Thursday Feeling

Had a chat with a friend and she said how we aren't really messaging each other as much. Well, I still message you but not as much because I don't wanna bother you when you have "someone" in your life now. You should know I'm the type that don't like to bother people if they are busy or something. You also know after what happened with that person, I feel different. Just want to be a loner for a little bit (not too long). I am getting happier now but deep down it still hurts. All I hear about from you girls are happy relationship stuff... =( I have nothing to say except think back how I once had happy memories like that too.

You are right. That person did shatter my dreams and my heart into pieces. That person was the one that asked if I have high hopes about us, he said he did, he wanted us to be together and he won't let go, and he was the one that gave up when I thought something good is happening... 

I guess I am gullible (like you said) and naive... That's just me, I'm just that simple (stupid). I finally feel like I'm a close to extinct animal that haven't found someone to protect and treasure me. Can someone save me before I become completely extinct?

I want to say I hate that person but I know I don't. If I could, I wish I can slap him in the face, kick him in the nuts and swear at him. However, I'm not that type of person... Sometimes I hope he does feel bad for what he did but I don't think he will... Sometimes I ask myself, why am I doing this to myself? I always make myself feel miserable. Why?

Sometimes I wonder why that person appeared in my life at the wrong time? Is there a reason why I have to meet that person? Does "天" want to torture/play with me as usual? I believe everything is all set and happens for a reason. A reason that I'll never know about... I guess our "red string" fell apart. Please don't make me meet someone like that again! I don't think my heart can handle it.

3/17/17 8:15am. I know you girls will be reading this. I forgot my cellphone at home, just incase if you are wondering why I'm not replying all day. You can still message me, I'll reply when I get home. It's a Friday too! Gonna be so bored, it's ok I want one loner day anyways. =)

Random moment, 
吳業坤 Kwan Gor - 第一次告別
"日後共別人談戀愛要更有耐性
從前情人太少 
難明瞭緣份的精妙 
等到下個傷疤都結焦
一生人 難逃第一次"