Misunderstanding

Have you ever had any misunderstanding with friends/coworkers/random people?

I have, tons too. I'm not very good at talking so sometimes people get me wrong. But then they can see my facial expression so they know if I mean it or not, am I happy or offended. On the other hand, messaging is a complete different story.

Me and messaging, I always seem to piss people off or they are unhappy or think I'm not considerate. I have no clue why. Maybe because sometimes people can feel a certain "tone" through messages but really, that person isn't even feeling that way (sometimes).

I hate misunderstanding, especially with friends, most of the time that's how friendship ends (I know, such a stupid thing right?). I do care about my friends and friendship with them that's why I hate conflicts/problems with them. I'm the type of person that would talk things out rather than hold it in. Yes, some people can't take it and leave, some would fix it together, just like in a romantic relationship. I'm also a super emotional person (you should know by now if you have been reading), whenever something happens I just tear... I'm more likely to tear when they make it sound like I did something horrible. =(

One time I was going on a trip with friends and one friend paid for her ticket late so she only paid for her flight and we all paid flight and hotel. There were resort fee so I listed out all the options if we want that friend to pay more/all because she only paid for her flight. I guess all she read was "you girls want her to pay all" and not the rest. I was trying to make things fair but that friend told people afterwards that I made her paid for everything. And we all split that amount, she didn't pay for everything! I thought we were close friends and she does that to me. I was extremely hurt by that. I only told one close friend about it and she told people about it. Thanks for making it seem like I'm the most horrible person on earth! I didn't talk about this problem with her, I just slowly stopped talking to her.

I do miss our friendship but I would rather find friends that appreciate what I have done for them and someone that really know what kind of person I am, not just a horrible person. My life is filled with unhappy moments, I don't need more in my life. Thanks for not being there when I needed someone. And I was there for you at one of your lowest time in life.

I felt like I had lots of misunderstanding with "that person" too. We mainly talked through messaging because I was on vacation. I'm not gonna talk about it, what's done is done. And not like we will see each other again (I think?). Just don't feel like typing about it, maybe when I run out of ideas.

Recently, I was listing out a bunch of restaurants for friends but they just kept rejecting and complaining. Well, it's not my job to find a restaurant that suit everyone's taste, I'm just kind enough to search for a restaurant. They make it seem like I was not considerate at all. If I wasn't, I wouldn't even look up so much different restaurants and look at every single menu to find something that they would like. I was so hurt and teared because I felt like they didn't appreciate anything that I did. And the way they were talking, I was so disappointed that friends would do that. She probably didn't mean it that way but then messages always give misunderstanding.

Next, another friend and I was talking about our outing and all of a sudden she snapped at me through messaging (at least I thought she was). I was like WTH??? I didn't even say anything bad or whatever. I was hurt and teared because I know I didn't do anything wrong and all of a sudden I'm getting all these messages... We talked about it and she misunderstood me.

Yup, that's life, full of misunderstanding. Would things be better if there weren't so much technologies and more face to face interaction? I wonder... but it's a bit too late to fix some of the problems. Let it be since it was not meant to be.

Random moment, oh wow, I couldn't think of a song then I was looking at my bookmarks and I found this. Perfect! Pretty much how I feel. Somehow it sounds like the b**** and I more, which I talked about in "13 reasons why". Some "friends" you just have to let go of forever.
許廷鏗 - 誤解

"曾經好友跟我共坐 
從不懂去表達真我　年月儲起憎怨幾多  
朋友我當你一秒朋友
直到反目明白舊日戰友　原來從未算真心好友
誤解我機心太多　不懂交心誰錯 解釋增加罪過
誤解過後誰恨我　結局散席放手離座 
座上客只得一個我　仍妄想一位會認領我  
難受過　承受過　全部過錯 累過麼　恨我麼　尚有幾多 
而我不管他怎樣恨我　也沒理會我怎無助 
尚在妄想修補過錯
朋友我當你一世朋友　想起那承諾跟尾指緊扣 
到今日才能成熟看透　原來曾結識經已足夠"