First of all, I did not know it's anti bullying day today so I did not wear pink (boss asked why I'm not wearing pink). If I knew I would have wore it (not my favourite colour). Does pinkish lipstick and blush count lol?
Ever since the first demo of the year, I realized the hand wash dishes aren't as dirty as before. The chef is doing a better job this year but I still rewash them just incase. Some baking sheets still have oil on them. ><
Growing up, I have always been a very quiet person (sometimes). I am usually more quiet with a big group of people or with people I'm not familiar with. I wonder if it has anything to do with what happened in elementary school back in Hong Kong... To me, HK education is a bit strict. I remember I was in grade one, the teacher made us think of a sentence by using "又" (again). I couldn't think of anything so she made me stand up in class until I could think of something. Yes, that's how crazy my memory is and that's how deep that was for me. =( I'm the type of person that can't think on the spot and I won't open my mouth to say a word if I am not willing to. I think I stood for awhile but I remember I came up with a sentence. Something like "someone and someone something (verb) again" LOL! Don't remember the exact words.
I'm not too sure if I'm shy or introverted. To me both words have different meanings just like what I read from Introvertspring. I think I used to be shy but not so much now. I think my shyness went away when I was in university. I studied in accounting and business admin so lots of presentations. I think for the first few years I was nervous to present infront of the class. I felt weird and everyone was looking at me. I guess back then I wasn't as confident? During my last year or so, I was not afraid of presenting anymore and I remember my script pretty well. I practiced for hours saying the same thing over and over again like a robot. I was even praised by this guest (I think some CEO from somewhere, forgot) who was listening to my presentation. He said my presentation was business level. Made me very happy. That's how much confidence I had. =) I'm not afraid to talk to people, at least I don't think I am. I talk to strangers all the time at work. I just don't want to talk sometimes.
I guess I'm more of an introvert after reading that site above. I meet a few of the characteristics listed (I don't think I'm THAT introverted?). "Most introverts hate talking on the phone", if you know me, you might find this weird because I have to talk on the phone all day at work. To be honest, I actually don't like talking on the phone with strangers (I want to hang up asap). Picking up and talking is ok but I hate calling people. I don't know why, just do. I guess because I don't know what to say to them sometimes and I can't get the right words out and mess up. I think I prefer talking face to face more because I can actually see that person's reactions. Whereas, over the phone I can't tell what they are like. Are they serious? Are they really happy? Are they mad?
This brings us to the next trait, "We have a tendency to overthink ". Yes, I like to think, I told that person that too. That's just my personality. Sometimes when I see people's reaction to what I said I like to think did I say something wrong? Should I have worded it differentlty? Were they unhappy with what I said? I also like to think when I have nothing to do, like when I'm trying to fall asleep (that's why I have so much greys lol). I hate thinking but it's not like I can stop it. Well, I can, I have my own ways...
Last but not least, "Introverts tend to write better than we speak ", yes yes yes. I always think that I'm not good at talking that's why I don't talk much. Don't want to say something I don't mean to say. Plus, I can't think fast so it's hard to come up with an answer or the right words right away. When it comes to writing, it's easier for me because I can just type it all out with no worries. It gives me a bit of time to think and make changes. I'm not the best in writing, as you can see (don't care about grammar lol). Sometimes I talk more through messaging than in person but it depends who it is and how close I am with that person. It takes time.
People at work probably think I'm socially awkward because I have been working there for almost 2 years and I hardly talk to them. They are nice people but I can't really open up myself to them. One reason is maybe because they are all WAY older than me. The youngest one is 10 years older. Second reason is 98% of them are guys. I have nothing to say to them. The guys would normally try to start a conversation with me which is good but I still don't know what to say... All I do is smile. =)
I'm not an introvert with my close friends I think? I did ask them if I talk a lot. They said yes and that is because I know them for MANY years. I'm super comfortable with them, I can pretty much tell them anything.
Anyways, I don't think being an introvert is a bad thing. Some people may actually like it because they get annoyed from people that talks a lot (I don't want to be hated). I enjoy being an introvert, just mind my own business. Sometimes I like my alone time. I get to do things that I enjoy doing without anyone else bothering me. It gives me that peace and quiet that I don't always get. I find it quite relaxing, especially at work, I like it when almost all of them are out of the office. How I wish it happens everyday at work. =) Oh, by the way, I'm very good at keeping secrets because I don't talk LOL!
Random moment, the first day when I got back to work after my trip, this song was the first song that played on the Youtube playlist. Just when I'm tying to get "stuff" outta my mind, it pops right back out... I'm fine now. =)
Charlie Puth - We Don't Talk Anymore feat. Selena Gomez
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