Just Enjoy The Moment!

You know girls love to overthink things. One little action that means nothing, girls can make up a million answers to it. Aren't we amazing or what?

Yea, there was something (probably nothing) and I was sad about it. I was tearing as usual. I thought this time will probably be the same as every other time as well. I'm never lucky. When was I ever?

Bestie always says don't fall too quickly, don't disclose so much, don't this and don't that. I know, I know. But sometimes it's hard. I don't want expectations too. I don't want to fall too quickly too. I'm afraid to get hurt again. I'm afraid I'm opening up for nothing. I do keep my walls up high because I'm afraid and sometimes it turns the people away without breaking that wall down. If so, I know all that just means not meant to be. I know!

It hurts when I want it to be meant to be but it may not. I'm afraid it's the same this time. If this time is another not meant to be, I'm gonna take a rest. I'm tired of this, really tired. It's just that hard to find a meant to be. I don't want to have litres of tears every time. I do hope this time works out.

It's not that I don't care. It's because I'm scared to show anything and it turns out to be another sad story. I'm afraid to get hurt. We are just "friends" right now, I don't want to show too much just yet.

After a shower, I told myself to just enjoy the moment. If it's not meant to be again, just live with it and move on. There is nothing I can do anyways. Things can't be forced. If it doesn't work out, at least I learned something new. It's another experience added into my "bank". And stop overthinking when it may not be what I'm thinking. Seriously Cin!

Out of the blu, not bad. Does it fit this post? At least the bolded ones.
胡鴻鈞 Hubert - 今天之後
"望著藍天空　你不經意說難終老
若沒人陪你　及時離去更好
寂寞難修補　你需要的總是未到
來回等　抬頭愛已被盡耗
 如果可修復裂縫　如重新得到你動容
要是能收起一臉倦容　如能答應我可再起步
今天之後　定更好 (I hope)
靜下來檢討　做錯事從來不知道
來回等無人傾訴　愛已被盡耗
今天之後　統統改得更好　永不再給你心痛 (can I find someone that won't hurt me?)
今天的果我已學到"