I was still happy about this meetup but my heart did sink a bit after a particular text message. I didn't really get that feeling that I got on my birthday but I still wanted to see where this will lead us to.
During dinner, I realized he didn't ask me as much stuff as he used to. He didn't give me that super interested feeling anymore. From the talk I felt like we are very different.
After dinner we passed by this ice cream place that I wanted to try. I wasn't planning to try because we were going to a show but he said "no, let's go, I don't think I'll come here again". I thought aw, ok. We were still having fun and talking and stuff.
Then we went to the show, that was totally a surprise but I was totally fine with it (content of the show). We were still asking each other stuff and he was still very nice.
After the show we shared an umbrella so I grabbed onto his arm. I guess things got awkward after that. He kept smiling in this way and I was like..... When we were about to part, he looked like he wasn't sure to give me a hug or not so I gave him a hug, I've never felt so lost before. I thought I had some feelings for him but I didn't feel anything from that hug. I wasn't sure if that was normal or not.
He still sounded happy when we messaged each other but I didn't message for a day and hoping he would because I told him about initiating text first. Then he ignored my message and my senses tell me something was wrong. Don't know why but my heart started to hurt. Oh well, I guess we were not meant to be and "天" helped me make a decision.
I would really appreciate it if he said a reason and not just disappear but I guess the world is different now. Plus, we weren't that close to give each other reasons? He was a nice person but after what he did, he isn't nice anymore. I guess he also didn't feel anything from that hug? People say a hug can tell a lot. If I only went out once with him then I don't care if he disappear but we went out a few times... I thought he was a responsible guy... He disappointed me!
I was gonna ask him to meet up so I can clear thing up and see if we were on the same page but there is no need. His actions mean a lot already. Why do I have to make it seem like he is the only person that I can go out with? Save some dignity and find a new tree girl! Everyone has been saying, "there are plenty of fishes in the sea". It's true, there are always guys messaging me but just not really someone I would want to be with. I'll still talk to them and see where it leads us to just like this one. NEXT!
Out of the blu, watching a new drama and thought the lyrics of this song was not bad. Always find songs at the right timing. When is my right timing in finding prince charming?
吳若希 Jinny - 找個離開你的理由
"想得很美真心不會變 現實原來在改變
經多少晚再失眠 流下眼淚太多但求別要再糾纏
即使心痛必須講再見 別掉回頭又心軟
天空海闊看不完 然而共你夢想的方向漸遠
讓我從頭自愛 沒有幸福的戀愛沒法追回來
沒有結果的感慨就要說分開
讓世間都意外 重新開始信心總會在
期待下次該可更學會愛
星光很美數不到永遠 別在猶豫亂方寸
一分一秒已數完 沉默下去陌生的感覺漸遠
無論是錯或對都該放手 只好講句我們緣份不夠
今天以後 誰愛我 誰牽手 從頭換季清空記念所有
期待下季 還是精彩 有一天可再愛"
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