Goodbye

Out of the blue thoughts before main part. ABCDEFG! Why do people drive like slugs? Like step on the gas pedal! Not in a very good mood this morning.

I can't wait till September! Gonna leave this place for good, I hope it's happening. =) I'm gonna have so much fun there! BYE!

A courier guy delivered something. He asked for my name and said "thank you Cindy", his soft tone of voice made me feel weird. >< I have never seen him before, it's usually this other man.

To that person (if you ever find this), I'm guessing what you did is to help me forget but it will take some time since I have an ok good memory that you probably did not know about. I can't just forget someone that fast. (I'm not like you) I know it's a point of no return and I never thought of liking you that way again. So don't worry, you didn't have to do all that to me.

"仍然感激你 贈我這一個故事." Thank you for giving me this story. =)

If it wasn't you I wouldn't know how much people cared about me, especially my brother. I didn't know he would react right away to that FB update thingy and I didn't even tell him a thing about us. I didn't know he would wanna beat you up after finding out what you did to me. I didn't know he would worry about me and check up on me once in a little while. I love my brother! <3

You made me realize my friends are very important to me as well. (I wanted to be friends with you because I don't like the feeling of losing a friend. My friends were right, I don't need you as a friend but I wanted to... Next time if you don't wanna be friends with someone just say no straight up. Don't say "ya we can be friends" and next thing, you do all that to me!) Without my close friends (yes Susan, you are one of them. I feel like you are waiting for me to name you on my blog lol) I don't know how I can handle this. I didn't know they would be there for me when I was super down. I know there is nothing much they can do to help but being next to me and listening to me is enough. <3 They didn't want me to hurt myself even more by thinking of you and ever messaging you again. I know I should have listened to them but I'm somewhat stubborn about these stuff. I like to do what my heart tells me to do. Thank you friends for supporting me although none of you wanted me to do that to myself. I won't learn/know if you don't let me try. =)

Because of you, I learned to love myself more. Enjoy my life as much as I can with my loved ones and friends. Started doing things that I used to like doing. One last thing I always wanted to say to you...it's your loss, not mine. =)

BTW, I'm not mad at you. I was never mad at you, except that day when I accidentally messaged and what you did afterwards. I'll still smile and talk to you if I ever see you again, don't think I'll recognize you though.