Let It Be a Dream

A friend told me that her friend quit her job just to go back to studying and pursue her dream as a teacher. I find people that want to change career around late 20's, early 30's or older amazing. I understand it's their dream, something they are passionate in and maybe they can earn more in the future. It's great that they are doing what they want to do and I'm happy for them.

I don't think I would ever do that, just because I have enough with school. 6 years of post secondary is enough. Plus, I think I'm at the age where I should be earning money and not spending more on school (yet). Especially when my parents aren't getting any younger, I want to earn more so they can live better. It's my turn to take care of them and give back. If you know me, my family is my everything, nothing more important than them.

Do you still remember back in elementary school when you had to write about what you want to be when you grow up? I honestly don't remember what I wrote but I've always wanted to be a preschool teacher. I love kids (if they are good), they are so straight forward and honest (most). They are very simple, not like adults and they make me smile and laugh.

I remember helping out in the kindergarten or grade 1 classes back in elementary, it was fun. I took peer helping and human services in high school. I didn't like peer helping much, I helped high school kids, not my thing. I liked human services more because I got to work with little kids in preschool. I guess that's why I'm like a "mom". Friends in high school used to call me mommy because I'm caring (I think?). I understand some people may not like it but that's just me.

I have tried to pursue my dream job, but it doesn't seem like what I want anymore. I took 1 course for early childhood education and got my certificate. The course was easy but it was somewhat boring. Learned about safety, food and nutrition, most of it were common sense. Met a lot of nice people but not close with any. The whole class were female, only 1 guy. I still remember him asking me why I'm not taking more courses after that one, uh...it's too expensive. That one course was already $600 something... I could buy a lot of food with that money (sorry, I'm so "c lai"). I may sound cheap but I will spend a lot when I want to and need to. This on the other hand, I do not need it. I'm 100% sure I can find a good job with my accounting and business admin background. If I can't, I don't know what to say... I guess 6 years was for nothing?

I did tried to get a preschool job. I did super horrible at the interview because I wasn't prepared. That's because few days before I already got an accounting job so I just went to get experience. Their interview was much harder than I thought, I guess that's because it was more of a high class preschool? It would be nice to get the job since it's only like less than 5 minutes away from home. Oh well, not meant to be and didn't wanna be there.

A dream is a dream, let it be a dream forever.

Random moment, glad my parents never forced me to learn this and that. They let my brother and I do whatever we want. I'm the one that gives pressure to myself... I actually teared at the end of this MV when I watched it for the first time.
許廷鏗 Alfred - 我的志願