Hopeless But It's Time To Focus

I was gonna post something else but I feel like posting this first.

I just want to say thank you for trying so hard to find someone for me! I really appreciate everything that everyone has done for me. Feel free to keep searching. But I have decided to give up and just let someone fall down from the sky (if such thing happens). Plus, I made a promise, I guess I should keep it, maybe that's why it's never good?

I don't want to expect anything anymore because I don't want to get disappointed over and over again. I know it's just the wrong timing and wrong people but it still hurts. Deep down it feels like something is wrong with me and that's the reason why it never works out and maybe it is.

I also don't understand the guys nowadays, not sure what they are thinking but whatever. When something is not meant to be then it's not meant to be.

Yes, I'm somewhat hopeless now but it's ok. When the time comes my hope will be back again. Plus, things usually happen when it's unexpected, just like last time.

Right now I think I should just focus on me, myself and I. Focus on my super duper early 10 year retirement goal, my family and projects that I have started but never finished.

And who said a girl must have a guy? I see tons of powerful women out there nowadays. As long as I have money I can live very well too. Maybe even better without someone. Don't have to care about another person. Don't have to make time for someone else. Don't have to keep them interested and happy. Don't have to get hurt.

Once again, thank you! <3

Random moment, I wasn't gonna add a song but thought this was not bad. Always hear this at work and I kind of like it. I think it's the music?
Calvin Harris - Feels (Official Video) ft. Pharrell Williams, Katy Perry, Big Sean
"Not nothing ever last forever, no
One minute you're here and the next you're gone
You mixed the wrong guys with the right intentions
But when you stop looking you gon' find what's meant to be"