Time can tell what a person is like

Just got off work, dead tired and I still have to study for my final tomorrow. I don't want to work but no-one can sub me! I don't get my manager sometimes...she used to be so nice and now not so nice. I know I have been asking a lot of people to sub me but I'm a student not like all of the other co-workers. They are all married and have kids and don't have to go to school and stuff. I mean I try to sub as much as I can when you need someone. It's not like I don't want to, it's just that I can't! I didn't ask people to sub me THAT much! 

Today I have to leave early and she came and she was asking if I'm working next week, I said I'm working tomorrow. Then when I got out from back room she said "let's check schedule".  I'm like "I'm pretty sure it's me since no-one else can work on Thursdays" and she said "well you know you always ask people to sub you". I was like ..............................................................are you trying to say something(I didn't say that)? Don't really like her anymore. Makes me feel like I did something bad and I have to repay them or something. Seems like she always give me black face or something. I didn't do anything wrong! 

Last time when I talked to her about if someone can sub me she was saying how her son needs to work when he has exams. Well that's his problem! Not every job is the same and depends on what he does. She also said "head office doesn't like it (head office never likes anything), they'll say I don't need her I can hire someone else".

Super down

Yes, typing again when I need to study for final. Got a phone call tonight and it was about selling our house. I think it's sold? WHY? I don't want to sell the house. I have been living here for like 15 years or something. I love this house. I remember how much effort my parents put into this house to make it all nice and pretty. I remember all the happy and sad times in this house. Why do they have to buy the houses on this street and turning it into townhouses? Why can't you do that somewhere else? I hate those people so much! I like living on this street. I like how the schools and parks are near this house. I like that cherry blossom right outside my window. I like how we can plant plants in the front and back yard. I know we don't have to sell it if we don't want to but then we don't have money. If we have money we wouldn't even care about them. As I have said before, money always seems to be a problem for our family (we are not rich). That's why I try to work harder and earn more money. That's why I have to do good in school and get a good job so my family can live better. Why are you making it so hard for me? Did I do something wrong? All the stuff I want never happens and all the stuff I don't want always happens? Why are you playing me like that? Why is life so unfair? I wish we can win the lottery so then we don't have to sell this house, but that would never happen. We are never lucky...

Mad into happy

I'm suppose to finish my taxation homework but I don't get it.

On Sunday, I was working and there were the Canadian Cancer Society people outside my store trying to get donations. When they changed shifts, they were all guys and there was this guy who faced me the whole time and I was facing him but I wasn't looking him. I don't know if that guy was looking but I did look at him once and I did see him look. I always see him turn around and look. Then around closing time, this woman came in to buy something which pissed me off because I already put stuff away and I asked if she can pay by card she said "No, I pay cash." I'm like "But I'm closing and I put it away already" and she said "I'll give you exact change". I said "Ok". Then when she was paying she took out a $100 so I had to get all my change out (what a big fat liar!)! I was so pissed at her! Taking all my change out equals I have to RECOUNT all the cash! Usually, I would still smile no matter what but I can't smile anymore. I hope I don't see them ever again!!!!!!!! I was super pissed recounting everything and writing it down. Then that guy came in and asked if I want daffodils I'm like "Uh" and he said "Oh because we can't keep them" and I said "Sure". Although it didn't mean anything, he just want to get rid of it, it made me really happy. First time receiving flowers from a guy haha. I wish it was someone else though. I believe that day would happen soon.