One of the guy didn't talk to me for months, another one told me to message when I'm back from vacation. Um...if you guys were that interested you wouldn't stop talking to me. You would want to know more about me, you would ask about this and that. You would keep talking until I get back. You won't just let it end. You guys didn't so you guys don't deserve anything. And random people liked and messaged me but I have no clue who, didn't check and won't go on. Most of the time it's these weird messages anyways.
I think I'm ok simple. I just want someone that would keep talking and cares about me. Someone that doesn't just give up and will keep trying. If you don't care about me in the beginning I don't think you will care later on. I'm someone that needs a lot of assurance just because I have lost trust. I like to be "tum" too.
Am I asking for too much...?
I will be back on the fish market soon. Wait for me. I'm not gonna reply those people, they can message me again if they want to. I don't give.
5/3
Back on but I'm so not in the mood for it. I'm just on to see who approach me first. Not enjoying it but whatever, let's see what they have in store for me this time... Better be good. I'm just so sick and tired.
7/3
Just ended something. I think I made the right choice although some friends (told them after I ended it) said I should have hang on and keep checking. They said "just don't regret", I don't regret a bit, I don't even feel sad at all. There were too many things I wasn't impressed with. Honestly, he was failing even when I was talking to him but I decided to give him a chance, not once but 2 times. Everything that he did felt so different from other guys. I wasn't even happy after the dates. I was a tiny bit happy when we went to the park.
I appreciate him for trying his best and I was probably being a b****. I could tell he was trying really hard because I think when he is nervous, he scratches his head. I like guys that are ok confident and I want a man. There were other stuff but I won't say it here, he can figure it out on his own, not gonna teach them anymore. Let's just say I was not interested no matter what he does. If I was interested, I think some of those stuff wouldn't even matter. All I can say is sorry! I could have lead him on and keep checking because I feel like he was somewhat maybe interested but I'm not that mean. I don't want to give him hope and make him fall deeper and then stab him right in the heart like some guys did to me.
It's just another right timing, wrong person, or maybe wrong timing too. I just feel like maybe I'm not ready to look around yet. Just like the song "break up in Spring, fine in Fall", it's not Fall yet. But I'm sure if it's the right one I'm ready no matter what season it is. Just haven't found someone that I'm interested in. Maybe I should keep focusing on myself, more ME time. I'm sure someone will come find me when it's unexpected like Mr.6'2. Everyone thinks it's impossible for me to find that ideal person but I know I can. If some dudes in the past did I'm sure I'll meet another one again. Keep believing!
I'm not asking for much, it's pretty basic stuff. If a guy doesn't have the basic, then I rather be alone.
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