Bye 2017 Hello 2018

2017 wasn't a great year, I don't remember when I've ever had a great year, do you? Maybe when I was a little girl and didn't need to care about anything? Lots of stuff happened in 2017. If you have been reading then you should know, not gonna repeat myself. If not, you can read all 200 something posts on your new year weekend lol. 

I had quite a few first times in 2017. All those events, cats, charity run, other bad stuff, etc.

Had some unhappy moments in 2017 and I did learn a lot. I learned not to trust people so easily and nothing lasts forever. I learned how some people can change so fast, how cruel/ heartless some people can be and how some people will be by my side no matter what. Thank you to the people that have been there for me all along! Thank you to the people that actually read my boring stories! Good bye 2017!

Hello 2018! I hope you will treat me really 8well. I normally don't do new years resolutions but let's try and see how much I can complete by end of 2018.

In random order.

• Work hard for my super duper early retirement in 9 years
• Do more charitable events, not just those game events, more like environmental clean up or something that actually help people
• Keep doing my exercise... still working on my splits, somewhat close, getting lazy
• Keep waiting for prince charming to save me from the evil "step mother" (My Cinderella Story)
• Find more creative courses, it's so hard to find them here...
• Try to become an even better person
• Meet more people and become more and more confident, hopefully not overly confident
• Try to eat less junk food, trying but I love eating
• Lose 5lbs, this is gonna be hard, don't think it will happen
• Must go on vacation, anywhere, who wants to go with me?
• Stop spending so much money on useless stuff, this is hard too
• Play with little princess everyday, sometimes I get lazy and don't play with her, not good!
• Spend more time with the fam
• Keep blogging and pouring all my feelings out
• Learn to let things go, I feel like I'm still holding onto something that I shouldn't be holding onto...

Typed in November

Out of the blue, woot! Let's celebrate New Year with one of my favourite song of the year haha! Remix version. =) There are so much remix versions but I always listen to this one at work. My favourite purple and red. I don't hear this song as much, I guess like everything else, it fades after awhile.
Charlie Puth - "Attention" (David Guetta Remix)
"You just want attention, you don't want my heart"

Crab Park Chowdery Review II

Yes, I'm here again. My friend wanted to try so I went again.

Service was good, same as last time but last time they didn't bring the food over to us. It was ready after we paid so we grabbed it ourselves.

I ordered the Manhattan clam chowder with bread bowl ($11) and my friend got the New England clam chowder in a cup ($12.50).

The names are different but they look the same... New England was supposed to be white. Maybe they couldn't hear when we ordered?

Anyways, taste good but friend thought it was on the saltier side. I thought it was ok with the bread. More stuff than can soup but pretty much like what you get from a can. I thought the tomatoe one was better (that I had last time).

I don't think I would go anymore, just because it's the same thing every time. I think I should try other stuff. If they have something new, I would go try. I want to try their sandwiches but it's quite expensive. I'm very poor.

Rant XVI

WOW! I just had a b**** called in. She said she picked up a magazine and it's all in Chinese and how she lives in South Richmond and something percent of the people here are Chinese and only like 3% of them only know English. She asked what do we sell. I told her and she said "ok because something percentage of the people in this area only make $40,000 or less. Just want to let you guys know you are wasting money on these. I have talked to the publisher but they didn't do anything about it". I was thinking WTF is wrong with you? I wouldn't care about you too if I were them because obviously something is wrong with you.

I think she is a racist or something! I wanted to say yea, you know what, I'm Chinese too. Yes, I know there are a lot of Chinese living in Canada nowadays and most don't know English. If you are unhappy about it then move to another country with no Asian! Good luck in finding such a place! Sometimes they make me unhappy too but that's life, suck it up. Don't call different companies that put ads on that magazine and rant! I guess she has nothing better to do after eating! Maybe go take a crap after you eat, maybe you will feel better?

And lady, did you not know some Chinese have a lot of money nowadays? If companies don't put ads on Chinese magazines, they won't know our stuff. If that magazine is all in Chinese then don't f***ing pick one up! I wanted to say to her, you know what you are wasting my precious time too, B****!

I feel like I work at a call center, get a life people!

People are just OMG! They sound so nice on the phone and e-mail but in person they don't give me a very nice vibe. One of her friend asked if I can arrange a taxi for her. I said "sure", don't even think she said thank you. Who do you think I am? And who do you think you are!? Just because of my position you are treating me with no manners? They don't smile either so I won't waste my smile on them.

Good, I'm not the only one that dislike them. Manager too, she said they were saying they didn't receive any e-mails on this class, don't even know what it's about, don't know why they are here. Like seriously? You signed up for it yourself and you don't know what we do. Go to hell!

What Are Your Age Limit?

I decided to type about age topic because someone I know is dating a guy that is 7 years younger than her. I'm happy for her and she said she doesn't plan to marry anyways. I'm not against it or anything but thought wow. I know age or other things doesn't matter at all if they like each other.

I'm just a bit more traditional so I prefer someone older, I don't think I can date someone that is 7 years younger. My max age limits are 5 years older and never younger but I'll still be ok with one year younger (maybe). My 5 year older limit can be more than 5 as long as he doesn't look like an uncle.

I can't really imagine being with someone that is 7 years younger... She said he is the mature type so I guess it's ok? I saw his picture he doesnt look 7 years younger, similar to her age. I guess as long as that person matches you, it's fine. I mean tons of younger guys go for older gals. They are happy. Maybe I should change my limits too, if a young guy goes for me then I'll try it? I mean I look ok young, younger guys might think I'm their age?

I guess nothing matters as long as both have feelings for each other. If there are no feelings, it can't happen. Well, it can but it will take time.

To me I'll always have some kind of fear if I'm with someone that is much younger. He may leave me for someone younger. I might look like his sister or mother years later. Will my/his parents approve?

I know that same kind of fears can happen when you date people at any age but I don't know...

I told a friend about it and she said "well, I know they always say that age and race doesn't matter in a relationship as long as two people are willing to make it work. But part of us are a little selfish because we will always wonder what other people think of us. No one likes to be judged".

True, I feel like people will gossip. But there is nothing much we can do about that. As long as they are happy, who cares what other people think right?

Life is short. If you have feelings for each other, go for it! Worry later. Opportunities don't happen all the time, unless if you are that lucky.

Do you have any age limits?

Cartems Donuterie Review

I wanted to try this last time but I ran out of time so decided to go this time since we were close by. When we got there it was super busy. Not much seats in there so we had to take out.

Service was good, some guy behind me tried to order but the server guy asked if I'm helped yet. So he helped me first. But the cashier girl, I think she saw me not tipping, she didn't even say thanks after. I was getting take out, not eating in so no need to tip...

Anyways, we both got the London fog ($3.75? I actually didn't look at the price), no, not the drink.

I thought it was so good! (I usually eat Superstore donuts...sorry that's how poor I am. $2 for 12 donuts, the price of one Cartems, I can get a pack LOL! Me and my "C lai" style). It was so soft. The taste was nice, I think it had cinnamon in it. It also had filling inside, I believe it's London fog filling, very creamy but couldn't tell the London fog taste too much. I think I should order a London fog next time and see what it actually taste like. The icing drizzle on top was good too, I thought it tasted better with the icing. I love sweets. The donut wasn't too sweet to me, it had a sweeter taste when you eat the icing part.

Yes, I would come back again to try other donuts, probably their season special ones. I wanted to try the earl grey one but it was just a donut, no filling. I like donuts with filling, make more!

Not Sure How I Feel III

So the last lady started working, I don't know. She still doesn't give me a very good vibe. Maybe because I haven't talked to her? I don't talk to new people easily, I need to feel like they are good people then I'll talk more, I need that trust. She didn't give me that potential manager feeling when she came for her interview. 

Manager asked me to go upstairs and when that lady was talking she didn't look at me once. It's like I'm not there. HELLO!? I hope she isn't racist because I'm Chinese.

I don't know, I just hope my feelings are wrong because I have to face her for a LONG time. How I wish manager isn't retiring. Gonna miss her so much! Gonna get bullied...*sniff sniff*

Can prince charming save me yet? *sniff sniff*

The dishes...remember manager told me not to help out. I didn't, I didn't even go into the kitchen. I don't even want to check if those dishes, trays etc are clean. I'm too crazy, if I see one dirty spot I'll go and wash it. Sometimes I feel lazy but I just can't stand those stuff being dirty, I don't want to die from those yet. I'm gonna have so much fun cleaning when manager goes on vacation...


So funny, manager said that lady wants to eat everything. She keeps asking manager if she can eat this and that and manager said "no, it's for the training". I can totally imagine when manager retires she will just take all the demo food home. I won't even get my ham. *sniff sniff* I like to use that ham to make my yummy soup. Oh well...

I also feel like she is gonna leave a bunch of work for me to do because after demo cleaning in the morning, she never came back down to do the laundry. Manager did it herself... I would help manager but she told me to stay at my desk unless if she asks me to help. I guess so manager will know what she does and doesn't do? The lady went out for a bit, I wanted to ask manager what she thinks of the lady but I didn't.

The warehouse manager said "she just started working for like 3 days and she is leaving early", a few minutes earlier. I just shrug. I'm sure she will always leave early when manager actually retires... I would leave early too if I can but some bastards like to call one minute before we close.

I talked to the lady a bit but just normal how are you kind of thing. She sounds nice when she talks but I don't know... I need to keep observing.

Meat and Bread Review

I've always wanted to try this place, I used to pass by it a lot when I go downtown. Finally get to try it. It's not too big in there and it got super busy after awhile.

Comment on the restaurant, normally the menu would be placed at a more visible area on the wall but it was at the corner. Maybe we were just both blind? Some spots at their restaurants were "reserved" but that is because water were dripping down from the ceiling. Maybe they tried fixing it but not fixable?

Service was good, nice lady. She had to explain to us about picking what we want from the menu and then go back to her to pay. When my friend told this guy what she wants she said it's her first time here and the man asked "first time in Canada?". My friend said "no, this place". It's funny but at the same time uh...just because we are Chinese? Yea...

Any who, I ordered the buffalo chicken ($9.50) and friend got the porchetta ($9.50) and a coke drink ($3 something) that was packaged in a different style. I actually really like those drink bottles, I wonder if you get to keep them. I would if I could. I was gonna try the orange one but then I don't want to spend that much money.

The look was not bad, it was placed on a wooden cutting broad like thing.

Taste, I totally forgot it was buffalo chicken because it wasn't even spicy until I dipped it in the sauce. The chicken felt like pull pork. I think I was expecting more like chicken thigh type of chicken, I believe they made it from chicken breast. The slaw is like normal slaw and the buttermilk sauce reminds me of McChicken sauce. The taste was not bad but I like it better with the buffalo sauce. I wish they just drizzled it inside the bun so I don't have to dip the sauce each time. Maybe some people can't eat spicy? But if they can't they wouldn't order buffalo chicken right? The bun was not bad, crunchy outside. The portion was not bad, you will get full.

My friend thought the bun was hard at first but she said it's crunchy after. She said it wasn't as good as she thought.

Would I come back again? Um...I don't think I will, it didn't give me that OMG feeling. But it's not a bad place to try. It may be your thing. I just have so much more places to try.

Bee Blu Bee Bee Blu

Holy cow, I forgot the mall hours are different in December. My boss called me and asked where I am. I was still home and got up not long ago. I had to speed to get here. Good thing not much cars and good thing I didn't run that orange light, there was a police car on the other side. My boss said that was fast...yea I speed... Maybe I shouldn't work in December next year. Hate working so early. Who goes to the mall at 9:30 anyways?

How many times did I say this? I like my manager. She always treats me like a little girl. She gave me this food gift set that the company is supposed to give out to dealers. She said "here you go, thank you for all your help and so I don't have to give one to the new girl tomorrow, if the guys said they are missing one then too bad", the new lady left so manager decided to give it to me without her knowing. =) Thank you manager for everything too! <3

Lol, the chef gave me a hug, he is so tall, I had to lift my head up. I wonder what it would be like if I was with Mr. 6"2. Very interesting.

Went to DQ and the guy that works there reminds me of "that person" a bit. I don't know why but every time when I'm ok with the whole thing, all these stuff starts reminding me of him again. I see his name in dramas, see people that makes me think of him, and so on... What is "天" trying to do to me? Don't worry, I'm really ok.

Went to a restaurant and got a table near this girl who was sitting on the couch. She didn't move her feet a bit and all I was thinking about was I hope I don't hit her leg. Like F! Why am I so nice to b****es like that? People nowadays are getting worse and worse. Maybe their parents didn't teach them. And some b**** like that has a boyfriend? Seriously I think all guys are blind nowadays. And "天" is blind too! =(

I won't be posting on 25th and 26th because I'm off. Will be back on 27th. Merry Christmas to the people that read my boring stories! =) I hope Santa will give you what you want. I will also be gone on the 1st, back on 2nd. So Happy New Year to you all as well. =) May 2018 treat you well, I do hope it will treat me well.

Out of the blue, it's Vincent. I haven't finished watching the drama but from my view, when you can't get something that you want/like, it's always more memorable... When I listened to this carefully, it makes me wanna cry...
王浩信/HANA菊梓喬 - 欲言又止
"明明是認真想見你 為了旁觀者變成避忌 
要說的 或者不應該說起 
明明是願伸手抱你 沒有踏前一步便放棄
仰望崇拜你 完美得太離地
時常欲言又止 回復淡然日子 也許相處更容易
幻想開口講暗示 當真的對著時
你為何從未講我知
逃避欲言又止 旁白突然靜止 放手比愛你輕易
曾懷著樂觀的勇氣 但我們的戀愛難順利
能同步 甚麼令人想退避
全明白是天空再美 但我沒能把星光送你
我妒忌 誰人在與你一起
卻無能為力說心事
放手比固執輕易
太多傷心的故事 想開口已太遲
可知我為誰長留位置 似是盡頭原來未開始"

"I’m Dying But I Want to Be in Love"

Yes, I cried like crazy typing this...

When I saw the title "I’m Dying But I Want to Be in Love" I'm like hm...sounds like me. No, I'm not dying (you will still have to read my boring stories for a long long time) but when I was sick few years ago. Back then I didn't think about any guys, no-one caught my attention plus I made a promise. I think my family and sickness was enough for me to think of. No time for guys.

I understand how she feels. Still young and haven't completed much in her life like other normal people. It's like me, how I said "天" can take my life after 88 years old or older when I'm done everything that I want to do in life. However, life is unfair and doesn't go the way we want it to. "天" can take our lives any time it wants. It's not something we can control.

Who doesn't want to leave this world with no regrets? Who doesn't want to find someone they love and that person loves them too? Who doesn't want to grow old and live happily? Who doesn't want someone special by their side when they leave this world?

The girl said "I want to believe there’s someone out there who I could not only open up to about my health but who would accept and love me in spite of it". That's something I always have on my mind too. Will anyone accept the fact that I was sick before? That damn scar that would never go away? Something that will never be a part of me anymore? Plus this new abnormal heart rhythm crap that the doctor said it sounds fine during my last check up but I'm not 100% sure. I always ask did I do something wrong and "天" wants to torture me? I'm not a great person but I don't think I'm that horrible... I guess it's true, nice people die faster... Time to be a b****?

She also said "But that feels like a fairy tale...I would be wracked with guilt at the idea of even asking someone to get pulled into this terrifying, morbid mess. So, Polly, do I keep chasing the fairy tale? Do I give up entirely?". I thought of that too, being a burden and make someone go through "pain" with me. I'm not saying I'll get sick again but then life is uncertain. Anything can happen at any time.

I guess I'm not alone.

And I want to say one thing to her. Yes, I believe you will find that person who will accept every good and bad thing about you. Someone that will stay by your side until the last day. If you don't, it's ok. You still have other people by your side and you should be happy that you were in love at least once. They may not be the best relationships but better than nothing. Not everyone in this world gets that chance. Have a little faith although I know it seems impossible. =)

Out of the blue, just felt like throwing this Christmas song on here. I hear this song at the mall and at work, pretty much everywhere every single year. Then my friend reminded me that it sounds like us. 
Wham! - Last Christmas 
My version
"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day next week you gave threw it away"
Do you recognize me?

Well, it's been a year 2 months
It doesn't surprise me (If that day ever happens again, it doesn't surprise me either, I didn't recognize him last time until after a bit LOL!)

With a note long a** message saying, "I love you, " my deep feelings I meant it (all)
Now, I know what a fool I've been

A crowded room, friends coworkers and chef with tired eyes 

I'm (not) hiding from you, and your soul of ice
My god, I thought you were someone to rely on (but you are not)

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart" 

For her, because I somewhat had someone last year and she has someone this year.

"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special" (hopefully this would happen to me next year. Life is short, it's about time to throw myself out there like there is no tomorrow. Let the networking begin!)

La Casa Gelato Review

We were close by to this ice cream place so decided to go try and I was super tired and really needed some sugar. They have 100 something different flavours so it was super hard to choose.

You have to pay first and they give you a token then you can get your ice cream.

I sampled death by mango which I thought it wasn't mango enough, I was expecting something really strong based on the name. I also sampled this super dark purple one, something nerds (the candy I guess?), I didn't like it, tasted weird to me. The colour purple (more like pink) attracted me, it looked like halo halo but it wasn't.

I ended up getting black currant sorbet (1 scoop $5.50). I thought it would be more safe. I like black currant. It had a tangy taste to it which I didn't expect. I thought it would be a sweet black currant flavour. It was still good. The cone on the other hand, I thought it had a strange taste to me but I can't describe. It was really crunchy though.

No, don't think I would come back again. I think I've try better ice cream than this. I'll go try other ice cream places.

Long Saturday

Went to watch Disney on Ice. It's my first time watching it and I'm a crazy Disney person. One reason I don't watch it's because human version always look a bit "off" compared to the animated version. The animated versions are cuter. My friend wanted to go watch so I decided to go. I liked the title/theme, "Follow Your Heart".

Some of the characters were really cute, I love Mickey, Minnie, Cinderella, and the 7 Dwarfs. On the other hand, all the finding Dory characters were a bit off. Their human heads were sticking out, I think a mascot version would be better, They did make me laugh because it looked a bit awkward.

It was fun but I think it's a one time thing for me. I may take my kids there one day if they want to. I'll wait till then.

After that we went to a different event, pub night. I normally wouldn't go because I don't drink and I don't party, yes, I'm just that boring... I went because friend's boyfriend paid for us and it's a place where I can meet people.

First of all, let me comment on Boston Pizza's food, pizza and fries can't really go wrong, that Sprite... taste like tap water! Gross!

Anyways, I did meet a lot of people that night, some I have seen at other events but couldn't remember until I was taking the skytrain home. I did meet a few people that were really nice and they were trying to talk to me. Some didn't give me a good feeling but don't know, only said hi to them.

I think those events are great for meeting new people but I think they won't remember who they met after that night. It was dark, loud and people are drinking non stop.

I don't think I would go to another one of those pub events, not my thing, same with clubbing... I think I'm listed under "a bit too good" list. I can be wild but not infront of strangers. I'll just stick to the more active type of events.

Well, that's one of my long Saturdays.

Old Xian's Food Review

My friend suggested to come here so we did. It's an Asian noodle place. Not too big in there but it's ok.

Service was good, the lady was really nice but she spoke Mandarin.

I ordered the spicy and sour pork noodle in soup ($9.50) and my friends ordered some kind of beef noodle in soup and soupless version.

When my noodle came I smelled this strong sour smell and it was so red (looked really spicy). But when I tried it, it's not overly sour or spicy which I like. The spicy just gave it a little kick, nothing mouth burning. It was well flavoured to me. The noodle soaked up enough of the soup flavour which was good. The veggie and meat had enough flavour too. The noodle was very thick in width and very long that I couldn't find an end to it. At first the noodle looked very floury/ doughy but it was ok to me. It wasn't really chewy but ok.

 

My friends thought it was not as flavoured and the noodle were floury.

I thought the portions were quite good and I guess you get full easily from the noodle so it was good for the price.

Yea, I think I would come again, it's pretty good but my tummy was killing me afterwards... Not sure if it's because it was sour and spicy? Or I just ate too much stuff in such a short time, I had dessert before dinner haha.

Bee Blu Blu Blu Bee

Oh wow, my boss actually said "you are a sweet heart" to me. I've never heard that from him before. He said that because he asked me to do specific reports first and I finished them super fast and put them on his desk. It was quite stressful, he gave me such a short time frame for each. Was he testing me?

I think I'm kind of back to my old self now? The little happy clam that I used to be. Yes, I still talk about "that person" but in a more hating way now (to friends not really on here). For me, to completely forget someone I need to go the "hate way". I just need to find bad stuff about them and make myself dislike them for what they did. Do I actually hate or just saying so I'll forget?

I feel like I do more research nowadays compared to when I was in school. But I'm doing research on things I like and want to know more about. Yea, been very busy researching for my next trip, haven't been typing much posts but my drafts should last for a while.

This Is Why You Shouldn't Rely On Physical Attraction When Dating
I thought about how important physical attraction is too. (My stories from before) I actually thought about it but I don't think I can do it, sorry. >< I can lie to myself but I can't lie to my heart. Online says people will like someone they are not physically attracted to as time goes by. Yes, how long does that take? And that person would need to have something else that makes me admire him (Some talents? Kindness? Personality?). I also thought that in the long run, I may not be happy and it's gonna have a bad ending no matter what. 

When I go out I look at other couples, they look like they match each other, and the guy is usually taller too. Whatever, I'm not even trying to find someone now, just going out meeting new people and see who would fall from the sky like magic. I'm giving up because the ones I'm interested are either taken, not looking at the moment or broke up not long ago. I guess all the right guys are gone already... It's just so sad... Not meant to be then it's not meant to be...

Out of the blue, I was watching "Ages Apart", I like the part where Ali was walking behind Moses and she was playing with her shadow and using it to "hold" Moses' hand. And I like this song that was playing in the background, the lyrics caught my attention. I also like how he got her the bag she likes but couldn't get, so sweet. =)
吳若希 Jinny - 別再記起
"誰會徹底真了解我 除非他會跟我
完全換轉身份去過 尋常歡笑或折磨
誰會全力疼惜欣賞我
 如果得知面具裡邊的我太自我 
不安更會犯錯 失去可比得到多 
人面全非 今天需要真正交給自己有個限期
遺憾要得處理 往昔拋棄 痛傷可以漸遠離 
別再記起 如何屈膝低谷 世界無視我卑微
別再記起 從前不知天高愛到忘掉了抽離
誰人終點始終挽手一起
誰會明白當我傷過 仍可淺笑的我
還曾力竭聲嘶喊破 如何敢再墮愛河
其中許多得失 現在回望似時間遊戲
徘徊兜圈可跟哪位一起 能夠幸運永不捨棄 
誰人終點始終挽手一起
埋怨固執不滿足過 除非試過將感覺 身份也對調過 
或會能明白自己 很不錯"  (ARG! Blogger always mess up my colours!)

How Many Time Can You Forgive?

I finally watched "77 heartbreaks", not bad. I also watched one of their interview on this movie. They talked about what kind of stuff your partner does that you can't forgive at all (me - cheating and lying, maybe more).

I think that kind of thing happens in any kind of relationship. There are people that you love/like but there are always a lot of stuff we dislike about them too.

Lines from movie
"A notebook for the owner to find out the real self", this blog is a place to find out the real me too.

"Writing isn't the same as typing, everyone's writing is unique", I guess but typing is faster for me. I have too much stuff to do (I'm just lazy tehehe).

"I think a normal patient person is able to forgive someone for hurting them 77 times", this was the reason why there is a book with 77 blank pages only in the movie. Um...ok...really? 77 times? Is that a bit...too much? I don't think my heart can handle that. But they were saying like all the little/big things that you dislike about someone. Well, if you have 10 things that you dislike about your other half, doesn't that mean something already? Do you really need to reach 77 times to realize? I guess that's why people say "love is blind"? Well, that's just for the movie.

"Keep searching you will find what you are looking for",...sure I will... when?

"Love is a journey where you will get lost frequently", yup.

"You men always think you are generous but you are all just selfish", I'm not sure if generous was the right word for that Chinese word "偉大" but ya they are pretty selfish, at least that person was.

"Marriage is the first step to divorce",... true in a way. My aunt once said "don't ever get married. Look at your cousin, marry then divorce". Well, not all marriage end up like that... hopefully not mine, if ever.

Aww. I love the part where the mother hit the guy with a radish and said "you hurt my daughter!" How I wish someone did that for me... I wonder what my parents would do?

"I left that notebook on purpose so you can find it", aww, sound like me, that was my intention with this blog but now it's so people can see the reviews (I believe the people that read from the beginning read everything on here, not just the reviews =) ). What's the point of typing it when no-one can read it right?

How many red flags are enough to realize something is not right? How long can you stand all the little and big things that you dislike? How many more chances are you willing to give to that same person that keeps disappointing you? It's different for everyone but I guess when you like someone you want to try and make things work. Oh well... Listen to your heart and not other people. Your heart will never lie.

Out of the blue, I posted this song awhile ago, re-posting because it's from this movie. 

蔡卓妍 Charlene Choi & 周柏豪 Pakho Chau《請你愛我》

Zenstone Review

I was doing research and I found this place. When I was looking at the pictures I remember one of my friend posted something similar. (Their waffles with fillings) So I decided to go try.

I was pissed off about something that day and I can't even rant on my blog so I had to go get dessert. I was gonna come here anyways without getting pissed off.

It's a small and quiet café, I think it's good for "studying" and chatting with friends. I can never study in cafes, I start listening to people's stories LOL!

Service was ok, I asked for my receipt, the girl said it's still printing, she will give it to me when my thing is ready. When I got my thing she didn't give me my receipt and I didn't ask about it. I guess people don't ask for receipts? I do so I can keep track when I pay my bills.

Anyways, I got the matcha egg ($8.75). It looked really pretty but the portion was quite small.

Not sure what the matcha drink in the clear pink cup is for. To pour in the thing or just drink it directly? I just dumped it in. I think it would be nice if it's a cream/sauce and not watery. The matcha was bitter on its own but when combined with the ice cream and cream, it's not bad.

 

The dessert had a hot and cold feeling. I think the waffle were hot and the ice cream were cold. The waffles are ok. Chewy ish and doesn't have that strong butter taste that I get from most waffle place. I like how their waffles have filling. The filling wasn't bitter and it wasn't that sweet. I've never tried this matcha spread from Korea but I wonder if the filling was from that. It was creamy but the matcha wasn't that strong.

Overall not bad, but I don't think I'll come again. Well, I may come back again to try their other waffles with filling. It's considered pricey for a tiny thing but it makes a good IG picture.

Gamers

I was listening to this TV show that my parents were watching. This time it's about teenagers that game. It talked about how they play for hours (yea, like 19+ hours). And how parents don't support them but support when the kids play as professional. (Is it because their kids are making money from it? If they don't make money from it, will they still support?) The mom said "they don't listen, so the only way is to support them", hm...I guess?

One gamer said he really like how people praise how good he is when he streams his game. (Who doesn't like to be praised?) Then some gamer said they had to quit professional gaming because later on when they stop playing it's hard to find a job because they won't have other experiences. (I agree. Well, I guess they can find game related jobs?)

I used to game when I was younger because I like the excitement (I get sweaty, nervous, and don't want to die lol). Now I just like to play kiddie games for fun. (I get arg when I don't pass my level or so close to passing) =)

I also know tons of people that game. My brother, brother's friends, a friend and that person. My brother doesn't really play much games now so that's one reason why I don't game. But when they play, they can play for many hours and go crazy. I don't know how they can stay up till like 3 am or later. Well, I think I stayed up till 3am ish before for my dramas and shows lol. But I can't always stay up so late. Plus, it's bad for your health in the long run.

Most of the time when people get older they just game less, it's not because they think gaming are for young people but they just don't have time. Life just gets a little bit crazy when you get older and you are busy everyday. I think I stopped gaming because school just got too crazy for me around grade 9 or 10. I just had to stop and focus on my education. I think I started my kiddie games after I was done uni because I had a bit more time after work.

My brother's friend's wife actually threw her husband's computer down from the second floor so he can't play anymore lol. He was jobless then and he just kept playing for hours. It seemed like he didn't even know he played for a LONG time. She gave him chances but he didn't listen so she threw the computer. *claps* I like that idea! You go girl! But if it's me I would just unplug and hide the computer, don't have to buy a new one later on. Good thing he did start looking for jobs after, at least he cares about her. Not like someone...

So my friend and her boyfriend are gamers. There was a time when she wasn't feeling very well and she even threw up. Her boyfriend just kept gaming and didn't care about her. My reaction...uh...ok...??? I wouldn't want a crazy gamer as a future partner. Some gaming is ok. But if gaming is more important than me, you can live with your game forever, good bye!

I'm not saying gaming is bad, it's a good stress reliever sometimes. I guess it's like everything else, there should be a limit?

How crazy do you game or do you even game?

Typed in September.

Good Bowl Review

Decided to give this place a try because the reviews seem ok. It's similar to those poke places but it's cooked/stir fried. There are 3 sizes to choose from, kids, regular or large. If you want all the veggie then get the large.

Service, it's good and not so good. The first girl that was helping us didn't seem very nice. She didn't smile and my friend didn't like her service. The way she talks sounds like she is so feed up with the job. Maybe because we aren't hot and good looking guys, she gave us quite little bit of food, I mean it's just veggie, how much does that cost you? Then the other girl, she was nice by the way she talks. We think she is the boss because when she cane back from a walk or something she asked if we want water. Then she said she will bring it over but the other girl we don't like brought it over.

Anyways, I got the regular size with bean spout, noodle, corn, cabbage, spinach, pineapple, green beans and chicken. Then they stir fried it. I picked the wild mix rice (healthy) and the red thai curry sauce. She added chili pepper for us.  At first I thought it was chili pepper flakes but she put a whole one in. Then I topped it with some sesame seeds.

Taste, I thought it's not bad, nicely flavoured and a little kick to it. I thought it would be really spicy but that chili pepper wasn't too spicy. The rice was chewy, more texture than normal rice. I like the noodle more than rice. I'm a noodle person.

We both thought it's good but we can probably make it ourselves for a cheaper price and we can make a big batch too. I honestly think they can give us a bit more food, it's mainly veggie... Normally I don't have to eat after eating out but I got so hungry when I got home.

And no, I won't go back again.

They look pretty much the same.

Bee Blu Bee Blu Bee

I have been quite rush in the monrings these days so I don't upload my posts right away. When I get to work I totally forgot about uploading because I was too busy. My memory isn't as good as before. =( If I forget I usually post it at a later time that same day.
  
Last week was such a long week to me. First 2 days were preparing for the party. The actual party is tiring enough. The day after party, cleaned like crazy and also had a meeting with these brand people. Then the next day I had to do sales report. I'm so tired! It's like non stop working last week. I hope this week isn't as bad please!

I've always thought I was an indecisive person (sometimes) but from all that shopping I have done for the past weeks, I don't think I am. I just realized I'm the type of person that knows what I really want and once I know, I'll stick with it and I won't change my mind. If it's not something I really want then I won't get it unless if I have no choice and need it badly (eg, wallet is completely ripped up, I had to get one asap but I don't even like it...trying to replace it now and I did). I guess that's the same thing with finding a guy for me. If I don't find someone I like I won't go for it, may have the same outcome as that wallet... And really, how often do you find something that you really like?

I was thinking if I do meet a guy again and I plan to go on vacation will I still start or wait till I'm back. The answer is yes, I would still vacation and start. I think it's a great way to test how much a guy likes me. If a guy can't even wait for few weeks then he isn't worth my precious time. I've heard stories before about long distance relationship, the guy likes the girl so much that he even moved to the country to be with her. Everyone that knew about my story were like WTF, you were on vacation, not like you won't come back. Yea, I don't understand that person either...

I decorated the Christmas tree again this year at work. Last year manager said she doesn't just let anyone decorate the tree because she wants it in a specific way and I got it. =) I actually think manager and I have similar ish taste. That's why sometimes we have similar clothing LOL!

New Zealand woman dies taking selfie in London
Hm...another one? Is that selfie really worth it? Good thing I don't selfie.

Out of the blue moment, I heard this song from an old drama. I like the lyrics and I like Sammi.
鄭秀文 - 落錯車
"漫長路途沒法跟他開花結成果
跑車中只得兩座
他的心也不許可
然後想清楚和他原本不錯
落錯車　如離開了幸福的高速路
誰又保證我明天將更好 
若你的好只講不做　但我已再無去路
才後悔發夢那代價很高
落錯車　如明天發現只愛舊懷抱
才學到　貪心的人總喜歡兜錯路
 無謂煩惱　寧願自保
當沒有跟你遇到
突然面前是愛不起的一個危機
差一些我將摔死
車離開前寧願終於不敢愛你
憑幻想總比在真實中淒美  
我沒法賭我命數"

World's Rarest Personality Type (INFJ) - Moi?

So when I saw the title of this post I was interested. The first characteristic, hey, sounds like me. Then I kept reading on, hm...sounds more and more like me... So, I guess I kind of have the rarest personality. Should I be happy or sad?

I'm a rare gem, hehe. =) Only "1-3% of the general population" have it. This personality is called "INFJ personality type", sounds fancy... "INFJ personality contains introversion, intuitive, feeling, and judging"

Onto the 15 characteristics
1. You like to write - "prefer to write than speak", yup, don't think I'm good at talking. I can talk a lot if I'm close with someone. I can shut my mouth the whole time if I want to. "They find peace in writing because it allows them the creativity to express their thoughts", yup, just look at this blog. Used to write but I type now, it's faster.

2. You overthink a lot - "they have to go over it in their head a million times before they can feel secure", a bit, but not about security, pretty much anything.

3. You have an all-or-nothing mentality - "if you are not capable of giving your absolute best, then you shouldn't start doing it in the first place", a bit as well.

4. You have trouble putting thoughts into words - "Their thoughts are often so complex and jumbled that it's hard to figure out what exactly they want to say". Oh, that is so me. One reason why I have trouble talking. Like I always have these thoughts on my mind but I can never say it or don't know how to put it in words. Yea, it's just that hard for me. The stuff I say, I think people get really confused by it. I just don't know how to word things...

One example, the chef asked if I remember this sous chef. At first I didn't then I remembered, I said "yes, that time, you guys dressed like you were going to the beach, shorts and stuff", both of them were like..................ok? I was wording it weirdly too. Seriously, no-one can remember things like I do so they won't get me. I just said "nevermind". Like who even remembers what they wore yesterday? I was reminding them about what they wore in the summer when I met that sous chef... Obviously people are thinking WTF is wrong with her. Sigh...

5. You are a loner - Hm...I do have a few good friends so I'm not a loner. I would never go and eat or drink by myself, it's a bit weird. "They choose to isolate themselves from the world in order to get in touch with their inner self and organize their thoughts", that is a bit true. Sometimes I just like to be by myself. Like at work, I like to eat by myself because if I eat with others I have to talk to them but all I want to do is sit there and eat, watch my drama and play my game. At home, I just want my own time to do my own stuff.

6. You can fit in anywhere - Really? Anywhere? Can I fit into the gap between 2 doors? =P "extremely flexible people who can fit in with just about any crowd", not really. It depends what kind of crowd, not sure on this one. I'm ok liked by people.

7. You are empathetic and sensitive - "unbelievably caring and generous people", caring, yes, generous, depends who it is. "sensitive to the feelings of others. They would never intentionally hurt someone." Totally, I'm very crazy about how others feel. There was a time I felt like I was acting really cold and mean towards someone. I felt so bad to the point that I can't stop thinking how horrible I am and if I hurt someone's feelings. I went so crazy, I couldn't even sleep. =(

8. You carefully select your friends - "They are very selective of who they surround themselves with. They only want to hang out with people who share the same values as they do and also respect their alone time.", kinda. I don't carefully select friends, I can be friends with anyone but then if I feel like that friend isn't good then I will slowly back out from that friendship.

9. You seek the truth - "fascinated by the mysteries of our universe...They could spend the entire night just watching the stars drift by. They aren't interested in ordinary things like who won this week's sports game", a bit. Sometimes I do get fascinated like a kid but not really about the universe, just anything. I could spend the night just watching the stars but I would like to stay inside. Summer, too hot and mosquitos, winter, too cold. =) Wanna watch stars with me?

10. You trust your intuition - "can easily sense when something isn't right. This is one of their most important characteristics. Not only do they have a deep sense of intuition, but they listen to their gut feelings. Their gut is almost never wrong." Totally, I know I'm pretty good at sensing things but people just don't trust me or say I'm thinking too much. I do listen to my gut, not sure if it's always right.

11. You're a hard worker - Yea, I'm ok. I wouldn't say super hard working.

12. You're conscious of the future - "They face challenges head-on and do not get discouraged when things do not go their way. Instead of getting upset, this only motivates them more". Not really, I hate challenges but it's something I cannot avoid so I will face it head-on and happily. I do get upset if things don't go my way but there is nothing I can do about it either.

13. You can solve problems - "excellent at sorting things out. They're usually right most of the time". Sometimes, not always. I can't even solve my own problems sometimes. However, I am a good person to talk to, at least people always say I'm the first person to know something...? Yes, tell me everything then you will feel better. =D

14. You're full of contradictions - "They can go from happy to sad in a heartbeat. Their emotions are constantly changing, which can make them especially difficult to keep track of". Kinda, not really. I can be super unhappy but if someone gives me chocolate or do something nice it puts a smile back on my face. Ice cream works too. =) I don't think my emotion can change in a heartbeat, that is a bit intense...

15. You can read people - "This skill comes from their deep emotional intelligence. They can see right through people's words and actions. They can identify a manipulator very quickly. They use this trait to protect themselves by removing those negative people from their lives". Yup, sometimes. That's how I know if people are good or not. While other friends don't find that stuff out until later on. It is one way to protect myself and I know if you are being fake or not. But if that person is really good at acting then it's hard to find out. When I meet new people, I'm constantly observing them. That's how I find things out.

10 Secrets of the INFJ Personality Type
These sounds like me.

INFJ Relationships
Kinda? Not really?

Well, that's all. Anyone out there with this rare personality?

Yaguchiya Ramen Review

My friend picked this place so decided to try. It's not a very big place and it was ok busy when we got there.

Service was ok, very nice.

I choose the spicy ramen ($12.75), and friend got the special ramen ($13.75).

You get to choose 2 different sizes, both of ours were medium. You also get to choose texture for the noodle (soft or hard), the flavour (mild or strong) and little oil or a lot. We both got hard, strong and little oil.

My spicy ramen, it was for sure strong flavoured, a bit on the salty side. I picked strong because I went to another ramen place and their mild was close to no taste. I didn't expect strong to be that salty but better than no taste. It wasn't that spicy, just right. I like the ramen texture, hard and somewhat chewy. The chasu was super thin and not much taste on its own. I soaked it at the bottom till the end.

I tried my friend's and the broth was salty as well, just not spicy. I was surprised the egg wasn't cut in half like other ramen places. The inside was yellow and not orange like other places.

I believe there is a discount for lunch? When I saw the bill at the counter I think it's a tiny bit cheaper than the menu, not sure.

I think I would come back, it's not bad. I kind of want to know what their mild flavour taste like now. Craving something salty while typing this.

Rant XV

To the parents out there! If you are not gonna watch your kids while you shop, don't have any! This little girl pushed this steel baby shopping cart super hard and it almost hit my dad! And my dad was trying to catch the cart so it doesn't fall but it fell. If you hurt my dad, you will pay for it big time! WATCH YOUR DAMN DAUGHTER WOMAN! A sorry is not enough!

I feel bad I couldn't do anything, it was so sudden. I was just in shock. If it was me who is about to get hit, my dad will pop out to save me or kick that damn cart away. One time he thought this car isn't gonna stop for us, he put his hand out right infront of me to stop me from going forward. Parents. <3

Arg! So pissed off! I was going to badminton and this guy at the entrance asked me something. I said "my friend is here". He asked "are you dropping in? If you are you have to pay". I said "my friend booked a court". He asked "under what name?". I said "name". He said "no". I said "it's 7 to 9pm". He said "yea, but no food inside".

You ABCDEFG!!!! He didn't let me in. That a hole! I hate him so much! He was so mean! Wanna stick that damn racquet up his! I hate people that are mean to me! He was giving me a hard time! How I wish I can just kick him in the nuts! Guys that are mean to me are bad guys! Curse him!!! I was so pissed off that I didn't even want to face him when I had to wait outside, what an a**hole! He is officially on my a**hole list. My friend asked if he is good looking. Uh, HELL NO! Even if he was he isn't after that (but really he isn't good looking at all). Jerk!

I don't want to go to that place anymore! I DO NOT want to see that jerk a** anymore! Can we please change to a new one? A place with more young people and not uncles. A place where I won't be questioned like a criminal just to go into a f***ing badminton court! That guy is seriously messed up! I still want to kick him in the nuts a million times!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

People are so ARG! You know there is something call the internet? You can find all the info you need on there. They just have to ask for addresses for our dealers. You know what? It's time for me to go home! Because of you people I have to stay an extra 5 minutes! They just wasted 5 minutes of my life! ARG! *rip paper in half*

TTOB Review

I was doing research and I saw this bubble tea/waffle place. The pictures on Yelp was really pretty but sometimes pictures and reality are so different...

When we got there, there were only one table of people and I think it's the owner's family friend or someone? One of the lady from that table handed me my waffle... Most of the people got take out. Obviously this bbt place cares about kids, they have this play area in the corner for kids.

Anyways, I got the black sesame cone ($7.95) and the princess kitten milk tea ($6.80). My friend got the okonomiyaki ($8.50) and passionfruit soda ($5.75).

The black sesame cone, it's a waffle in a cone like shape with ice cream and corn flakes at the bottom. I think it was cranberry or some kind of berry sauce, it's ok with the waffle but not really with the ice cream. The sauce was sweet with a tiny tangy taste. A lot of that sauce were on the bottom so it was super sweet, I wanted water. The black sesame ice cream was good. The waffle was a bit hard to me, normally it's crunchy outside and soft inside.

The princess kitten milk tea, the picture and the real thing looks very different. The kitten on the picture was floating, mine...a sinking kitten. My friend said it's like online dating haha! Nice one. Taste, I decided to try the foam by itself, it's salty... I think it's those "cheese" foam that is popular right now. They didn't state on the menu that it's cheese foam, you know I dislike cheese... Well, I wasn't planning to drink it myself anyways, it was for my parents. The milk tea itself is alright, like other bubble tea places.

 

Okonomiyaki, instead of what you normally eat at Japanese restaurants, it's bubble waffle style. The outside was hard but inside had a chewy texture. The topping was good but too much sauce. Friend said the passionfruit soda was good.

Service was ok, very nice.

No, I don't think I'll come again, their stuff is not bad but then I've already tried what I need to try, time to spend my money somewhere else.

One comment, friend said the plastic utensils were super hard to use to cut that okonomiyaki. The utensils were bending.

Blu Bee Bee Bee Blu

My coworker said Staples packed all 12 boxes of bottled water in 12 different boxes. I was surprised. =O Like seriously? Why do you even have to box them? They never do anyways. What a waste of boxes. You know it's all about ECO friendly nowadays?

This customer came in to drop a cheque off and he asked if I'm related to Tiffany and Valarie. I was thinking who are they? Are they famous people? I only know Tiffany & Co. What is Valarie? Yea, I'll be famous soon......

Had a bunch of Christmas gifts come in for the dealers. I carried a million boxes up and down the stairs a million times. I think I'm done my exercise of the day. I don't know why manager and I have to carry boxes up the stairs. None of the guys even offered to help... Really...? I don't think I need a guy at all. I can do things without one. Boss once said "you seem like a tough girl", um, sometimes.

I was watching "My Ages Apart" where the groom ran away during the engagement party. I like that whole speech that she said when she was home with her dad and sisters but it's too hard to translate. I like how she was acting brave and said something like it's ok, wake up and then go shopping, I have my dad and sisters with me. But I know it hurts so bad deep down. People just have to act ok infront of people that care about them.

From another drama, "good guys are like shooting stars, they disappear quickly", yea, all the good guys are taken... Bad guys are like shooting stars too, they disappear from a relationship quickly.

I broke up with my best friend on her wedding day
I don't know why but wedding seems like it always end some kind of friendship. I hear other stories. Oh well, some stuff are good to know now before it's too late right?

A new study shows this is the most common way people meet their spouse now
Hm... my friend asked me again if I'm willing to try. I'm hoping there is no need for it but I may try it next year. A new year, a new start right? Just meeting new people, don't have to be with them if I don't want to right? Think of it as net working although it's a dating app...lol. Maybe test it as experiments and blog about each haha!

Out of the blue moment, the drama is actually kind of sad. At first it was boring then it got really sad when he finds out those ghosts were his parents and how he wanted to help them. *sniff sniff* At first I thought this is such a slow song but after listening to the lyrics carefully, I really like it. The drama just have to play this song during the sad scenes... Making this song sad and slow lol! But it's good.
胡鴻鈞 Hubert - 遙不可及
"每夜裡 漫長路線 盼十分鐘相見
無能為力寫發展 只要目前
流星般閃過 遙不可及的痛楚
如想不起我 我都給你留座
從身邊經過 場地或時候錯
我共你 當中欠了甚麼
數十里 漫長路線 記住這一張臉 
我願意 又淋著雨等晴天
如想得起我 已經不枉最初
從身邊經過 難受亦甜蜜過
你是我 一首美麗情歌 
數十里 漫長路線 盼十分鐘相見 
記住了這夜 不想明天 "

Will You Give Up Everything?

I started watching this variety show about HK women giving up everything just for the man they love and start over in a new country. Yes, it made me tear quite a bit. Usually if a show makes me tear, it's a good show.

I want to praise the host because during the time of filming she separated with her husband and I think it wasn't announced yet. It must hurt a lot seeing so much happy couples and knowing how your other half isn't the one to grow old with. =( She teared so much in the show. *pat pat*

The host said "sometimes us women can be pretty crazy for the man we love". So true but men are too stupid to know. "If a man truly loves you, you feel like cleaning the street is worth it". I actually don't know what she means by cleaning street because Cantonese have lots of slangs, not sure if that is one. If not then I guess it means women will suffer with the man that truly loves her?

One woman said "marriage is a gamble", yea you never know what will happen. If you try it, it may not turn out good or maybe it's perfect. But if you don't try, for sure you won't know.

One woman's story was kind of sad. she had a fiance in HK but because of an accident he couldn't handle it and left her. Then she met another guy who made another girl pregnant... Then she met her husband who doesn't mind her past and everything. At first she wanna see if everything will scare him off but it didn't. I guess like my friend said 3rd time is the charm? Well, some people go through tons before the "charm".

I was testing "that person" before too, I just thought it was unreal. Tell/say stuff to him that I think he probably would mind as his ideal gal. I know Libra likes things pretty/perfect. And I'm non of the above. Not sure if those played a part in his decision but whatever.

The host said "How we see tons of people everyday but none of them is the one. Why is the one on the other side of the world? There is no reason. Maybe in their past lives they made a promise to meet each other again. Maybe its a challenge to see if they will remember each other when they see again at a particular place?". Yup, no reason, that's why we always ask why. WHY!?

"Not everyone is that lucky. Not everyone will grow old with the person they meet. But don't give up that love will happen to you". True.

Will I move to a new country for someone I love. Hm...I don't know. The thing is I don't want to leave my family. And it also depends what country I have to go to. I also had this talk with that person but I said I don't want to leave my family. I'm a family person so leaving my family is like the most painful thing ever.

Would you want to start fresh in a new country for a man? You will have to learn a new language like a baby. You may be looked down at by others. Would you be able to handle all those challenges? Just for the name of love?

Typed in October.

Random moment, I like this, I like the whole what if part. Life is full of "what ifs" and "why", at least for me.
What If - Kane Brown ft. Lauren Alaina
"You say what if I hurt you, what if I leave you
What if I find somebody else and I don't need you
What if this goes south, what if I mess you up
You say what if I break your heart in two then what
What if I was made for you and you were made for me
What if this is it, what if it's meant to be
What if I ain't one of them fools just playin' some game
What if I just pulled you close, what if I leaned in
And the stars line up and it's our last first kiss
What if one of these days baby I'd go and change your name
What if I loved all these what ifs away
Well we ain't never gonna know unless we try it"