Updates on the major event...
I didn't tell much people about this because I don't think it's something that is cool to share about to everyone (not like anyone cares) but whatever.
Three years ago, after I graduated and came back from my "14 flights in 6 weeks" vacation I realized something was wrong with me. Not going into details but I found out I was very ill. I still remember that day...going to see the doctor and got super scared, cold, and shaky. When I called Daddy to pick me up, I broke down crying at the market (that's how scared I was), I told Daddy what happened. I was so scared I'll die, scared to leave my family, scared that my family will worry about me, and scared that I'll be a burden to them (I didn't say those to Daddy). I was pretty positive back then because I know I have never done anything horrible in life, don't think they will take my life this early? I'm not a super nice person but I think I'm a nice enough person...?
I remember I had to go through different tests and get poked here and there. I was not scared for the surgery because all I wanted is to get that thing outta my body and see my family. It was a painful journey but I know mine wasn't as bad as some other bad disease. I'm not sure how I got sick, I guess I'm just unlucky (as always). Doctors don't even know why it happened, they said I don't drink, smoke or do anything bad...
During that time I realized who my true friends were (only the ones I have told). I still remember one classmate who texted me and asked me to buy tea from her for her project. I didn't tell her details but I told her I'm in the hospital right now... She just kept asking me to buy tea... Like are you feeling ok? Obviously, we don't talk anymore now.
BIG thanks to my family for being there for me (Sorry to make you all worry). <3 No matter how painful or scared I was I didn't show it infront of them and just put that smile on my face. I wanna say thank you to the ones that cared and asked how I was. A special thanks to nurse Kan (Vie) for going to some tests with me, and stabbing me with blood thinner for 2 weeks or so after I got outta the hospital. <3 Without you, I don't know what to do with that blood thinner... Like seriously, the hospital nurse told me to stab myself with blood thinner, are you crazy? I can't even stab someone, how can I stab myself? Looking at that needle is scary enough YO!
I'm thankful that I'm alright now and hopefully I won't get sick ever again.
So whatever happened in the past month or so is not as painful as the above but it honestly hurts A LOT! BTW, Happy Valentine's Day! I thought I would have a happy val day this year...it was all a dream... A dream that didn't seem real from the beginning because I'm always unlucky... =(
"無情地贈我傷痕 長留在此."(not direct translate) A scar is a scar, it will be there forever.
Like I said before, you always give me unhappy memories in life. The best things you gave me are a great family and a bunch of great friends that are always there for me. Thank you for the tough times! It made me stronger! I'll try to stay strong when I know I'm not that strong...
Thank you for the rose! I feel loved! =)
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