Friday, January 5, 2018

Change to Impress?

I was talking to my cousin and she wanted to see what the guys that I was introduced to looked like. I actually forgot all their names. I said "it means I wasn't into them". Sorry.

Then my cousin kind of made me feel horrible. She said "you should change yourself to attract guys. Get rid of your bangs and glasses (I love my bangs, I like my kid look. I don't want glasses but no cons go that high and they are expensive). You should wear heels (I'm tall and they are painful). Why are you not changing anything? If you don't you can't catch their attention. If you want them to see your inner beauty, you need to attract them with your outer beauty first. There are tons of nice girls out there (that's not true, a lot of them are evil), why would a good looking rich guy go for you?". I'm just like...........................................thanks...

Yes, I know she is doing this for my own good and yes, I know people always look at outer first, including myself (you too, don't lie lol!). But what she said made me feel like I look like crap... I think I look fine. Yes, I know I'm not pretty but who doesn't want to be, I think I'm ok looking. I like my "cute" style, I like being a kid, if dudes out there don't, then DON'T! Go find some hot sluty chicks, don't waste my time.

Yes, I can change myself into someone unrecognizable just to impress some dudes out there but after awhile of knowing me I'm just gonna go back to that normal girl look. Some dudes out there will probably leave me if I go back to my normal self so why not be myself in the beginning? I have nothing to hide (except those fat meat). I am who I am. Like me or hate me! If they care that much about outer than I'm not the girl they are looking for. Don't even bother me.

That's not true, I can't catch dudes' attention, I caught quite a few but just not meant to be. And I caught a good looking bad a** attention so I'm 100% sure I'll catch some good looking good a** out there again (doesn't have to be good looking, just ok to look at for the rest of my life). If I don't then whatever. If it's meant for me to have in my life then it's meant to be, if it isn't, there is nothing I can do about it except live with it. Agree?

I will not change myself to impress anyone. I will only change myself to become a better person. I'm gonna look as normal as I can when I meet people. If you think I'm that bad, please poke your own eyes out.

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