Monday, August 27, 2018

Bee Blu XXIX

Sometimes Tian will let you see certain things so you will finally wake up. Thank you for showing me what I need to see in order to forget everything. You should have showed me long ago and not now. It took too long.

LOL! Love my dad. I went to him and he asked "where are you going?". I'm like "nowhere". He asked "nowhere? Why dressed so nice?". I'm like "this is my pj". He said "pj is so pretty already, what to wear when you go out?". Lol! My pj top is pretty nice, I can wear it outside too, just a nice top haha!

I've been quite happy with what I'm doing recently. Busy but I'm happy. I'm back to taking pictures of random things. Stopped for awhile and I'm getting back to it. Exploring everywhere makes me happy. I'm like a little kid. I get amused ok easily.

Went out with my brother and his friend. It's funny listening to them talk. They talk about anything and it's funny. I wonder if all guys do that too. They don't seem to care that I'm there, they just say whatever.

I'm not a camera person, I'm just not pretty on camera, only when I do selfies, I look better. However, I'm quite enjoying being my friend's model for her photography. It's hard for me to angle and I get stupid double chin and my hair is oily and nasty. We are both learning at the same time how to make these pictures better. It's quite fun. I need to think of more pose and expressions. 

Talking to people at kick boxing is fun. Listening to their stories are more fun. I told instructor to guess my age and he said 22, woot! Chef still thinks I'm 19 and that was his guess during my first year at work, woot I didn't age! Let's keep this up Cinnabun!

Claire dumped her fiance after a "sick and twisted" discovery. But was it really that bad?
Hm...I don't know if this is a big problem or not. I mean which man doesn't watch porn? But if he watches a lot, like A LOT (in this post...addiction) then it's a bit...…..yea. Too much then it's no good. At the same time I also understand where she is coming from, it's like "am I not enough for you, you have to watch porn to satisfy yourself?". I'm not too sure about calling a wedding off because of that. But he did lie to her when she confronted which was not good (strike 2). However, if you really liked him wouldn't you try to find ways to help him? Work things out together? I don't know, everyone is different. Sometimes it's better to find things out earlier on then when it's too late. Everyone has their own tolerant level for everything and this is just something she can't tolerate at all? Just do what you think it's right and don't regret.

Out of the blu, not sure if I posted this song or not but I find it catchy, I thought I did post. "heart to break" caught my attention.
Heart to Break - Kim Petras
"Angel eyes, tell me lies
Gonna give you my heart to break

One look at you, I'm powerless
This game I know I'm gonna lose

Makes me want you more

Even if it means that I'll never put myself back together
Gonna give you my heart to break
Even if I'll end up in shatters, baby it doesn't matter
Gonna give you my heart to break
I tried to fight, but I can't help it
Don't care if this is my worst mistake"

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