Depress

All of a sudden I feel very depress at work. I feel like crying... I don't know if I'm too tired from looking at these numbers or am I thinking of that person. I'm tired of this feeling! When is this over? What happened to the happy me? Why did you have to do this to me? Is it that hard to have a simple and happy life? I wish time could go back to when nothing started!

I thought I could be happy but I'm not happy deep down. It's like an on off feeling. I'm happy some days and super unhappy some other days! I feel like I'm putting on a fake happy face when I see people. One reason why I'm like this is because that person doesn't give a "sheet" about me anymore. No-one would ever do that to me... that person hurt me deeply! This is so annoying! I don't like this at all! When is the old me coming back?

Why do I have to go through so much tough times? If I did something wrong in my past life or this life... is it enough torture for me already? Are you happy seeing me go through so much pain?

Why is life so unfair? Why good people will never have good things happen to them? While the bad people are living a happy life and get whatever they want? Are you done playing with me yet? Go play someone that is evil/bad that deserve all this crap! I DON'T DESERVE THIS! 😭