Friends

Friends are almost like girlfriends and boyfriends, they come and go. You remember back in elementary you are like best friend forever with someone. Then in high school you both say how you will be each other's bridesmaid. Then next thing you know, you guys aren't friends anymore or just don't talk to each other.

Yes, I had a few of those friends in my life. Some, I think I should have let go long ago. Some, I think back and ask myself, what happened to us?

The "let go long ago" people, I won't even waste my time typing about them.

The "what happened to us" friend, I honestly don't know what happened. We were good friends, at least I thought we were... I know back in high school we had some problems. We talked about it and we were fine but I guess once something happens, there will always be a barrier? Sounds like a relationship thing eh? Then something else happened between us and we just kinda stop talking ever since. I do miss the happy time from before but can't go back in time. I don't think it will ever be the same again. We are still friends, just don't talk and don't hang out anymore... 

One thing that hurts me was she wrote a post in French about me being selfish on FB (so I won't know she was talking about moi, didn't she know I took French classes?). Me selfish? If I was selfish I wouldn't be by her side when she was ill. I wouldn't go talk to that guy for her that stopped liking her when she liked him back and she was hurt. Yes, maybe I can be selfish at times but honestly who isn't selfish in this world? Don't tell me there wasn't a time when you were not selfish. This was one of the problem between us but we were fine after talking about it.

Another thing I was disappointed about was...when she got super ill back in the days, I was there with her the whole time. However, when I got super ill...(we were still friends then) she was not there for me. That hurt me deeply. =( I guess that shows she wasn't my true friend? I felt like she kinda changed after she got ill or maybe I changed? Maybe I just didn't know her well enough even after that many years? I tried my best to be a good friend but I guess we were not meant to be friends forever...

There are other friends that I used to be close with. Nothing happened between us but I guess people part ways after awhile especially after high school. I tried to hang on to most of my friends by planning gatherings and stuff. It did work for a bit but after awhile people just don't seem to care anymore. I lost interest in planning big gatherings. I only have small gatherings with close friends now. I also believe that if they want to be friends they would initiate a talk or something and not just me all the time. I guess I need to "put my eyes on" when I meet friends too.

I also don't understand how some people are crazy about you when they like you but when they don't like you, it's like a 180 turn, completely different person... This just popped up suddenly, just thinking how different "that person" was at the end, made me feel like I don't know who this person is anymore. It's not the same person I met in the beginning... =( People are scary...

I'm glad I do have a few close true friends in my life. I don't need a lot of friends, a few true ones are enough. I do hope that our friendship would last till the end of my life. A big thanks to you all for always being there for me when I needed it. I love you all! <3

Random moment, aw, isn't this ever sweet.
Teen asks girl to the prom

Super old song.
古巨基 - 友共情
"Forever friends, forever we'll be"

Ah, good old "Friends". I completely forgot what this is about. I shall re-watch someday. I used to be pretty "white" but I became more "yellow" again in high school. I met more Chinese friends whereas in elementary, there were hardly any Chinese. Maybe I should be "white" again?
The Rembrandts- I'll be there for you

You've Got A Friend In Me - Randy Newman

There is also the Graduation song, you can look that up yourself.