What is done is done

I did what I had to do and I'm happy about it! So proud of you Cin! Good job!

One week!

First of all, I want to say happy birthday to my lovely hamham Frisky. Although you are not with us anymore but you'll always be in our hearts. I LOVE YOU FOREVER!

Arg! Don't you hate it when parents play "cold war"? I hate it so much! I hate how they don't talk to each other. Makes me and my brother super awkward, especially dinner time. I miss the days when we always joke at dinner or anytime. It's already been one week! When will this end? I hope soon because I really hate it!!!

Time can tell what a person is like

Just got off work, dead tired and I still have to study for my final tomorrow. I don't want to work but no-one can sub me! I don't get my manager sometimes...she used to be so nice and now not so nice. I know I have been asking a lot of people to sub me but I'm a student not like all of the other co-workers. They are all married and have kids and don't have to go to school and stuff. I mean I try to sub as much as I can when you need someone. It's not like I don't want to, it's just that I can't! I didn't ask people to sub me THAT much! 

Today I have to leave early and she came and she was asking if I'm working next week, I said I'm working tomorrow. Then when I got out from back room she said "let's check schedule".  I'm like "I'm pretty sure it's me since no-one else can work on Thursdays" and she said "well you know you always ask people to sub you". I was like ..............................................................are you trying to say something(I didn't say that)? Don't really like her anymore. Makes me feel like I did something bad and I have to repay them or something. Seems like she always give me black face or something. I didn't do anything wrong! 

Last time when I talked to her about if someone can sub me she was saying how her son needs to work when he has exams. Well that's his problem! Not every job is the same and depends on what he does. She also said "head office doesn't like it (head office never likes anything), they'll say I don't need her I can hire someone else".

Super down

Yes, typing again when I need to study for final. Got a phone call tonight and it was about selling our house. I think it's sold? WHY? I don't want to sell the house. I have been living here for like 15 years or something. I love this house. I remember how much effort my parents put into this house to make it all nice and pretty. I remember all the happy and sad times in this house. Why do they have to buy the houses on this street and turning it into townhouses? Why can't you do that somewhere else? I hate those people so much! I like living on this street. I like how the schools and parks are near this house. I like that cherry blossom right outside my window. I like how we can plant plants in the front and back yard. I know we don't have to sell it if we don't want to but then we don't have money. If we have money we wouldn't even care about them. As I have said before, money always seems to be a problem for our family (we are not rich). That's why I try to work harder and earn more money. That's why I have to do good in school and get a good job so my family can live better. Why are you making it so hard for me? Did I do something wrong? All the stuff I want never happens and all the stuff I don't want always happens? Why are you playing me like that? Why is life so unfair? I wish we can win the lottery so then we don't have to sell this house, but that would never happen. We are never lucky...

Mad into happy

I'm suppose to finish my taxation homework but I don't get it.

On Sunday, I was working and there were the Canadian Cancer Society people outside my store trying to get donations. When they changed shifts, they were all guys and there was this guy who faced me the whole time and I was facing him but I wasn't looking him. I don't know if that guy was looking but I did look at him once and I did see him look. I always see him turn around and look. Then around closing time, this woman came in to buy something which pissed me off because I already put stuff away and I asked if she can pay by card she said "No, I pay cash." I'm like "But I'm closing and I put it away already" and she said "I'll give you exact change". I said "Ok". Then when she was paying she took out a $100 so I had to get all my change out (what a big fat liar!)! I was so pissed at her! Taking all my change out equals I have to RECOUNT all the cash! Usually, I would still smile no matter what but I can't smile anymore. I hope I don't see them ever again!!!!!!!! I was super pissed recounting everything and writing it down. Then that guy came in and asked if I want daffodils I'm like "Uh" and he said "Oh because we can't keep them" and I said "Sure". Although it didn't mean anything, he just want to get rid of it, it made me really happy. First time receiving flowers from a guy haha. I wish it was someone else though. I believe that day would happen soon.

March feelings

I don't really have anything in mind to type but I want to type something?

When I got home the first thing mommy said was "your daddy signed the contract to sell the house". I was like WHAT!? NO!!! It actually made me cried (obviously I didn't cry infront of my parents). Then I asked my brother if we really did he said no. I kind of knew it was a no because I did take a look at those papers and I don't see daddy's signature at all but just wanted to confirm. I really don't want to sell this house. I know I can't keep it forever but I want to keep it as long as possible.

Ganbatte!

I wanted to type something earlier but I had to study for my last midterm of this semester so I didn't. As all of you should know about the earthquake in Japan. So sad, why are there so much natural disasters around the world now? Does it have to do with climate change or this is just something that happens once after I don't know how many years? Well, I wish all these bad disasters would stop once and for all (don't think it would happen...that's life). It's sad seeing people leave, even worse if it's their loved ones. I can't do anything but I'll pray for them and hope they can "add oil" and be strong! I hope Vivi is ok over there and I hope she'll come back home soon.I had so much in mind few days ago but now I forgot everything...

I'm super tired from studying like 1-2 weeks straight. I was hoping for a break tonight but NO! I still have homework and a reading quiz due tomorrow! My eye has been twitching like everyday I think? It's so annoying! Always feel sleepy but I can't take nap because it's always so loud at home. Took like one week off work just to study, so I hope I'll do good on the midterms or I'll be so disappointed in myself.

Afraid of losing something

Once again I'm suppose to be studying for my midterm on Thursday but I want to type again haha! I don't know why but suddenly I was thinking of being afraid to lose something that I love or treasure a lot. For some reason I was thinking of losing my precious hamster when I was young. Every morning we would put him into his exercise ball and that naughty boy would always somehow leave the exercise ball and walk to somewhere else. Mommy would always say "He's gone!" I would always get scared and worried. Scared that I can't find him ever again. Scared that he'll never come back to me. Scared that he'll get hurt since he is so tiny and everything around him are so big. Scared that he doesn't know his way out. Luckily, we always manage to find him but I hate that feeling of losing him. He left me for many years but he'll always be in my heart forever!

Then I thought of Emily (little girl from this coffee shop). She always bring toys with her whenever she comes to the mall and she would always bring them to show me. She would always play around everywhere and leave her toys behind. One day, she came into my store and said she lost her stuffy pig and she started to cry. I was kind of surprised how she came to me about it. I would go help her look but I was working so I asked where she went and told her to go back to the places that she went to and look for it. The piggy was actually at her coffee store, I knew she would find it.

No Money No Talk

I am suppose to finish my taxation homework and go sleep but I feel like typing. I was just talking to my brother and he was telling me how his friends said why don't we sell the house and get the money so we can live better. How the business isn't doing well. Totally don't feel like doing homework after that. The only thing I can think of now is what can I do to make our living better.

I wanted to take a break and go back to Hong Kong this summer but I guess that won't happen. I know if I go back I'll spend a lot of money. I guess I can go back when I have more money? I wanted to buy this expensive necklace but I guess I won't since a necklace isn't that important and it's a necklace that cost $220 not including tax yet (not worth it Cin). I should stop spending on useless stuff. I keep telling myself but it doesn't always work. I should rethink 100 times before I buy something now. If I don't go back to Hong Kong this summer I think I should find a better job that pays a much higher wage then both of my jobs now...Work full time if I can this summer. Earn as much money as I can.

Why does almost everything have to do with money? Why can't we have a little bit more money? A little would help a lot. I know money isn't everything but I also know that without money you can't do anything. Why is life so unfair? (I am a very negative person but tries to think positively) But I am happy that we don't have to live in the streets and I'm happy with most of the things I have now. I am super happy to have my family, that's all I care. Can something good happen to our family? All I can think of are bad stuff that has happened to us, especially 2010. Did we do something wrong? Life is so hard especially when one gets older. I wish I was still a child, at least I wouldn't have to worry about this and that. Well, I just hope 2011 will be a good year and we'll find lots of money and live better!

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! It's just anther ordinary day for me.

You know I don't get how people can be late to work for 10 minutes (if you know you are going to be late shouldn't you get out a bit earlier?). If you are the boss, I guess that's ok but you are just a worker. It's not her first time too. She did that to me before and she was almost 15 minutes late. If you are going to be late why don't you be late for the full 15 minutes so I can get that for my pay? Why do you always have to do that to me? Did I do something wrong to you? If the boss worked before her shift would she be late too?

How people can change so fast ...

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

Had a midterm on Chinese New Year. Not good at all. I studied till 3:30 ish am and woke up at 9am to study more. It was horrible. I was so sleepy! I don't know how people can stay up all night to study and go do the exam. That's crazy, I would be so tired that I can't think of anything><. Well, I think I did ok on the midterm. I knew most of the stuff but that employment income question was so long and hard. I don't get it and it took up most of my time. I didn't have time to finish the last two questions. I randomly wrote something and like whatever haha! After midterm, I realize I left my umbrella in class so had to run in to get it. The prof seems nice, but the person who sat at my spot isn't THAT nice. He kicked my umbrella somewhere else!

Then went to talk to manager since she told me to take her shift on Friday but I really can't since I work at other side. Like I would love to help because I love to help people but I really can't! I'm not a super woman, I wish I was! When I told her I can't, she totally changed. She is so nice all the time and she went from being nice to mean.>< She gave me a black face and she threw the hooks and ignored me. I was like standing there...uh...Well, you know I work on the other side. It's not like you ask me to work, I can work. I want to help but I really can't. I guess because I took Wednesday off so she expects me to work on the Friday, kind of like an exchange thing...? It would be super awkward to ask someone to sub me and they see me working on the other side. I felt bad that I can't help but I feel even worse when she black faced me.>< I don't know what to do. I'm always like this...When I feel bad about something I want to do something to make it better. I guess you can say I'm really "soft hearted" kind of person? Maybe she was acting so mean so I'll have to say yes I can take her shift after? AHHHHHH! HELP? What should I do?

People sure do change fast...She was very nice to me on Friday which kind of scares me. I guess she knew she was acting kind of mean on Thursday? I just hope that won't happen again because I didn't like it, it was scary and I didn't know what to do.

Boring story #1

My Space wants me to update to this thingy but I don't want to so I decided to create a blog here instead.

It's called "My Boring Stories" because I don't think anyone would be interested in reading this but I want to express myself.

A lot of things have happened so far in 2011. Nothing bad happened so far, well, maybe today. School is never good, been kinda stressed. Too much homework, quizzes, assignments and so on. I feel like I have no life now, just school and work.

Today, went out with parents and when daddy was driving, this stupid car infront of us keep stepping on the break on purpose so daddy flashed them with the lights and they suddenly got off the car and said something and hit our car window. I totally forgot to take pictures of their stupid faces!