Bee Blu Bee

The chef brought 2 students with him. He intro one to me and said You've met Anthony before right, I remember his face but I was like isn't his name xx? But I didn't say anything incase if I got it wrong. Then after chef intro second student, he forgot that guy's name, then he said oh Anthony is actually xx. I knew it! I thought my memory was getting worse, phew.

I see this man cleaning the windows of the building across from work. I was thinking while he is at it, can he clean my car too? I parked under this light pole at the mall and when I got back to it, it's filled with bird poop!!! So gross! I tried to clean the windshield ones off so I can see better but it was rock hard! Didn't want to ruin my wipers so left it there. I asked "天" to rain and it did but super light. I asked if it can rain harder and I hope it does. Raining hard would also help with the forest fire.

Woke up on a Sunday at 7am and thought I was late for Monday. I quickly got up and thought I remembered setting the alarm the night before. Then I realized it's only Sunday. I was actually gonna text my manager I'll be running late, good thing I didn't.

I was cleaning in the kitchen at work and I didn't know a dealer came in. When I turned and look, he just stood there looking at me, creepy...

I was reading one post on if you are dehydrated, I found out there is a 50 shades of pee chart haha!

Yes, tummy soreness! I'm not crazy but I like it because it means my exercise is working, it's worth it.

The 20 Cutest Dog Breeds That Don't Shed
I knew my little princess was a watchdog. She never smiles just like guards. She barks like crazy at things and human. I still love her, she is unique in her own way. <3

Customers Are Calling Out Boohoo For Allegedly Having A "Fat Tax"
Um...seriously? But I have seen places charging more on larger size, just because they use more fabric to make??? You know if I do make my own clothes in the future. I do want to go into the plus size market. Just because I think it's harder to find plus size clothes sometimes, not sure though. I'll make cute plus size clothes. =) I think I have ok taste in clothes, at least it's Cincin style. Someday...someday.

Bride tells her best friend she’s too fat to be in the wedding
WOW! I guess all kinds of friendships end before/after any weddings. I've heard more than enough stories from friends and online. Crazy... I hope I don't lose any before/after mine, if ever.

Once You Find out Why the Graham Cracker Was Invented, You’ll Never Want One Again
Seriously? Always learn something new. I really like graham too lol. I hardly eat it though. I'll still eat it as long as it's not made with something bad.

Warning: Looking at This Hot 50-Year-Old Ex-Model May Cause Extreme Thirst
Hmm...I didn't feel anything when I saw his pictures, maybe because he isn't my type and a bit too old for me? I'm not too into muscular guys. Asian always look young though, not a big surprise to me. He'll probably look younger without the facial hair.

Four-Year-Old Cries When New Stepmom Reads Him Vows During Wedding
Aww, "I may not have given you the gift of life, but life surely gave me the gift of you". I've only been to one wedding as an adult so far. I didn't cry at all because I couldn't even hear what they were saying. My friends and I were sitting all the way at reception and they didn't turn the volume on loud enough. Oh well. I'll cry like there's no tomorrow for mine or make everyone cry, if ever.

Young Irish parents both diagnosed with terminal cancer urge people to go straight to the doctor if feeling unwell
Aww, another one of those stories. =( So true, if you don't feel well or feel something different, go get a check up. I didn't know when I was sick, I didn't feel anything, something was different but too young to know anything. When I know about it, it's a bit serious but not life threatening, which was good.

Here's how much money should you really be giving for a wedding gift
Hm...maybe some people should read this. *cough* Low B. "Be honest with yourself and get down to how much money you can truly gift the couple, even if you might have to cook instead of get takeout for a month." - not everyone can give as much as you want them to, be considerate and you should be happy that you got something from them.

Random moment, almost forgot to add a song. I'm feeling tired so not gonna look for one but I really like this old song. Used to listen to it in the car (cassette tapes) when I was young. I like the star part.
譚詠麟 - 霧之戀
"天邊一顆閃星星 海邊一顆閃星星
或睡或現閃爍不停
你要看 始終看不清
轉眼間會失去
似怕我要說再見 我怕終於一天
再也不不會再想你
還是愛著你 曾話愛著你 你永在我心
每次我望真你 每次我望真你
你那眼光中 也都帶淚
每次我望真你 每次我望真你
你那眼中都有我"

My Cinderella Story

Out of all Disney princesses, I like Cinderella the most. I like Mulan too but don't think she is a princess. I like them because I feel like I'm similar to them. In elementary, kids would say I look like Mulan, long black hair. I think I would do the same thing Mulan did too but don't know.

How am I similar to Cinderella? We have similar names. I remember back in high school there are all these "test which character you are" stuff. My result was Cinderella. I forgot what the result said but I think personality or something? I think I have some but not all of her personalities.

The real reason... I feel like Cinderella at work, do chores all day and everyday, being ordered around non stop. Always trapped inside the house (company). The evil stepmother would be a** (you will know about a** if you have been reading all along), always telling me to do this do that. Not sure who are the little animal friends would be but let's say my co-workers. Sometimes they would come and talk to me and some would complain about a** to me. Sometimes they help me too. I think my coworkers can be the evil stepsisters as well, sometimes they tell me to do stuff too but not as much as a**. 

My fairy godmother would either be my boss or my manager. They are the only people that can really save me at work. My manager, she is almost always there to help me when I need help. My boss can save me from the evil a**, at least he has the power to improve things. Can't imagine my boss in a fairy godmother dress LOL! My boss kind of look like fairy godmother (animation version), shhhh, don't tell.

So, where is my prince charming that can really save me from hell? I don't know, I haven't found that person yet. I hope we will meet soon so I don't have to work anymore and be treated like an actual princess. Maybe we will meet at the work open house (can be like the ball in Cinderella).

Oh, when manager retires then my fairy godmother will be my boss. When boss retires, I don't know who will be my fairy godmother. Hopefully by then prince charming has saved me and I can say bye-bye.

I have such good imagination haha. I should totally write a story on it if I do find a prince charming to save me. =)

Random moment, oh I just realize that line on the Pandora charm was an actual song name from Cinderella.
Cinderella - A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes
"A dream is a wish your heart makes

In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday (when is someday?)
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true (I hope it will too)

When you're feeling small
Alone, in the night you whisper
Thinking no one can hear you at all

You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you (I hope so too)
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow
For all you know tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come true"

Yuzu Shokutei Review

I wanted to try another place but it's not open so I had to pick another place. Good thing I had Yuzu Shokutei on my to try list. It's located in downtown Vancouver. Somewhat far from Vancouver City Centre. If you don't like walking take the bus (#5?) down there. I was fine with the walk there and back. It's always better with a friend.

The place was not big not small. It's interesting how they provide buckets for us to put our bags in. I guess because the floor is dirty and they don't want our bags to get dirty? I would never put my bag on the floor anyways. We went there around 5pm so not too much people.

Service, it was good. There were these Asian people that didn't speak English I think and the girl was speaking to them in Mandarin and explaining things to them. The waitress/waiter were very nice.

I got the paitan sea salt and my friend got the paitan soy sauce (both $12 each). The presentation looked nice, like most ramen place. Both looked the same. I can actually see the ramen at this place, most places cover the ramen completely. I also like how they use a pretty bowl, some people might think it look old style but I like it.

I thought their ramen tasted pretty good, at least better than the one I tried in Richmond. This one had more taste to it. The bamboo had a soy sauce taste to it, I think they soaked it in soy sauce? The ginger was a bit different from what I usually eat, it had a salty taste to it, I wish it was more sour/spicy like normal ones that comes with sushi. The egg was good, not too cooked or runny, the flavour was good. The noodle was ok, I kind of prefer a little bit more texture/chewy. The soup was ok thickness, not too thick but still sticks to the noodle and gives the noodle a good flavour. Their soup tasted like it had egg yolk in it, not sure if it's from the egg? Not bad.

I would come back again but it depends if I feel like walking that far next time. I do want to try their dessert.

R.I.P. Uncle

I was gonna post something else but I think this is more important. Didn't have a great day but whatever. That's life. Found out uncle (auntie 9's husband) passed away, I'm not too close to him but I have seen him a bit when I was a little kid. I remembered my aunt and cousin (once with uncle?) would come over to Vancouver from Toronto every year or so. My aunt would always buy us toys every time she comes over (I'm still using that "The Cat" coin purse from her). Oh, I think my cousin liked me back then, he would always bother me and he almost pulled down my pants one time... From what I remembered and what I've heard, my uncle is super talkative to the point where he won't stop talking. People probably get annoyed by him. I remembered going to Banff with them as well. After few years they just stopped coming, not sure why, maybe it was getting boring in Vancouver? I've always wanted to visit Toronto and stay over at their place but I guess that is impossible now.

My aunt passed away 1 or 2 years ago because of cancer? Don't quite remember. It's probably a relief for her, she was just going through so many different types of cancer, so much pain, even listening to stories about it hurts deeply. Why do people have to go through so much pain? My mom told me that uncle said to my aunt at the hospital, I will join you. My aunt said no, you have to watch our son (and the dog). I was hoping both of them can at least watch my cousin get married and have kids before they leave...it's just sad. Uncle really love my aunt, he said she has been taking care of him forever and now she is gone. He always wanted to leave this world to be with her. I really like my parents generation, most couple are so true to each other, not like nowadays. I would be more than happy to find someone like that too.

I guess he tried his best to stay in this world to take care of my cousin (and the dog). Not too sure what happened to Uncle but I heard he wasn't feeling well few days ago then he went for surgery and now he is gone... Uncle had lots of health issues too (maybe it's a relief for him as well?) plus his love sickness. Well, he is in a better place now with my aunt. Hopefully there is such a thing as reuniting after death.

Now, my cousin is left alone (well, I guess my aunt and uncle are watching him from above). He is in his early 30's, I think he will do fine. If he needs anything, we will try our best to help.

Human are just so fragile, they were fine and all of a sudden they are gone... Why is there such a thing as death? Why do you have to create us and then take us away? Why?

I haven't teared for awhile, I thought I wouldn't tear.

Deep Cove Ice Cream Review

We wanted some ice cream after dinner at Deep Cove. We decided to try this particular one because it was just right beside Deepwater Micro Eatery. A small ice cream place with a lot of flavours and you can get samples before buying (heads up, only 2 samples).

Service, it wasn't too great (for my friend, not me). What happened? Well, my friend had 2 samples already and she wanted a third one but the girl said no, only 2 (my friend said they should let us know before hand that we can only have 2 samples). Then my friend said ok, because I was thinking of getting 2 flavours but if that one isn't good then I'm getting one flavour. That girl didn't say anything but she made this look. My friend looked at me and made a ok WTF look. Then I got my flavours. My friend said to the girl, since my friend only had one sample, can I take one of hers? The girl said I guess in this annoyed tone of voice. Like I understand retail type of job or anything to do with customers isn't that fun. I know you can get horrible customers. If my friend was being a b**** then ok fine but I don't think she was. The girl should just put a fake smile on until we leave the store. I know it's hard, I mean I do that too to b****y customers but just try.

Anyways, I tried tiger tiger as a sample. The girl said it's orange and licorice. I was thinking licorice... I tried it, it's actually not that bad, couldn't really taste orange, it just had a sweet taste to it. If you know me, I like to get flavours that I didn't sample. I usually pick somewhat safe flavours. I choose cotton candy and raspberry rocky mountain. I've never tried cotton candy ice cream before, it was sweet but didn't really taste like cotton candy. The raspberry one was ok I guess? It had chocolate bites and I think there are shredded coconut inside the chocolate.

My friend got the moose flakes, it reminds me of cookie and cream.

Their ice cream isn't too sweet which is good but I think the flavour was lacking a bit.

Don't think I would come back, not because of the service. I didn't find anything too special about it so I rather try other places.

Blu Bee Blu

My friend was looking at Pandora and I never really liked their stuff but then I saw their "Beauty and the Beast" collection I was tempted. If you know me, I'm crazy about Disney. I ended up buying something because I like the engraving on the bangle, "true beauty is found within". The charm I chose with it I think it's "so Cincin". I still need to buy clips for it because the charms keep moving around and I want a few charms in there. I don't like how it shows so much bangle, looks like those Indian bangle. And because the charm side is heavy it keeps ending up on the bottom of my hand, showing the engraving part on top only, even more Indian like haha.

I was looking at the Disney collection on Pandora's website. I really like the Cinderella pumpkin coach but it's as expensive as my bangle... don't think it matches with the rest of my charms. I saw one charm that engraved "A dream is a wish your heart makes" from Cinderella. The charm itself isn't very pretty but that quote is nice. If I have that much money to spend I would totally get all the Disney characters but I don't. They are so expensive!!!

I'm quite mad at myself for spending more than what I normally save! There are just so much stuff I want but I do not need. I have been going out quite a bit again...which means more spending. I will stop soon. Nothing much happening next month.

Aww, so sad. I sent this updated golf list to manager and she said remove this person's name and I was like oh, didn't he pay already? Manager said he died. I'm like oh, oh... Manger laughed...because she knows he isn't here anymore and I asked that question. Anyways, that's sad, I saw him a few times before, he isn't young, quite skinny... Manager said he got heart attack in his hotel room and no-one knew. >< Heart attack is for sure a silent killer. No wonder few days ago this lady from his company came and coworker was asking how are things after this other person took over. One thing I wanna say, enjoy your life to the fullest everyday, you don't know what will happen next.

Uh, this courier man almost stabbed me with his pen... He was apologizing, I accepted but it hurts! =(

Had a training at work and it's all older people. Usually young people go for high paying jobs with lots of opportunities. And older people, as long as they have a job they are happy. My opinion, not sure if it's true. One dude said can I get one of these mints? I said yes then he said you are the sweetest. I know I am. =)

So I saw this huge ant crawling down my closet when I was putting on hand cream before I go to bed. At first I'm like what is that crawling down so fast. So I fling it on the floor really hard with my purple furry slipper. I heard a crack noise, I guess I hurt it... I hit it 2 times and flushed it down the toilet. Sorry, it's either you die or I get scared to death.

13 years of marriage, 5 kids, and 3 affairs
I like these lines, "I often wonder why karma has not sought you both out. But then I am told by friends, how do I know it hasn't?" - Karma takes time, you just have to wait and see.
"If only you realised how much I truly loved you and how much I miss that person I met in May 2000... The person I see before me today, I do not know him and I do not wish to... I have found peace in my life and where I belong... Maybe the only thing I need to say to you is thank you for setting me free."

Doctor's warning to contact lens wearers after 'shock' discovery in woman's eye
Wait, what? How is that possible? How can you have that much cons in your eyes without realizing it??? She didn't know if she took them out everytime??? How can you not know if a con is there though? It's normally blue ish. I had cons before but I'm so confused. Do you get it?

101-Year-Old Becomes World Record Holder in 100-Meter Dash: 'I Missed my Nap for This'

LOL! "I missed my nap for this", made me smile. She is amazing! *claps*

Mom Disfigured In Campfire Accident and Abandoned by Husband Speaks Out
That's so sad. =( And he was the one that caused the fire... I guess most men just like women's outta beauty and that's all they care about... Most women don't mind if their man's outta isn't good, why can't men think that way too? I guess because they think from their bottom?

My Husband Has A Boyfriend. Here’s What Our Life Is Like
Wow! I don't think I can ever do that. But good for them! As long as they are happy that's all it matters right?

To complete her bucket list this 94-year-old wanted to say three words
Aww, “Love one another”, I'll try but it's a bit hard. I can't love everyone.

Read the Letter This Grandma Wrote Her Grandson 26 Years Ago, Cry Forever
Aww, I wish I had something like that from my grandparents, I would totally cry like a baby each time. I do have something from my grandparents and I will keep them forever. =)

Random moment, I like this song.
Martin Garrix & Bebe Rexha - In The Name Of Love
"If I told you this was only gonna hurt
If I warned you that the fire's gonna burn
Would you walk in? Would you let me do it first?
Do it all in the name of love
Would you let me lead you even when you're blind?
In the darkness, in the middle of the night
In the silence, when there's no one by your side
Would you call in the name of love?
Would you trust me when you're jumping from the heights?
Would you fall in the name of love?
When there's madness, when there's poison in your head
When the sadness leaves you broken in your bed
I will hold you in the depths of your despair
And it's all in the name of love
I wanna testify
Scream in the holy light
You bring me back to life
And it's all in the name of love"

I Should Have Known

Didn't want to post this but didn't want to keep this in my drafts anymore. 
6/11/17 I was thinking and wanted to type it all out. No hating.

I should have known you wouldn't wait for me.
I should have known from your past stories how you are impatient and give up easily.
I should have known you didn't actually mean it when you said I'm worth waiting for.
I should have known when you said you won't wait that long for me if I took a longer vacation.
I should have known when you asked if I wanted your full attention, you were getting tired of me.
I should have known when you said you can't promise me anything, it means you won't promise anything in the future either.
I should have known I wasn't that important when you completely forgot to remind me about something and you said I was your priority over and over again, priority my ass. Maybe I was your priority in the beginning.
I should have known you didn't like me that much from the beginning because you only like how I'm cute but don't know a thing about my inner beauty.
I should have known you were not a keeper when you hurt me with your "jokes". I can never get mad at you for long because I really wanted this to work. Like how you said you wanted us to be together. All those false hope.
I should have known something was up when you asked "do I have high hopes of us being together". I thought that question was strange. I didn't know how to answer because high hopes equals disappointments. Were you trying to hint something all along?
I should have known you were just too good at sweet talking and acting. How you were still counting down to our first date but ended everything the next day. I didn't realize because I thought your feelings for me were true... Maybe they were true in the beginning but as time goes by...they weren't real anymore...
I should have known all the red flags that were waving at me all along but I liked you too much to even care.
I should have known...we were just not meant to be.

I wish I knew ahead of time. But I didn't realize about these "should have known" until everything ended. Not until when I was reading our conversation over and over again when it ended.

If I knew all along I wouldn't like you in the first place. I thought you were a good one...

I'm stupid for still hoping you are happy and having a great life after all that.

Thank you for everything and the scar that you have engraved on my heart forever.

Random moment, I like this song, I heard this song playing in the van. I remember it was from awhile ago. The MV, I remembered watching the drama but don't really remember what it was about. Not sure why they put 2 names on there when it was sung by Alfred... His name isn't even on there...
我的離開也是愛 - Alfred Hui
"和你走近 要多少犧牲 假如天意 也想我安份 沒原因 未合襯
就算分開不要去憎恨
人生豈可沒淚印
逐段逐段舊情似是遺憾 就是日後共誰有著緣份
始終不可取替著這親切質感
若有天跟你再度走近 如同陌生也不驚震
日日夜夜為誰也是緣份
若有天因有這段感慨
才珍惜你的所愛 我的離開也是愛
離去走近 像律韻 感情相距 再不過問
才學會去放下繼續做人 無謂強忍
記憶猶新 每日每分 動人吸引
記憶留低這份愛"

Deepwater Micro Eatery Review

My friend suggested to eat at Deepwater Micro Eatery after kayaking. They serve Mexican type of food. She tried it before and it was good. It's a tiny restaurant with pretty tiled tables located at Deep Cove. Service was good, the man at the front was very talkative and friendly. I think he talked to like everyone that was at the restaurant and he would like intro himself to the customers.

We both ordered the cod tacos ($15). The portion isn't very big, there were only 3 tacos. I've never had tacos before so this is something new to me. The taste was pretty good, I like how it had a little kick to it. I added more spicy sauce on it because the veggie part just had veggie taste. The veggie also gave it a crunchy texture which I like. I kind of want something crispy in it too, oh well. I'm not really a seafood person, the cod was seasoned and it was very soft, not overcooked.

I thought it was a bit pricey for what we got but seafood is always expensive and that was a tourist attraction area, so it's reasonable.

I like how they had a tiny sink near the bar so customers can wash their hand there before and after eating. (They also have a washroom) Your hands get messy after eating tacos. The water from the veggie or "juice" from the cod were dipping down while I was eating. It kind of made the tortilla soft and it kind of ripped.

I would come back again if I ever go to Deep Cove, it's far from home. I wanted to try their truffle fries or seafood chowder.

Hertiage Asian Eatery Review

I normally post food reviews after 2 weeks but this place has a problem with their pricing (3rd paragraph). My friend found this on Insta I think and she wanted to try it. It's kind of a fusion type of restaurant, Chinese and Western. There were a couple of people there when we got there. I like the wood tables, as usual.

It's one of those order at the counter and pay before you eat type of restaurant. So we actually looked at the menu online and at the store before going in. When I ordered, the cashier said oh, that is not for Saturday/Sunday brunch. I'm like... I guess we didn't read the fine prints clearly? So, I had to choose something else, there weren't much choices to choose from, most of the stuff I don't even want to try. I ended up picking something that cost more than what I wanted...

I ended up ordering the pork belly benny bowl ($14) and my friend got the duck wrap ($7). Before I go onto the flavours I want to talk about their pricing. On the menu that was taped on their window and sitting on the counter, it said $5 for the duck wrap but my friend paid $8 something. She went to ask and the cashier said they changed the menu and haven't printed new ones. Umm, if you haven't printed a new one you could white it out or put a white sticker over it and put the new price on. Or maybe notify the customer before hand? They didn't do any of the above. I just found out on their official website, the duck wrap is $6. So, they can just say whatever and charge us whatever price they want??? Also, the cashier almost charged me $12 something for my pork belly...

Anyways, the presentation of the food was pretty. For my benny bowl, I just like the pork belly out of everything. It had enough flavour and very soft. I never like eating salad, there weren't any bitter veggie in it so it's good. The yuzu hollandaise sauce had an interesting flavour to it, sourish and I never really liked poach eggs. I don't like the liquidly yolk but I had no other dish I wanted from the menu and I really want pork belly. The harsh brown below the eggs, I thought it was overly cooked, had that burnt bitter taste and it did look really dark, it wasn't golden brown, unless if they wanted it that way...

 

The duck wrap, my friend said it's just ok, the wrap itself looks crispy but my friend said it's not, maybe it got soggy from the sauce? The sauce or juice just kept dipping from the bottom when she was eating it.

My friend also wanted to try the mantou with the matcha dip but she said nah, might not be that price, like the wrap and if the wrap was $5 as stated then she would have gotten it.

After you finish eating, you put the dishes and cups (you get water yourself) in these dirty tray yourself. Hmm...

Will I come back? Hm...unlikely. The one thing I wanted to try is only offered on weekdays, I work weekdays... The whole confusing menu and the pricing. Plus the food was only nicely presented but didn't taste OMG good. I like their creativity though. I rather save my money for another place to try.

Blu Bee Bee

I haven't been typing up much boring stories (I have drafts but nothing new), I don't have anything more to type. My feelings for "that person" went down the drain quite a bit already. Thanks to Mr. Pharmacist and all these guys that I see from work. =) I also realized how stupid I was, I deserve better. I haven't really had any "deep talks" with friends so I have no new ideas/opinions.

So, I have been taking exercise classes and I was changing in my car (I had a tank under, don't worry) when no cars were passing by. After class I realized the coffee shop was just right infront of my car somewhere... I was thinking uh, did anyone see me change? It's ok if they did, not like I had nothing on, just don't snap me. I have a friend that loves to snap "interesting" things around her. I'm sure there are tons of people like her out there too. She snapped a guy taking a piss in the bushes last time...

At work I was asked to clean this range... Holy crap, it's so dirty, all that oil gunk! First thing on my mind was how do I clean this thing? While I was cleaning it I was thinking, why would someone want this used unit? Is it better to buy a new one? I know our products are expensive but still. It's freaking gross! I did my best in cleaning, couldn't make it look new again but half new.

A** and this installation company boss was talking like right infront of my desk and a** said it must be like a honeymoon again for you and your wife since your kids are at your in-laws. The man said no, my wife doesn't talk to me anymore. I actually smiled, I thought he was just joking. Then he said we see each other everyday (it's their own company so they work together). I guess that's why people say don't date people that works in the same company? They talked for so long about random stuff, some were funny but I didn't wanna laugh or smile, pretending I'm not listening lol.

Then they were talking about their kids and how they fight and how they deal with it. The man said he kicked his son for lying to him why he hit his sister. I was like.............. A** said he would just let them figure it out but then his kids will start to beat each other up. I'm like ................. Wow, parents these days... I know kids are hard to teach sometimes but those ways... I don't know. No comment.

Interesting, this lititle girl from the coffee shop always come visit me (PT) years ago and she was short and looked kind of cute. I saw her last Sunday and she looks all grown up, mature look with her glasses, not cute anymore...

21 Bone-Chilling, True Stories of People Who’ve Received Signs from the Dead
This reminds me of myself talking to grandpa (who isn't here anymore). I always like to ask him questions (why this, why that, why?) and ask what I should do when I need to make a decision. Last time I asked grandpa if I should message that person (in the very beginning). I said if I don't get a message from my friend before 9pm then it means you are telling me not to message. My friend normally replies me ok fast (messaged at 8 something). My friend didn't message me but I'm stubborn sometimes so I still messaged that person. I should have listened, I guess grandpa knew it won't be good and he would only want the best for me. Sorry grandpa, I didn't listen but I guess that's how I learn?

This Unexpected Plastic Surgery Procedure is Trending Among Millennials
Seriously? Well, at least I don't need to get plastic surgery for this. I do have dimples but they aren't too noticeable I think? Unless if I have a huge smile on.

Woman bullied for head-to-toe moles could be crowned the next Miss Universe
I like these lines,
“None of us are born perfect and all of us have our own strengths and weaknesses. So don't see any of your flaws as a barrier to achieving what you want” “At the end of the day, everyone has something special about them, so be proud of whatever makes you 'you."

People with unusual pets
Oh my, I've always wanted a pig as a pet haha! Not sure why, maybe because after reading "Charlotte's Web" in elementary? I also wanted a turtle but they don't sell turtles here, I heard. It would be nice to have a lion or tiger as a pet (scare people off) but then I'm afraid they might kill me someday... You never know...

11 Mind-Blowing Cakes That Look Nothing Like Cakes
Wow, I wish I can make something like that someday. Don't think I will, no time.

A man tried to take a loving selfie with his girlfriend. Creates pure evil instead.
LOL!

Random moment, I like a few of his songs.
Charlie Puth - Attention
"I know that dress is karma, perfume regret
You got me thinking 'bout when you were mine, oh
And now I'm all up on ya, what you expect?
You just want attention, you don't want my heart
Yeah, you just want attention, I knew from the start
You're just making sure I'm never gettin' over you
What are you doin' to me, what are you doin', huh?"

When You Are Not From A Rich Family

I have been watching dramas on rich families fighting over money/everything and I'm just glad I'm not from a rich family. It just seems like money is more important than their family, I guess because they aren't 100% related (same dad, different moms)? Even if they were 100% related, siblings will still fight over inheritance, as long as there are money involved. I'm happy with what I have, a simple family.

When you are not from a rich family you know you have to spend money wisely because you know how hard it is for your parents to earn money. However, no matter how hard it is to earn money, parents will always buy us the stuff we want (most of the time). I know not all parents would do that for their kids and I'm happy to have parents that would.

When I was young I always whine to buy this and buy that and get upset when my parents don't get it for me. Then after a bit my parents would ask do you want it? I'll reply, no don't want it anymore (unhappily). Then they will say if you want it, we'll get it.

As I got older I realized how hard it is to earn money. Why did I always whine to buy this and that? I guess some things you will just realize when you get older? Most of the stuff I got are just sitting there collecting dust... I'm still buying so much useless stuff, don't ask why. I don't know the reason myself. My mom always gets mad at me for buying so much stuff online... =( It's hard to buy a house nowadays, what 's the point of saving so much? Might as well spend it and make myself happy, kind of help me de-stress.

Now that I'm earning money, I give back to my parents. I want them to live the best lives that they can. If they want something, I'll get it for them. I just want them to be happy and healthy after all the hard times raising 2 little monkeys up. I treat them like kids now. =)

I remembered when I was young, my parents would buy me birthday cakes, those Chinese style cake with white cream all over and you get to pick a cute character to put in the middle. I was in elementary back then, one year when mom took me to go pick a cake, I actually said... I don`t want a cake, it`s expensive, I rather spend money on other food. Not too sure why I said that, I guess I knew I'm not from a rich family and those are "luxury" items that I didn't need. My parents did stop buying me cakes (and presents) ever since and now I buy them cakes. =) Not always because they are getting old, can't have too much sugar (I can't too). =( I get them designer cakes and they are like so expensive, the normal big cakes are the same price, just get those next time. I'm like it's different, those are so normal, these are designer cakes. I just want to give them the best things, they deserve it!

Money is important but I don't think it's as important as my family. <3

Is money more important than your family?

Sorry no song, been a bit busy with life. 

Morak Korean Fusion Restaurant

I was craving Korean food, especially the tofu stew. I found Morak online and it seems ok and it was close to Metrotown (cross the road from The Bay side). When we got there, there were a few tables with people. Kind of Korean atmosphere, a bit dark ish but not really.

Service, I thought they were good but my friend just sent me a picture from Insta that said their service was bad? Well, I know service can be different all the time, depends on their mood, the customers, and everything. The waiter/waitress kept coming over to ask if we are ready to order but I was fine with that. They were very kind and I didn't feel anything bad.

Anyways, I ordered the seafood tofu soup ($9.40) and my friend ordered the kimchi tofu soup ($9.40). I thought their price was not bad compared to other Korean restaurants. The size was normal but it was smaller than what I had in Korea. I thought the taste was just right, it was mild spicy. There weren't much seafood in there, I had like 3 shrimps, and 5 tiny (smaller than a dime) scallops, there were few big blocks of tofu and an egg. The soup came with rice but I normally can't finish it. My friend thought her kimchi tofu soup was not bad too. They only had 3 side dishes, they weren't big but it's alright (potatoe, bean sprout, and radish).

The food was good but not as good as Korea and we weren't in the mood to eat. The weather was hot, even hotter after the soup. Just don't feel like eating and we ate a bit before going there too. I guess we looked unhappy with our food, the waitress came and asked if everything was ok. We asked to get the food packed instead.

I would come back again when I feel like eating. My friend wanted to try their yuzu chicken but then it was expensive and it's for 2-3 people, we couldn't eat it. Maybe next time when we bring more people. =)

Reality vs Cruelty

A friend wanted me to post this for her, it's my pleasure. =) To that A hole! I hope you "well".

I don’t know if I should forgive and forget, or just forget. I admit, up to this day I still haven’t gotten over you 100% and your lies, and it’s been 2 years. I may have moved on mentally but my emotions still think about you from time to time, and trust me, it hurts every single time. I don’t know why you did what you did, and you must have an explanation but you never bothered telling me the truth. I had to find out the truth the hard way, and it shattered me into pieces. I had to work really hard to pick up those broken pieces and rebuild my trust for people. 

You know what hurts me to most? The list of plans that we created TOGETHER and all those places you promised you would take me. I thought after all the time and attention I had invested, you would at least keep one of your words. I took everything you said to heart, I paid attention to your interests and hobbies. I didn’t mind taking the risk to buy some Transformers Toy off some random guy on Craigslist, just because I wanted to give you a surprise. And what did you give me in return? Nothing except lies and a broken heart. Oh of course, and when you decided to upload a picture of you and another girl, given the fact that I had asked you multiple times to take one with me and all I got was rejection. After a week you had promised me you would take me to this ice cream place after your pay cheque, you went with her instead and tagged her and even uploaded on social media. How do you think I felt? Maybe to you, we were never official so you thought it was ok to keep your options open. To me, it was against my will to focus on more than one guy. Perhaps things would have been different if I confronted you and questioned you who that girl was, but what was the point? A picture is worth a thousand words. I believe what I saw. 

Not a lot of people know about you. I only told a couple of close friends, and they’re all on my side. They know how much I did for you and how deep you had hurt me. I really liked you. I had put you before me. I’m known as a generous person, but too bad you took advantage of it. Why am I here feeling miserable for something that you did? I should be giving myself some credit to making it this far. 

Anyways, it doesn’t even matter anymore. I’d like to thank you for giving me the most memorable 3 months of my life. There were definitely more happy times than sad times. You did take good care of me when I was tipsy after clubbing. You made sure I was hydrated and that I was comfortable in the passenger seat. You took me to eat congee and buy Advil when I wasn’t feeling well. Anyone could’ve done the above things for me easily, but because it’s you, that’s what made these moments so special. And that’s why you are so hard to forget. 

I know you will never ever get to read this post, but I’m just typing this out for my own sake. And I guess this is my way of “closure”. Which by the way, is something that I very much-needed but you never gave me. You kinda just disappeared on me. I don’t know if you have anyone in your life now, but if you do, I hope you treat her well, because she’s a very lucky girl. Please don’t let her shed a tear, like how I did for you. Everything had gone to memories.

Cafe Eggstatic Review

We were gonna try ice cream from this BBT place but that location didn't have it so we decided to try Café Eggstatic. It's located inside Crystal mall. There are actually quite a few BBT places in that mall.

I ordered the jasmine green tea ($3) with tea jelly ($0.50) and my friend got the green apple green tea with I think half pearl half coconut jelly?

The jasmine green tea was alright, taste like tea, not sure what good BBT should taste like. Their tea jelly is something I want to talk about. I've never tried tea jelly before and I don't think I have seen it at other BBT places. I love tea so I decided to try it. It had a strong tea taste, close to the tea bitter taste but not completely bitter. The shape of it was more like pudding style not like the coconut jelly type. It did have the jello texture and it was super hard to suck with the straw, it gets stuck. You should stab that jelly like there is no tomorrow before you drink it. I would get tea jelly again, I like it.

My friend thought her green apple green tea was not bad too.

I would come again because their price is not bad compared to other ones, maybe because they are new ish? I don't go to Burnaby often though so don't know when next time will be. =)

Blu Blu Blu

I ran out of Blu and Bee possibilities so starting a different set of Blu and Bee. =)

Our showroom is always changing and renovating so I get to see all these different installers and people. Some eye candies sometimes hehe. Saw this ok guy and he is considered tall for technician. A lot of them are pretty short for some reason, I'm not sure why. He came for 2 days straight, oh well, not like we will see again, just like all those other guys that comes here...

I'm a small potatoe at work so normally the installers/other people don't ask for my name and if they have to ask me something they just ask. This installer actually asked what my name is and asked if we have a vacuum. He was like all sweaty from installing... He even said my name when he left. I didn't ask for his, don't care.

I was waiting for the skytrain, these couples with a kid didn't talk to each other at all the whole time. When they got into the train, same thing, no talking, nothing. I thought that was awkward but you never know what happened between them.

Started watching "Legal Mavericks", not bad, I like this better than "Bet Hur". The characters are a bit more funny. I like Vincent Wong. =) Can I find a tree as tall as him? One of the story is kinda sad, a kid with a dad that is deaf and a mom that is deaf and can't talk. =( One reason why I like this drama is because it talks about problems in the world nowadays with different cases (mainly discrimination). One part I really like, when this little kid asked why this other kid has this mark on his face. The teacher asked him "do you look the same as your mom? Do you look the same as me?" The student said "no" to both. Then the teacher said "that's right, everyone looks different, everyone is unique, understand?" When are they gonna upload more episodas? I want to watch more!!

Finally watched "Power Rangers", my childhood show with my brother. I like the old Power Rangers more. I think yellow ranger is in the Transformer movie? Is it weird for a girl wanting to be a superhero after watching all these superhero movies? Maybe I have a hidden boy side to me hehe. I guess it also has to do with having a brother? I remember I watched all these boy cartoons and shows with him. Good old simple times. =)

I was typing something at work and I thought I saw something crawling under my monitor but couldn't see anything when I looked. Then after a bit I saw something moving again, it was a tiny ant. I ignored it, didn't want to kill it. Then it was crawling on the counter, I didn't want it to crawl near me again so I took a piece of hard paper and try to make it crawl onto it. It wouldn't, it keep avoiding it. I kept talking to it, trust me, I'm not gonna hurt you, just crawl on it, please! It did eventually, I put the piece of hard paper on the floor and hoping it would be smart enough to just crawl out from the cracks of the front door. It crawled on the carpet but not sure what happened to it after. My warehouse manager saw and he was like what are you doing? I'm like it's a tiny ant. He said just kill it. I'm like nah. I didn't feel like killing anything. Guess what? After a bit I see it crawling on the counter again... I actually laughed, how silly was that ant, I set it free and it just had to come back. WHY? I hope it escaped and is out exploring the world now. Don't want to see it tomorrow.

Uh, that ant is still crawling around my desk area...Why didn't you escape? WHY? Day 3...that ant is still crawling around the carpet... I've officially named it "Silly". Day 5, I think it's the same ant, it's still crawling around...

Saw this huge pillbug flipped over and I found it so gross. Didn't want to help it flip over. After a bit, it got up somehow and flipped over again so I decided to help. It was gross but felt happy helping it haha! I can save you this time but I can't save you every time. Good luck!

Manager asked me to play some background music because the chef was asking for it. I was like ? What is background music? Like music with no singing? She couldn't explain to me. If so, uh, it's not my thing, especially when I'm working. It's gonna make me so sleepy... She wants me to play them during the demos...what if the clients fall asleep on their food LOL! I'll ask the chef about it.

China is building a smog-eating 'forest city' filled with tree-covered skyscrapers
I think it's a great idea and looks pretty cool. I do have questions though, with so much trees will there be like tons of bugs that can go into the building? Do those tree ever grow bigger, if so, would it be too heavy for the building to handle. I'm sure they thought about all these before designing and building. I do hope it does help with the smog.

Boy Leaves Heartbreaking Note on Toy Panda After His Mom Couldn't Afford It
Awwww.

Chilling Reincarnation Stories: Meet 3 Children Who Lived Before
Reading this was very interesting. I kind of want to know my past life too but at the same time I'm afraid to know what my past life was like. What if I was a horrible person? So if you have a smart toddler in the future, it may mean s/he remembers about their past life.

Can You Spot The Hilarious Problem With This Wedding RSVP Card?
LOL, reading the invite made me laugh.

Random moment, song from "Legal Mavericks", I like Vincent Wong! I thought lyric videos only have lyrics but this one have scenes from the drama...?
王浩信 Vincent - 心眼
"凡人用雙眼如何望見 心眼無從受騙
真相困於光源背面
別怕有些眼淚 模糊視線
誰仰望名利致敬 誰蒙住眼找公平
沒絕對黑白事情 其中界線不清
全憑自信在感應
漆黑世界似無語 其實有聲
圍城內失散仍能遇見 感覺原來未變
還有力愛苦也是甜"

Depression + Mental Health

Depression and mental health seems to be big problems nowadays. Problems we need to pay more attention to. I read about them everywhere and I hear stories from people about it. I even know people with those problems. I don't think I have depression, I think I was just unhappy. If I did, I'll probably be unhappy everyday but I'm not.

As we get older, different life situations hit us along the way and it's just too stressful sometimes. I guess most people don't know how to de-stress themselves and that's when problems start. The best way for me is to get the problem outta me, either by typing it out, talking it out with family/friends or both. Just don't keep all the problems inside. A lot of people don't like to share their problems because they are afraid of how others will think about them. Afraid that people will talk about them. Honestly, who cares what other people say/think and how much can we really care? Our own health is the most important thing, care about ourself first before caring about what others think of us. Certain people are there to help us and not to make things worse for us (find good family/friends, not just anyone). Everything is in our own hands, we get to choose to live happily or miserably.

So I was out with a friend and I told her how I felt depress and sometimes people give me negative energy blah blah. Then she told me all these sad stories (more negative stories) that made me think ok, my stuff aren't too bad compared to these... I do have other problems going on in my life but I won't share them. She told me how one of her boyfriend's friend actually jumped off a bridge few weeks ago. =( I'm just curious why people choose to jump off bridges and it's always that same bridge? She even said that bridge is so well known for suicide they even put up a yellow helpline phone there...

The reason why he jumped was because of financial issue. Few years ago I heard another guy from our high school also jumped down a bridge, from what I heard, it was also about financial issues?

Financial problem seems to be pretty big these days. I guess because people aren't getting paid much but everything else is increasing. It's much harder to make a living now, some people can't even buy a place to live, it's crazy.

My friend said she doesn't understand why her boyfriend and other friends didn't see the red flag. That guy was working like 2-3 jobs and he was so tired that he would like pass out when he hang out with friends. Well, I guess sometimes it's hard to see certain "red flags", I mean a lot of people work a few different jobs for different reasons. People won't realize something serious until something bad actually happens (last few awkward messages).

Plus, there are only so much that we can do to help. The best thing I would suggest is to talk with them or hang out with them. Say positive things and help them if you can. If you can't help tell them to find (professional) help. I actually don't know what I can do to help certain people too. I have said everything that I can think of.

Anyways, I don't think suicide is a good way to deal with things. I do understand that people wouldn't need to go through all these problems anymore after they take their life but I think that is somewhat selfish. Did they think about how their family would feel? Did they think about how their problems will be passed onto their family now? Oh well, everyone has the right to make their own decisions in life.

Random moment, I wasn't sure what song but then I heard the song name at work, I knew it's this one. Life sucks and it's hard sometimes but like the song name, life is worth living. Live for important people, the ones you love. Hang in there and don't give in.
Justin Bieber - Life Is Worth Living
"Ended up on a crossroad
Try to figure out which way to go
It's like you're stuck on a treadmill
Running in the same place
You got your hazard lights on now
Hoping that somebody would slow down
Praying for a miracle
Who'll show you grace?
Life is worth living, so live another day
The meaning of forgiveness
People make mistakes, doesn't mean you have to give in
Life is worth living again
I ain't perfect, won't deny
So I'm working on a better me"

MYST Review

My friend saw pictures of their food on Insta or somewhere and she wanted to try so we went. It's about 30 minutes walk from Metrotown, friendly advice, take the bus (#106), especially when it's crazy sunny and hot. It's a Taiwanese bubble tea type of restaurant. The restaurant was quite big and looks "grand ish", I guess because it's still new. The music in the washroom was pretty loud, very interesting (It was playing a song that kept repeating "over you" when I was in there...). When we got there, it was quite busy but there were still lots of seats.

Normally I love to order the deep fried salty peppery chicken when I go to Taiwanese restaurants but it's time for a change. I ordered the house special stir-fry chicken sliced noodle ($11.50, you can choose either beef, goat, pork or chicken) and my friend ordered the Myst beef noodle soup ($10.25).

I haven't had stir-fry beef noodle for so long and this totally had that flavour, yummy. The Chinese name said sliced noodle with a knife, to me it didn't look like that type of noodle. The noodle thickness all looked the same and quite long too, unless if they used a machine or the chef is that skilled. I actually prefer their noodle over the tradition flat rice noodle. It was thicker so there were some texture to the noodle. The chicken was very tender, the dish came with tons of onions and green onions as well which I don't eat.

My friend said their beef noodle was pretty good, the flavour was good. I tried the noodle, it was alright and it did have the beef noodle taste. It wasn't spicy from what I tried but the older lady at the other table was telling the waitress that it was too spicy. Normally, I don't eat beef but their beef was not bad. It was very soft, almost a melt in your mouth feeling. The noodle came with lots of onions and green onions as well but my friend loves them.

Service was good, nothing bad or overly good.

I would come again if friends want to but it's quite far from home and I prefer trying new restaurants. I did want to try their 2 coloured drinks but didn't want to order so much stuff and I normally don't order drinks when I eat out. Water is good for you. =)

Icy Bar Review

I was looking around online to see what dessert places are there to try and I found Icy Bar. I decided to go try with a friend. Just a heads up about the parking (Richmond location), the whole mall has reserved parking for certain stores. If you come during daytime, try to park in the "reserved icy bar" ones, only like 3 of them. I heard there are customer parking by the side of the mall but I never checked. If you come at night, you can pretty much park anywhere because most of the stores are closed. Don't think people really care though even during the day. It's not like they are going to ask you to move your car if you aren't going into their store.

Service, I thought we just order at the cashier like most of the dessert places nowadays but the server actually comes to you. However, we waited for a bit but no-one came so I decided to go to the cashier. When I got there, the guy said hi but he said it to the person at the door and asked her how many people. Uh, ok... I guess I'm invisible? When I ordered he was like where are you sitting? I'm like there (uh...ok, the place isn't that big...). He said oh, I didn't see you guys (thanks...).

They have desserts like shaved ice, tofu pudding, other puddings, hot/cold sweet soup, and drinks. I was there mainly for their crepe cakes. I 've always wanted to make it myself but I want to try what the texture/flavour is like first.

They do have a minimum charge of $4 per person and we planned to only get the crepe cake to share which was $8 so my friend ordered a take out sweet soup for like $6.45(?). Not sure what sweet soup my friend got but we ordered the green tea flavoured cake. They have different flavours, mango, chocolate and green tea (at least it said asked server what daily flavour is or something). The crepe cake isn't very big or tall, a bit on a pricy side. However, I know it's not easy to make crepe cakes. You have to bake each layer and then pile one after another, it takes time. The cake was creamy and soft, it had a good green tea flavour which I like. The red beans on the side was not overly sweet. I would love to try their other flavours but it does cost a bit for a slice of cake.

My friend waited a bit for her sweet soup take out but I guess it's kind of made to order thing? No clue. we were chatting so it's ok. I asked her afterwards if it was good, she said yea, not bad, it's not too sweet which I like.

I guess I would come back again? I want to try their pancakes but I think it's just whipping cream and whatever filling you choose?

Bee Blu Blu Bee

Last week? I can't sleep for the past 2 days, maybe because it's getting hot? Maybe because I didn't exercise for the last 2 days? Maybe because I took an hour nap (I hardly nap)? Maybe because I drank that green tea BBT? Maybe all of the above? Anyways, second night, I was thinking of "that person", just when I felt sad and about to tear, I hold it. I told myself, Cin, don't ever drop a tear for that person again! Save those tears for something happy (happy tears) that will happen soon.

Oh, Cincin and uniforms... =) Went to London Drugs pharmacy and I couldn't find what I was looking for so I decided to go to the counter. Saw someone do that before me and I saw another pharmacist there. I was waiting in line and I saw him look at me but I still don't see anyone coming then he came. I asked him about the thing I was looking for and I guess he is a new pharmacist, he wasn't sure what it is and asked me what it is for. Then he was checking inventory for me and he asked this older pharmacist and he said that is an old medication and the old pharmacist started to help me but that guy came out too. I said thanks afterwards and I looked at him but he didn't look. I was mainly saying thanks to him although he didn't help much. I have no clue why I was so happy afterwards, even when I got home. It's not like we had anything, I must be bored. I actually haven't felt that way before for a stranger. Why didn't I check his name tag? Why didn't I check if he has a ring on lol! I'm sure he is taken since he looks ok ish. Oh well, if we have fate, we will see again inside London Drugs and outside London Drugs haha! Whatever.

I was taking the skytrain and there were 2 old couples that weren't sitting together. When there were 2 empty seats, the man asked the woman if she wants to sit together. The woman moved to the spot and she said to the man come over my little cupcake. Awww, so cute. It actually made me put a smile on my face.

I was driving to work, the roads were empty, why can't we have Monday off too... =( Manager is back from her vacation yay! But that means we have demos again... "Clean up, clean up, everybody clean up"

I'm feeling fine after "What Happened" post and went out with friends after that day. I think because I didn't go out for few weeks and had stuff all bottled up inside so I felt sad and lonely. I have been looking around volunteering and some classes. There is a particular place I'm planning to volunteer at but not 100% sure yet. A friend goes there so might go with him next time and see how it is. Classes, for sure taking aerial yoga, at least one. I've always wanted to try but never did, finally found someone to try with me. =) I was also looking at fashion design but I don't want a full degree, I just want one class kind of thing. Where can I find that? I really want to make my own brand, "Oh So Cindy" for myself to wear. =)

While people are having a great life, I'm here suffering... I have tons of problems going on in my life that I don't want to sure details on. I'm actually very tired of it! No-one will understand how I feel, except my family. It's a problem that keeps happening non stop. One moment it's all good and then it turns all bad again. I don't know what to say or do to fix the problem anymore. I try so hard to stay positive but it's so hard! My family and I will probably go insane soon too. =( Why are there so much problems in my life!? Can "天" just let me be happy for the rest of my life for once? I'm not asking for a lot am I? If I am, TOO BAD! I deserve to be happy! "天" go torture people that are evil and mean and stop torturing me!

The second Halloween episode of "Pretty Little Liars" is so creepy but I guess that's why the series is good. >< Some lines. "Everyone has a life that no one knows about." "Just because someone hurt us once, doesn’t mean we have to permanently delete them from our phone book. Things change, people grow."

"People show up in your dream because you want something from them" - Really? What did I want from that person then?

"Pretending not to love you is the hardest thing I’ve ever done." "Let things play out the way they are meant to be."

15 signs you are a highly sensitive person
Yup, I'm highly sensitive.

This Bride Asked Her Bridesmaids To Pay For Her $10,500 Dress
That's why I always say...if you don't have enough money, don't get married or don't make it so grand (including buying a damn expensive dress that you are gonna wear once, unless if you want to wear it more than once...). This just reminds me of Low B stating how much her close friend should give her. What would you do? "To bail on the wedding, or even the friendship?"

Random moment, found this song when I was looking around YouTube, I like it.

鄭欣宜-無表面傷痕
"願那天純屬漫長惡夢 清醒後你我便不痛


偏偏你友善面容 隨刀鋒跌進這裂縫
話我知全部是場惡夢 那些偏激跟衝動
我早捐出所有愛 怎麼你喊著說不用
跪到被旁人罵蠢 現在回望還是不懂
遺下多虛假的笑容
誰令我一生的快感 出於痛

日子久了我便痊癒
不過總會傳來陣痛 明明沒有事
我已經 活得比誰也好 痛著拾回我
回望溫馨的過去 重門卻上鎖

願那天純屬漫長惡夢 清醒後會繼續相信

我都犧牲所有了 怎麼你留著卻不用

誰人能令到我這一生的快感 出於痛"