks natural.

How to make it last longer? Normally, I put on the baby tint then press my lips on a tissue and add a layer of the normal chubby stick on top. I find that the colour lasts longer that way. I have seen online where they suggest putting on concealer or powder on your lips before the second layer for it to last longer. I personally wouldn't do that just because I feel like I'm gonna consume all that make up when I eat or drink. But feel free to try. =)

After trying those 3 colours out I decided to get more colours. I even bought a few of the limited edition Crayola ones, a few baby tint and normal chubby sticks. I didn't get the Crayola kit because I won't use most of the colours (I wanted to collect it though). These chubby sticks aren't cheap, they are like $21 Cdn each (before taxes). I spent quite a lot of money on them but I think it's worth it.

The chubby stick looks big but when I twist the whole thing out it's not that much. I'm not sure how long each chubby sticks last. I have been using the budding blossom (chubby stick mini) for maybe a month now and I still have about 1.3cm left (brand new chubby mini are approx 1.8cm). I also don't put a lot on and hardly do touchups. Regular size chubby sticks are approx 3.3cm. I like how the chubby stick mini has a clear cap on it whereas the full size has an opaque silver cap. With the clear cap I can actually see the colour and the product. I wish they can make all of them with clear caps.

I'm not too good at describing things, hope this review helps.

My collection