Maybe There Are Fate?

Typed this few weeks ago. There are all sorts of "fate" in life. My type of fate is fated to meet each other but no fate in being together.

I was just thinking about how I met these guys (all at work) and why I can't meet as much people anymore? I guess because all the people I meet at work now are either super young or super old, taken or married... It's hard to meet people at my PT job now because people my age or older wouldn't want to work in retail (I don't either). At my FT job, as I mentioned before, people in this industry are all way older and married. My friends always say their guy friends aren't good enough for me. Then what is good for me? Am I really that "good"?

I just find it interesting how the 3 guys that I met at work just gets "better" after each one (I meant the friendship/relationship or whatever that was between us). The first uniform guy that I liked, we were friends but not for long because he switched to another job. He did come back to the mall again but that's when I moved on to the second guy. The second guy, we were friends but then we didn't have much in common, that's why we weren't together (he chose). He was the guy who I bumped into at the skytrain station and he seemed so scared of me... Then "that person", second uniform guy, I don't know what to say about this one. For sure way MORE than friends but then he decided to give up...


Since I'm talking about fate, I'll share one more. When I used to like that dude who got scared of me at the skytrain station, I only knew his first name and I wanted to know his last name so I can find him on social media. Guess how I found out? In my dream... I dreamed that I was talking with a coworker and she asked me you know "first + last name"? I'm like you know him? Somehow I think the dream ended (N years ago, can't remember). Next day, I went on FB and I tried that last name and it worked. I was like WTF!? There are like tons of last names out there and I tried a few of them (common ones) before, none of them worked. When I don't care about it, I found the answer in my dream. I actually thought finding his last name in a dream meant something but no. It was just a not meant to be... 

Same thing with "that person", I thought it would be hard to find because I only know his first name and he looks a bit like a mix (more challenging). I don't give up easily so I found him eventually just with his first name, no dream, nothing. It wasn't that hard, found him on the 3rd or 4th page. If he didn't have his picture on there then it may be hard. I guess if we were meant to meet then I'll find them eventually. No-one can find me on social media, it's not really my name.

Now you know what I mean by fated to meet each other but no fate in being together? If it wasn't fate, I wouldn't have met any of them. Just a bunch of not meant to be. I know I'll find a better "tree" in the big forest. I know I will!

Let's just hope the next one will be fated to meet and grow old together. =)

Random moment, I was gonna put another song from him but I found this one, I think it fit this post better? Song name is true.
許廷鏗Alfred Hui《不愛不恨》
"你知 我被你吸引 仍然做好人 關心再行近
話題中 流露著情感 仍未算情人
我未敢因愛成恨
投入過真心 眼淚中不要留遺憾
仍情不自禁 原來犧牲可以很動人
不深愛何來恨
記得 我們曾走近 甜蜜像戀人偏充滿疑問
無望和傷感 故事簡稱有緣無份"